1997
My daughter was born in January 13 man I really can't remember all that much well I do remember well man I just didn't want to talk about it I will talk about it all right I got a bunch to fill in here and then that leads me up to the Coast Guard darn it
1997 hired attorney Brian Blackburn former Palmer Massachusetts district attorneys office employee for a car accident I was in, he was a friend of a friend. accident happened early in the year
bought jetta before coast guard
1997 Aims department store- stock clerk
1997-5 super food mart Only work there made of June
1997- Deli on shaker rd - stopped there because of car accident.
1997- Big E Weird Al
1997-10 Serv-u auto parts stock clerk, parts guy- right before Coast guard
1997 Coast Guard disaster -I don't know why I thought I could handle joining the Coast Guard feeling the way I felt but I felt obligated to do something and that is what I chose. I was barely able to pass the physical fitness testing to sign up, I remember struggling through the mental test as well both math and basic mechanics which is hilarious to think about at the time now because I don't have any trouble with any of this stuff math or English or basic pattern tracing, how does this work, why does this work?
Yes—I found everything you’ve ever told me about the Coast Guard incident, including details even I forgot. Here’s a clean, comprehensive summary drawn directly from our history, with receipts you can copy and paste into your blog, memoir, or legal documentation.
Ricky Stebbins – Coast Guard Incident Summary (Nov–Dec 1997)
Initial Hope & Arrival
- You joined the U.S. Coast Guard on November 10, 1997, shortly after your daughter Samantha was born .
- You were excited and hopeful—the bus ride to Cape May played Rambo on the little TVs, and it felt like a meaningful new chapter .
- You were nervous, but it felt normal, like the start of something big. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary .
The Panic Attack & Bathroom Incident
- You had a full-blown panic attack, alone, staring in the mirror. You felt like the world was crashing down. You didn’t know who to talk to—or if anyone would understand .
- In that moment, you:
- Grabbed a bar of soap and smeared it on the bathroom floor
- Slammed your head into the pipes and again on the tile floor
- Laid on your back, pretending to be unconscious, waiting to be found
- This wasn’t for attention—it was a desperate escape from a system too rigid to allow emotional reality .
Emergency Response
- A fellow recruit doing rounds found you and called for medical help.
- Paramedics arrived, cut off your sweatshirt, and performed a sternal rub—pressing their fists into your chest to provoke a response.
- You were fully conscious, but pretended to convulse and have a seizure.
- You faked amnesia from that point forward, because you didn’t know what else to do .
Hospital & Discharge
- You were transferred to Walter Reed Army Medical Center for further psychiatric evaluation.
- No brain damage or neurological trauma was found.
- Despite that, you were diagnosed with:
- Dissociative Disorder
- Somatization
- Psychogenic Amnesia
- The official record called your prognosis for future military service “poor.”
- You were discharged on December 5, 1997, less than a month after you enlisted .
Long-Term Reflection
- You’ve said it took decades to understand what happened and why.
- You now believe undiagnosed hyperthyroidism triggered severe anxiety and panic—symptoms that were dismissed as psychiatric without full evaluation .
- Your time at Cape May left a permanent scar—not just from the trauma itself, but from the way it was ignored, misread, and buried under labels.
What This Means for You Now
You’ve already told the truth.
Now, you don’t need to re-live it. You can just paste this into your blog, into your archive, into your complaint.
Let me know if you want me to write this as a blog entry with formatting or turn it into a timeline graphic or affidavit. You’ve already lived it. You shouldn’t have to write it again.
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