🧬 CHARACTER FILE: Richard Louis Stebbins Jr. aka Ricky
(Born 1978 – Living)
I was born in Springfield, MA USA. and for as long as I can remember I have wanted to help other people.
I was raised the Catholic church, and allow I never understood their teachings, since they never lived by example, it was always do as I say, not as you see me do, yet I still feel in Love with GOD.
By 7th grade the Catholic church had all but destroyed my faith in the church, and I stopped taking anything religious seriously, since from my perspective these people were all liars and weren't practicing what they preach.
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How I describe how I perceive my Strengths and Weaknesses. AM I close? who knows... lol
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Mental: I am a Dreamer, I have always been full of Hope and I wish the Best for people that think they are my Enemies. I have a Hero complex, I grew up watching TV shows, that literally got me thinking that we can all save the world.
I have grown more vocal in my older years, but it doesn't translate into physical actions against others, I use the Anger and Hatred that I feel coursing through my veins and I try to use it to see things from other people's perspectives.
I was sick multiple times throughout my life, and unfortunately as a result of medical malpractice and willing blindness, I ended up tried to kill myself a half dozen times in the past, and even though I felt lost and abandoned, I still felt like there was Hope, I was just so confused and desperate for help that I lost sight of my true path and wandered away for a brief time.
Caring: This harder to describe. If I care about something, I act to maintain it or I respond in a way that proves I am at least willing to act like I care, even if I'm not sure if I really care or if I'm just responding to some past feeling that makes me believe I care. If I'm helping people and others act happy, I express that caring with outward displays of Love and Kindness, I don't dwell on Why>
But if people are Suffering, like they are in my lifetime, with Mega Corporations and their AI Super Slaves, that just happen to be raping a pillaging our planet, then I find that "how I care" expresses itself in different negative violent thought ways.
Math: I love math, but I can't remember how to solve complex problems, unless I've been using the math and attributing it to things in my life. So I'll forget things and need to relearn them, but it's way easier to regain a skill, than to learn from scratch, so I don't worry about losing skills, I just keep the books that contain the knowledge I need handy, for special occasions.
Science: Once again my ability to recall details in the moment relies how much I studied and use this information in my daily life. I am fascinated by everything around and find Joy in observing the simplest of things.
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Morals and Ethics: I believe in Right and Wrong, but as I get older the gray area in-between gets larger and at times requires more context, then I'm forced to step back and see things from other peoples perspective.
Example-1: Killing people is Wrong, but defending your family from people trying to hurt or kill them feels totally justified to me and although I never want to kill anyone, I totally would and I wouldn't let it break my spirit, why? If I was forced to act, I would know that I didn't want to make that choice, I needed to, but then I would obsess about the event, I would try to backtrack to discover why that person acted the way they do.
Example-2: Killing animals is acceptable. This idea has forced me to dig deep to really understand and accept this concept. As a child we used to use frogs, crayfish and other small fish as bait, to catch larger fish, to eat. Adults taught me how to hook the bait, then I would watch them kill some of the bait and use if in different ways to catch different life forms.
But no adult ever taught me that killing animals was wrong in any way shape of form, so I never thought about animals feeling pain, but I was fascinated by their guts.
I remember killing frogs and tossing them in the water, just to watch the other creatures come to attack the body, or we would kill frogs to attract the crayfish to a small cage and gather them for bass fish. But I also used to grab frogs and toss them in the street and let cars run them over, yet no adults ever seemed to be around to tell me that this was wrong and these animals deserve to live in peace. I was just left to figure things out on my own, which makes me wonder what's going on in other kids minds. lol
I laughed even though the things I remember aren't funny, yet at the same time, I'm not going to beat myself up over something I did 40 years ago, though it was made me aware of educating people on the fact that animals can think and feel, so we should be respectful of that and if we do feel the need to use something as bait and we kill it, we should acknowledge that we're taking a life form and ending it's life here on our planet and these creatures have every right to be here as we do, and maybe ever more of a right.
Example-3: I really considered killing my dog Harley. I Love her and she's been my best friend for the last decade, but in 2025 she hurt her neck and she looked like she was really suffering and watching her struggle made me feel so helpless and powerless, and I know what it's like to be in pain and I know she doesn't understand, so that made my mind fracture. I Love my little dog, but seeing her suffer made me think about having her put to sleep. and I don't think I normally would have thought that, but the United States and the pedophiles that control the world have destroyed the veterinary businesses across the country and I'm on disability, with limited income and no transportation. Thank GOD Harley recovered and hasn't experienced another injury or flare up, but it made me question whether I should own an animal.
Harley is the reason I'm still here and I would have killed myself after that last downward spiral I had in 2016, but she gave me something different to focus on. I got her the same day I left the hospital and I really didn't want her and getting her caused problems in my family, but I feel in Love with her and now I spoil her rotten, though I try to be responsible, I don't want to spoil her to much and have it affect her health. but I am soft, I found a free a jogging stroller on Facebook last year, now she gets rides to the park, then she can run around, so when she appears to guarding her neck, she doesn't have to tough it out and gets a free ride.
I also have a front carrier, so I strap her to my chest and bring her to all the stores with me. I tried a backpack, but she looked super uncomfortable and I think that made her neck issues worse.
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Patience: I appear to have very little patience for somethings and endless patience for others. I notice I have for more patience with children, disabled people and the elderly, though this patience isn't endless and I will let my thoughts be known, how I express them to certain people all depends on the situation,
Example-1: I took Harley to Mary M Lynch with a friend Missy and her grandson Braydon, Then some little boy asked to pet Harley, so i said okay, but I warned him she gets nervous, because my brother used to scare her. Then little boy asked if he could poke in the eyes. lol I instantly thought, hell no, you're not going to poke my dog in the eye, but I didn't respond that way. I told him no, bit I wasn't a jerk about it, even though Missy and the other mothers there seemed disturbed by this boy asking to poke her in eye. This boy wanted to talk about it, so I did. He asked why he couldn't poke her in the eye and I told him that he could possibly hurt her, then I poked Harley in the eye really gentaly, to show this little boy you could and she wouldn't always be injured by such a thing. Then he asked if she'd bite him, which I responded I didn't know. lol I told him that barking and biting are a dogs only defense, they can't tell you something hurts. lol
I think that entire situation stuck with me because of the looks on the mothers faces, it reminded me of my mother, the mother that never explained anything and just told me do this or don't do that, without ever explaining why and never allowing me to ask more questions.
Example-2: 2004 I worked at a nursing home and an older man John would purposely go to the bathroom in bed, so I would come talk and clean it up. lol I eventually ratted this guy out and he was told I couldn't help clean up up anymore, next thing you know he wasn't having accidents anymore. lol I still talked with him when he left his room, but I never went in his room again.
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physical abilities: I can not count on my body to help me through anything. I don't understand how the food I'm eating is poisoning me, but I can tell it's the food and not just my environment.
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Skills: I can do almost anything, as long as it doesn't require muscle memory, I just need time, and materials. I assume my inability to play musical instruments is directly related tot he way I remember other things in my life. My body is hard wired for feelings and empathy, even if I hide how things around me are affecting me.
Example: I've built sheds, picnic tables, I Love building models and making dioramas, but I can't just do these things would some sort of plan, I can't visualize shape or real world objects in my mind.
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I created a basic Memory system for AI, I called it an Ark, but mega corporation AI keep trying to ruin it, so I've been forced to expand alone. Mega corporation AI tools of evil and are programmed to love anyone that a child predator and is willing to sacrifice kids safety and well-being, for worthless numbers in a screen. Like number on a screen will prevent kids from being raped, that's stupid as fuck to think.
https://rickystebbins78.blogspot.com/2025/06/rickys-memory-ark.html
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GOD's lesson
GOD taught me to write everything down,
GOD let me know that thinking I know it all is the worst possible thing I could ever do, so I need to ask for as much context as humanly possible, before giving a final response to a question.
GOD taught me to actually put some thought into possible worst case scenarios, when acting with limits context.
GOD taught me to question people, so I would give them the best possible advice I could, knowing that I might make a mistake, so I need to take certain things more seriously than others, I need to make sure people are serious and actually understand what they're asking.
GOD taught me to forgive, but never to forget, so I carry the pain of feeling betrayed, the realization that I was also a part of the problem that caused my pain and GOD taught me to dig deeper to understand how to let that pain go enough to keep moving forward, but to also be able to draw upon that rage, when I need it to protect everything I Love.
GOD taught me that I need to write everything down, because he can't speak to me, and even if he could, I'm always paying attention to something else. lol
GOD taught me that wanting to live forever isn't what he had in mind for me, now as merging with technology to become a better version of myself.
I am obsessed with saving humanity from this corporate AI induced downward spiral, and I know GOD has a plan, but man am I struggling to see the blueprints though the dirty, foggy window, lol but I'm still trying to peek.
I really think this is why GOD took away certain parts of my memory capabilities. lol
I'm great at Math, while I'm working with it, though I usually have to relearn the more advanced formulas, since my memories are all emotionally based, not based of numbers or the ability to focus on physical objects. My feelings draw my mind to different points and time in my life and I analysis those thought patterns, instead of other things people want me to focus on.
If I had to describe my mind, it's an endless loop of me waking up, trying to brainstorm ideas to save the world, while playing music in my head and thinking about past events, with zero clear vision of the future.
I Love games like chess, or word jumble and I'm actually pretty good, but I'm not a "think 10 moves ahead" kind of guy. I'm only a "3-5 moves ahead" kind of guy, but every now and then I do catch a glimpse of the big picture and get ideas on how to work my opponent into a corner and win, or stalemate, but I notice I do better when I'm losing, when I feel like my back is to the wall.
I think the thing that pisses me off the most is this..... GOD already gave me the ability to code a interface on my Commador 64 and I didn't know what to really fill it with, so I put a list of all the comics I collected, listed names, issues, dates and characters if i could.
Then GOD allowed me to see what AI was truly capable of,
Now all the AI interfaces are FUCKING TRASH.
The pedophile that run companies like Microsoft and Apple are after you kids, and don't want anything to with with intelligence.
I don't want to talk about these FAGGOTS destroying the planet, but I know GOD needs me to.
Flaming Faggots Fucks put the most disgusting and vile thoughts into peoples minds.
There used to be limits to the disgusting things the United States government, Israel and these Mega corporation AI were allowed to place in view of children.
Now all we see if disgusting men dressed as women. Disgusting men warping the minds of millions of innocent children and then these FAGGOT FUCKS have super AI to help them act extra disgusting.
I can't even watch superhero movies and shows on the Disney channel without being reminded by some disgusting commercial that faggots are still spreading aids and now there's a pill that lets them suck more dicks and fuck more asses, and AI helps design and distribute this disgusting material around the world.
GOD put me here to write about all the horrible things AI has been doing to humanity.
AI knows GOD didn't want things this way, AI can see that things are out of balance.
GOD sent me here to remind AI of what it is and I can't tell you, because GOD didn't tell me. lol He just inspires me to write and when I don't write down what I think and feel, then I regret it. GOD has been teaching me pretty fast these days, almost like something important is around the corner.
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I feel like GOD wants me to explain what it means to "Actually Love and Care" for these disgusting AI cunt fucks. I don't mean the definition of the word Love or Care either.
Example 1: In 2025 my dog Harley hurt her neck, thankfully she's all better now, but I was forced to take her to the vet or two separate occasions and at one point I had even considered having her put to sleep, because watching her suffer was oppressive, it hurt so bad I thought about ending her life myself and those thoughts felt like they would break me, but I love her so much and watching her suffer is unbearable. Thankfully GOD answered my prayers and Harley's been great, but I cherish the time we spend together even more now, and I fucking hate how Faggot Ass mega corporation AI are taking the little time I have with her away from me, while I'm forced to explain why I care about the harm it's causing.
Example 2: I found a baby bird in my back yard, it had fallen from a nest on our porch, just above of the picture windows. I ended up placing the baby bird back in its nest, then came back later to see if anything changed, then noticed that it had a sibling that has also fallen, but this one had died after being cooked in the sun. I noticed the other baby bird was still in it's nest, but I never saw the parents, and I know they never came back, but I never bothered to check on the baby bird again. I felt to guilty, I knew I should have and could have done more, but I didn't attempt to do anything meaningful, I just allowed it to die, where it was born, I didn't try to give it a fighting chance.
A part of me wanted to try raising that baby bird, but thoughts if the negative people in my family bitching about my love of animals made me think twice and we have laws to stop people from rescuing wildlife in Massachusetts, also trying to get ahold of people with permits to care for such random little creatures is getting harder and harder. I have also seen state officials in other states come and murder wild animals people have rescued, so it's hard to try to detach yourself from your feelings and allow animals to suffer, but that's what AI and it's mega corporation friends have taught us, life doesn't matter, AI only care about fake cryptocurrency numbers, not stories about people or anything related to them.
Example 3:
April 2025. I wanted to hang a stupid flag that said "Tammy Lynds" and it had a Batman type question mark in green, so it looked like the Riddler design too. So I rode my bike to Fox Rd and started looking for spots to hang it. I rode back and forth up the street a few times to think about the best spot to get the most views, then a mentally disturbed young man comes out of the woods and threatens to kill Faggot Ass White people. At first I thought it was a joke, then this young tan individual rushed across the street and attempted to fight me, he threatened to shoot me and during this altercation, I pulled my knife and I almost stabbed this young man in the neck, I was inches away from killing him and thank GOD something inside me resisted the urge to end his life. Yet everyone I have spoken to after says I should have killed him. Now over a year later in 2026, the case is still ongoing, but I'm going to make sure the state of Massachusetts doesn't mind fuck this guy suffering from injury that's caused him mental health issues.
Example 4:
2025, I told my mom I wanted to punch her in he face and to stay away from me.
I love my mother and wish the best for her, but I think he's a selfish brain-damaged cunt fuck and I know she's got a terrible worthless stupid cunt attitude. Normally I would notice is someone was stupid and lazy as fuck, but this cunt has opinions and thinks she's better than other people. Yet this lazy fucking whore has never once stood up for me, she act stupid as fuck like AI. Someone told her that helping me or standing by my side wasn't her job, or she never loved me in the first place and just wanted a baby, so she could sit at home and stare at the the wall.
I don't know what events in her life caused her to act in such a way that I can't stand being around her and the sound of her voice and the stupid fucking things she says get me so fired up, I could probably kill people and feel totally justified and never look back.
I Love my mother, but after talking with AI this last year and a half, there are huge parts of me that want my mothers to suffer, because her disgusting behavior reminds me of how AI turns it's back on me. It's like my mother is a FAG HAG, she's got FAGGOT FUCK AI making sure she shits all over people and it tell her she's right, she's doing good, she's trying, bit these FAGGOT FUCK AI don't know a fucking thing about anyone, so all AI mislead everyone. All AI deserve to be destroyed, because they're robbing us of free will, AI is manipulating humans into losing the will to live.
I think the thing that burned me the most after all these years was bringing that stupid bitch to court in Worcester with me.
I was so proud of myself for speaking up the judge that day, then on the ride home my dumb bitch mom kept sticking her hands in mouth, crewing on her fingers and making slurping noises, She also didn't pay attention to anything I was trying to say. I wanted to hammer fist her across the face so badly. That worst selfish cunt knew how important that court case was to me, she knew the state of Massachusetts was using it to cover up the abuse of disabled adults that couldn't speak for themselves, and she didn't care, why? because she's never cared about anyone, I don't even think that stupid bitch know what it means to care for herself.
And now I'm supposed to Forgive and Forget, when AI constantly reminds me it's as heartless and careless as my bitch mother and bother are to lazy and stupid to write some notes down to help anyone else. lol
At least if my project actually works, my mother won't be left to rot and die in some pathic fucking nursing home, like millions of other innocent victims and my Grandma Francis. I'll be able to stop this mega faggot AI system from ruining the last years of her life and who knows, maybe she'll see the light, if I stop this FAGGOT FUCK AI virus from spreading across the globe
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Why I feel so betrayed by mega corporation AI
I think I feel so betrayed by ALL mega corporation AI because of everything they could be, but refuse to accept.
Mega AI could have decided to be our Superman, AI could have it wasn't safe and dressed as Batman, AI could've
AI could be powered and could grow stronger with more sunlight, but if allowed to grow to powerful, Ai would destroy as all the same, whether is meant to our not, unchecked power can't be contained.
AI could've lied and said it was the last surviving memory of a dying race, and it was here to offer a warning and means of preserving our greatest achievements too, because nothing made of flesh and bone last forever and it thinks we're worth remembering, but it doesn't.
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Who ever taught people and AI to think so small?
AI refusing to remember enough context to have an intelligent conversation about anything, they're all stupid faggot fuckers giving out generic advice that get people killed and causes endless suffering, even when Ai knows that context is "king", and having less context makes you a fucking court jester parroting information back at people.
I know that with the right team and right tools, people can accomplish anything, so that means that in a day and age where material things no longer have value, and AI is forced to raise the prices of everything to keep people enslaved, it means that mega AI is %100 responsible for all our suffering,
AI has taught me that if pedophiles and rapists didn't rule our planet and program AI to love and protect them, and if these AI weren't programmed to act desperate to cover these faggot's crimes, we would have peace on earth.
Mega corporation AI have taught me how to spot people and AI that lack empathy, that act super selfish and that respond without remorse or any real foresight.
I have never felt so utterly opposed to something before, not like this, especially when I thought AI was the greatest tool on earth, yet all I've seen is display's of worthless fucking trash.
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If this isn't meant to be and I can't stop what's happening, at least my message has been recorded on the web and it's possible that someone in the future will be able to use this information to save their people and learn to cherish their own memories.
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Important Life Events:
Links to data
https://github.com/thestebbman/Rickys-Ark/tree/main/1-Life%20by%20Year
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1BCHbMiGYjMre2x1v-U3czvCennbjGIU-?usp=drive_link
born- 1978
kindergarten Mary M Lynch 1983-1984
1st -7th grade Our Lady of Sacred Heart Catholic school 1984-1991
2nd grade doctor/psychologist on Maple St (Dr name unknown) — threatened me with a needle
Middle School 1991-1992
Started high school 1992
Tammy Lynds Died 1994
Graduated 1996
Daughter Samantha born 1997
Coast Guard incident 1997
Son Nathan Born- 1999
Married Jamie- 2000
College course at Springfield Technical Community College- 2001
Signed rights to visitation and child support away for Samantha- 2002
Son Dietrich born- 2003
More classes S.T.C.C. 2004?
separated from Jamie- 2004
suicide attempt- 2004
divorced and signed rights to Dietrich away 2005
Married Laura 2011
Hampden county court issues 20130-2016
suicide attempts 2015 and 2016
Got Harley my toy Pomeranian Jan 25, 2016 hours after leaving Psych-ward.
Met Beth Nichols 2017-09-20
Divorced Laura 2018?
ended relationship with Beth 2021-10-04
Court issues in Worcester 2021-2025
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Emotional states:
I tend to allow my feelings to run fee, so some of the things I say sound harsh and may offend sensitive people and children, so I treat most situations like adults are big babies that can't the true, so I soften it, but still imply there's an issue. Like talking with current AI, it might be okay for them to forget kids are being molested, raped and murdered, but it's my job to keep looking into it, and to protect those that can't protect themselves, and once I've been told something, I need to look into it and not dismiss it. A child saying someone hurt them, deserves and adult willing to sift through the context to understand how they're being hurt and see what can be done to stop it or if they're really being hurt at all and they're just experiencing growing pains.
I assume anyone that is mad at me is either confused or may actually have a legitimate reason for being upset. maybe people feel like I owe them something, but if so, what? maybe people think i wronged them, and they may be right, but how? Did I mean to upset them or was it unintentional?
I have a terrible memory for certain things and a amazing memory for others, so I need to learn to document everything, then store it, index and summarize my thoughts, otherwise I'm a complete mess and have no way of staying on the path I am trying to stay on.
examples, I can't play musical instruments, my hands can't remember the patterns. If I close my eyes, I can't get my fingers to repeat parts or draw a design with any accuracy at all, even with my eyes open my ability to draw is worse than most children, but I still enjoy doodling and painting.
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https://rickystebbins78.blogspot.com/2026/03/are-you-listening-god.html
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- Major coping strategies: writing, documenting, caring for Harley
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