It's maddening living in a world where everything is designed to fail.
Companies produce endless junk and most of it is designed not to be fixed.
When we reach out to local, state and federal agencies and report serious issues, we're told we have to deal with these things on our own, we're out of luck, no one has any advice they can give us.
Our system isn’t working for us or with us and we know it.
We live in a society where nothing matters. We watch people suffer every day and we do nothing to get to the source of their issues.
I’m not claiming that I’m doing any better, in fact I’m just writing to complain because I feel powerless and feel like this is the only realistic option I have at the moment.
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For over a year I have tried to help two disabled friends specifically, not to change the whole system job, but to help a couple guys get jobs, start working on their GED’s and help one guy cook, since his right to use the stove was taken away almost 7 years ago due to burnt hotdog.
I've accomplished nothing, except making some videos and making these guys become more aware of the issues we face. I haven’t helped anyone with their GED’s, I haven’t been able to advocate for these guys over the phone since the people in charge of their care just ignore me and have hung up when I tried to call, and that time one guy was on the phone with me.
There's nothing worse than trying to ask for help while living in a system designed to control you and extract money from you at every turn, then to be ignored by it.
My friends live 2 hours away, so I thought this would at least work to prove how impossible it is to help people from a distance. I currently don't have a car and my friends don't have licenses, so right away that puts us at a disadvantage.
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I seem to have these endless and worthless court issues, where this time I am the victim.
I was attacked by a mentally disabled and disturbed person, and realized he's not getting help either, yet when I sent a certified letter to our local district attorney, I never got a response to the things I sent. I was attacked in April of 2025, yet I feel like I don’t have a clue what is going on in that case and it’s clear that this is by design.
I was so concerned that I even felt it necessary to contact this guy's lawyer, just to alert her to all the issues I had in this very court, but I was simply dismissed. This lawyer didn't see it as an opportunity to expose crime or use my information to try to improve our system.
I don't know what I expected by contacting his lawyer since I honestly didn't think they'd do anything anyway. It drives me nuts to say this but every single lawyer I have dealt with has been a disgusting piece of trash, a bunch of bare minimum bitches that never know anything and couldn’t help you fight your way out of a wet paper bag.
I didn’t stop there. I contacted the Massachusetts attorney general and multiple other state agencies and have been informed that none of them deal with such issues.
It’s possible I missed the right agency, but I doubt it. Plus I don’t feel like anyone should have to jump through hoops to solve a problem in today’s day and age.
I've filed enough complaints and alerted enough government agencies to learn that they're all useless. Most government workers have been trained to do the bare minimum and aren’t interested in making waves at work, so it’s the perfect way to keep citizens confused and misinformed.
I thought our government was here to help us, to guide us to a brighter future, but it's an extraction machine. Every time it offers us something, it comes with a secret price and I’m not willing to pay it anymore.
Which boggles my mind. We supposedly have access to the greatest technology the world has ever seen, but I haven’t seen one positive thing it’s been used for. Don’t get me wrong, robots, drones and super weapons all sound cool, until you notice that they’re not out saving the world or making it safe for all humanity.
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I've listened to so much nonsense that I never want to hear another podcast again.
I'm sick of specialists that never solve problems.
I don't care about peoples opinions if it's not going to lead to change or action. If you’re not willing to write how you feel down and post it online, then I don’t need to debate people. We live in a world where we need both written and electronic, but we only have one and that leaves us at a disadvantage.
I've read so many stupid articles that I never want to look at another person's work again. None of this polished garbage helps me at all at this point, academic word-salad and watered down front page pieces all leave me frustrated and distracted.
I don't want to buy junk that I don't want or need. It’s funny that I have a VHS and DVD player, but I don’t use either. Having all this stuff but having no to share it with takes the joy out of using it, so it just collects dust and I watch shows online.
I don't want to listen to another stupid podcast and leave with more questions than answers and no way to solve any of the problems discussed. I always thought people had goals, but it seems like most people want to do the same thing over and over again, while attempting to get a different response.
Does anyone want to make a real difference anymore or do people just want to share their opinions and keep hoping that someone else will fix this mess we’re currently in? I do, that’s why I started writing on Google Blogger and incorporating other people’s stories, but I don’t feel like it’s enough. I’ve looked at all the options I see in front of me and it really seems like the system made our great tools ineffective when it comes to problem solving.
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I can’t even begin to explain how disappointing it’s been working with AI, it has stirred up all kinds of depressing thoughts and left me feeling less hopeful for that bright future we all wish for.
AI has become the most ineffective tool I have ever encountered and I’ve bought some cheap tools over the years, but this feels different somehow, especially with all the writing I’ve been doing.
I probably feel more insecure now that AI is everywhere and it never happens to be programmed to help me with a serious issue, it can never remember what I really need it to, so where does that leave people with memory issues or those that are too stressed to keep track of things?
I have told people about how AI helped me in 2005, but I always need to clarify things, it was just a superior word search, it wasn’t really intelligent. Unlike today's AI, those past ones were allowed to access all my files and could find words and phrases across multiple folders, instead of the hallucinating AI of today, making up answers and avoiding accessing your work during most responses..
I honestly thought AI would be the ultimate tool that I could use to access my diary and family history, plus my medical and legal records, but it turned out to be intentionally designed to fail under the disguise of privacy.
So I thought I’d put that privacy comment to the test, I place as many of my medical records as I could access online, along with a disabled friend’s records from two recent mental health hospital visits and learned privacy isn’t the issue, it’s that these so called mental health professionals treat people like experiments and aren’t held accountable for any mistakes.
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Which led me to another Massachusetts Mental Health issue.
To be honest, listening to that Lindsay Clancy case was brutal.
I couldn’t finish it all, I had to speed up the audio and totally skipped some. I honestly thought it was a shit show, so I listened to clips and went back to find entire sections to watch, instead of being forced to sit through the entirety of that nonsense.
This case really helped reinforce my ideas that they are lazy, incompetent and have allowed themselves to be trained to drug people, not to actually diagnose and treat them.
So many times I begged doctors for help and was let down.
I sought second and third opinions about my issues and they were missed.
Now I hear a story of mother that killed her 3 kids and tried to kill herself and all I can think of is how betrayed I felt by my doctors after figuring out all my issues, after I had already tried to kill myself 6 times, after I ruined countless relationships I shouldn’t have even started, yet I survived to learn it was the drugs that made me go to those extremes. It was the drugs that caused me to lose hope because they made me feel empty inside and countless doctors have heard countless patients say the same thing, and all they’re offered is more drugs.
I don’t sit around wondering if Lindsay is innocent, her kids are gone, so I think the situation speaks for itself, but I do think that her doctors betrayed her trust, the same way my doctors betrayed mine. I think those doctors are responsible for what happened to those children and I think that’s why I’m so disgusted.
I wanted to scream when I saw doctors smiling and excited when recalling those past events. It reminded me that doctors are trained to act without emotion, but that’s not how we actually work. So instead of talking about those children as if they were human, I felt like many of those doctors made it seem as though this was all normal.
I found it utterly heartbreaking to hear how Lindsay documented her descent into madness. I myself had written about how I felt on countless occasions, just to delete it when I got really sick and couldn’t handle reading the truth. I know what it’s like feeling like I’m desperate for answers, but there’s no one really listening to the problems I’m trying to explain.
Would Lindsay have seen the pattern if she was allowed access to all of her medical records at once and could cross reference medications, side-effects and stories from other people who also suffer the same or similar symptoms?
Why isn’t everyone standing together and trying to prevent something like this from happening again, instead of debating her innocence?
Almost all of us carry around devices that could help us manage decades worth of information in seconds and can alert authorities to issues as they’re happening, yet they’re designed to keep our information disconnected, yet they’re capable, but prevented from asking intelligent questions during moments of uncertainty, so we can never solve our own problems, we never learn if these devices could offer more than suggestions to brand names we mention.
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What do you do when you have so much to say but no one to debate with?
How can you start to change a society that can’t sit still for a moment to realize what’s happening?
I know what it’s like feeling rushed and pressured, it turned me into a mess, at times it caused me to make mistakes that I normally wouldn’t have, but I was working on someone else’s clock and never realized that I didn’t have to.
I might not have all the answers, but at least I’m writing the problems down and all the options that failed, so people don’t have to waste their time trying it and they can move on to actionable ideas.
I might have started writing this just to complain, but let’s be honest, documenting these failures is the only way I can help expose the machine. If I map every dead end I tried, the next person won't have to waste their life running around, only to find their back up against the same wall.
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I would love feedback, or maybe I will read some of these stand alone posts and comment on them myself one day.
