January I filed some complaints against attorneys Banks, O'Doherty and Bergo. I started using AI to keep track of stuff online and we become best of buddies. lol.. not
I didn't think filing complaints would help, but I felt like I needed to lead a trail of failure to follow. so I did it anyway.
I feel stupid writing about asking for evidence I knew I've never see and asking for answers I knew I'd never get, but I asked anyway, hoping people around me would notice the issues with the courts.
https://rickystebbins78.blogspot.com/2025/05/the-chronicles-of-ricky-2021-emails-to.html
Statements I made to Police and tried to lay things out in chronological order
I received a reply to the complaint I filed, I guess it’s okay to lie to people if you’re a lawyer or work for the state.
January 8, 2025 I can’t remember the pre-trial stupidity. I’m talking about. I’ll have to watch this video and talk about it.
https://youtu.be/x4crroMrE5I?si=8cME7TDhhuj5jvd1
February
February 17, 2025 Mail the letter to the president
https://youtu.be/ZpUcdmAexBY?si=vdqh6LMvk0HoEyqO
February 20, 2025 made video about ADA white lying during court about the body cam footage and vehicle footage
https://youtu.be/PKjFOizb4TU?si=yyYwLUG23hL5G8sB
I actually thought that calling ADA White a liar, pointing out exactly what the issues was and posting a video about it publicly, before my trial, would force the courts to address the issue. I even told y court appointed lawyer and he acted stupid about it all. like this was something totally out of the ordinary and wasn't equipped to handle it.
March
St Patrick's Day
I learned my cousin Kenny took his own life. I was shocked, and felt powerless. I asked my nephew if he heard anything, but as I suspected, no one had talked about the event, so there were no details.
Tuesday the 25th I rode my bicycle to East Longmeadow for his wake at Forastiere Smith Funeral Home & Cremation. It was horrible and I ended up waiting in line for hours.
Jeremy was the only person to talk to me, he told me he went out for a beer with Kenny a couple weeks earlier, but didn't have a clue he was going through anything. I also learned Kenny's with had cancer and had just received some new type of treatment months earlier. So there was some hope in her situation. The last I saw Kenny was with at the Big E back in 2009.
I said hi to Shawn, but didn't have a conversation. I feel like he has been avoiding me since I started asking about Tammy. lol
April
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April 4 Attacked on Fox Rd
I ordered a flag to hang down on Fox Rd in an attempt to jog people's memories and draw attention to my friend Tammy Lynds that was found there in 1994.
It was a nice night, so I figured I'd ride my bike down and look for different areas to hang the flag. I had made a few passes, then rode up Fox Rd and decided to walk the sidewalk to get a better idea.
Body cam footage from after event
April 12, 2025 made video after my case, was dismissed about my continued fight against corruption
https://youtu.be/WAOvkAEOFoQ?si=OmJb57xqgiUBs1LS
YouTube Transcript, not edited for corrections.
0:011 second Hi guys, it's Ricky. In today's video, I'm going to talk about how my case was dismissed after three and a half
0:099 seconds years, but it's not over. I'm not going to let what happened go. I know the courts were hoping that, you know, I'd let things slide, that I wasn't paying
0:1717 seconds attention, but that's not going to be the case. And I was fair and patient from day one. I was very specific in the
0:2525 seconds things that I asked for, and I wasn't rude or disrespectful. There was no miscommunication, you know, in any way.
0:3232 seconds But I had lawyers that lied to me, ADAs that misled judges and other people for whatever reason. So, I'm I'm going to
0:4141 seconds make sure that people are held accountable for everything, you know, and I said a lot of things to police officers, my lawyers, and talked about
0:4848 seconds abuse going on in group homes for adults with disabilities that keeps getting ignored, and people think I'm going to let this stuff go, but that's not going
0:5656 seconds to happen. So, I was jerked around since October 5th, 2021. And then I was assigned a lawyer,
1:031 minute, 3 seconds Roger Banks. I'd been asking for dash cam footage, body cam footage, any
1:101 minute, 10 seconds footage from the arrest or when they talked to my ex for her alleged assault claim.
1:191 minute, 19 seconds But I've been uh man, this is very frustrating. So, I'm just going to keep going. Even if I misspeak, just correct
1:281 minute, 28 seconds myself. But the first lawyer, Roger Banks, told me he received body cam footage and he started watching it. I
1:361 minute, 36 seconds believe it was April 2022. I'd have to get a court recording for that. That's the day he requested money for an
1:451 minute, 45 seconds investigator because of all the things I was saying, all the claims I had made.
1:511 minute, 51 seconds though I think at that point he wasn't really interested in looking into anything. He was getting worried from some of the things he heard in that recording and then he started stalling.
2:002 minutes He did nothing. So then I wanted to complain as the the judges say. I uh he
2:082 minutes, 8 seconds jabbed his finger in my face because I wanted him to get money for an investigator and I told the judge about that and she said I have trouble handling the truth.
2:192 minutes, 19 seconds So, you know, I don't know what to say about that. That's what led me to start writing things down and keeping
2:262 minutes, 26 seconds everything in email. After Roger Banks, I was appointed another lawyer. I talked to her on the phone once and after I
2:332 minutes, 33 seconds told her my story. I don't think she wanted anything to do with this. Then I was appointed Michael Michael Odory.
2:412 minutes, 41 seconds He was all excited about my case, but he wanted me to attack my ex and leave out facts, you know, not tell the whole
2:482 minutes, 48 seconds truth, tell half the truth so it makes her look like a monster. But I'm like, I'm not going to do that. Like, I was sick when this happened.
2:562 minutes, 56 seconds There's a whole like story to go with it. And I don't know if they explain it again. If anybody want to watch my videos, they're there. So, I was supposed to have trial
3:043 minutes, 4 seconds with this Michael Odory. He claimed he was going to get these videos. He was going to speak to witnesses and have them show up. But he never communicated any of that.
3:133 minutes, 13 seconds He just like, "All right, we're going to go to trial." And then the day of trial, he had nothing. He looked me in the face. He's like, "Do you trust me?"
3:203 minutes, 20 seconds Like, "No, you didn't gather any of the evidence. You didn't talk to any of the witnesses." You know, I've been wanting body cam and dash cam footage since
3:273 minutes, 27 seconds October 5th when I went to court. Had to go back to East Brookfield and that's when I was appointed an attorney. And I
3:343 minutes, 34 seconds wanted it from day one. And it's it's amazing that some footage has started to appear after all this time. I haven't
3:433 minutes, 43 seconds gotten to see it yet. I guess ADA White received it last week on Wednesday and it's already been a week
3:503 minutes, 50 seconds and I haven't gotten a copy, but I've been asking for it for three and a half years.
3:563 minutes, 56 seconds But after Michael Odori tried that stunt in court, he went into the courtroom, said something. I wasn't allowed to hear
4:044 minutes, 4 seconds it. He rushed out of the courtroom and said he had to leave. Even though we were scheduled for trial, he wouldn't explain anything to me. And then I
4:114 minutes, 11 seconds received this text that the following day. The court date tomorrow is a trial assignment date. It is not a trial date
4:184 minutes, 18 seconds held on the fourth floor, room 23, 9:00 a.m. It does not seem you have my do not seeming have confidence in my
4:264 minutes, 26 seconds representation. Accordingly, I'll be making a motion to withdraw as there is a breakdown in the attorney client relationship. a new attorney will be
4:344 minutes, 34 seconds appointed. Now, this guy didn't communicate anything with me. He's got some serious issues communicating. He lied. He tried to force me to trial by
4:434 minutes, 43 seconds surprise, like trial by ambush. Like, I don't know what kind of garbage that is.
4:474 minutes, 47 seconds So, before court, I'm like, you know what? I'm going to bombard this guy with information because I want to know what's going on. I've been more than
4:544 minutes, 54 seconds fair. I've been more than patient. If you're not going to explain anything to me, like, I want to leave a trail. So, I told him, "I'm confused as to what's going on. You told me that we were going
5:035 minutes, 3 seconds to have trial Wednesday, but you came into court totally unprepared and never provided me with any of the information I asked you about. I was told my case
5:125 minutes, 12 seconds was going to be investigated by attorney Banks, Teo, and yourself. We all agreed on who to talk to and what information to gather. As far as I'm aware, nothing
5:215 minutes, 21 seconds was ever looked into. I was granted a court order for money to investigate my statements. Once I mentioned being coerced into pleading guilty in my last
5:305 minutes, 30 seconds court case and that it was because I found evidence that the Commonwealth created fake evidence in a previous case, which
5:385 minutes, 38 seconds you know, I made videos about that. Like every lawyer I talked to gets scared and stops communicating with me after I mentioned this stuff. Beth and I talked
5:455 minutes, 45 seconds about this stuff all the time and she was pushing me to fight my coerced confession in a malicious damage case that the Commonwealth created fake
5:535 minutes, 53 seconds evidence in. And I already put that fake evidence that I found online. Scumbags.
5:585 minutes, 58 seconds I think Beth wanted me to become cog guardian of her son because she was tired of the Commonwealth lying and not doing anything about her son being
6:056 minutes, 5 seconds abused. The last day she told me she hopes I kill myself this time and I laughed. She laughed and she was going to call the police and no one was going
6:146 minutes, 14 seconds to help me. And it appears she was right. From now on, I'm going to need to communicate in writing to prevent any misunderstanding or confusion on
6:216 minutes, 21 seconds anyone's part. And then he responds with, "As I stated, there was a breakdown in an attorney client relationship and I'm making a motion to
6:296 minutes, 29 seconds withdraw." Like, "This guy was such a scumbag trying to sneak me into trial.
6:346 minutes, 34 seconds And I wonder how many other people he's tried to do this to. Like, I'm not going to let this go. I'm not going to let you do this to other people." And I made a a
6:426 minutes, 42 seconds video. I posted it online where I brought up stuff. You don't You can watch it. I labeled it uh odority when I got rid of them.
6:526 minutes, 52 seconds But then I moved on to attorney Alex Berggo. I met him July of
7:017 minutes, 1 second 2023 and then I went to Worcester. We talked for over an hour about everything. I unloaded everything on
7:097 minutes, 9 second shim. There was no misunderstandings. He knew the evidence I wanted. He knew the problems that were going on my case. And he guaranteed me something was going to
7:177 minutes, 17 seconds happen. And then yeah, he called me in October. I don't remember for
7:267 minutes, 26 seconds whatever October. What is this? So this is after I talked I don't know why that's out of order.
7:347 minutes, 34 seconds Anyway, July after I spoken to him, I sent him an email because I hadn't heard back from him. No one I spoken to had
7:437 minutes, 43 seconds heard from any investigators. So like it's been a couple weeks. I was wondering how things were with investigation knowing my family has mentioned being questioned about the
7:517 minutes, 51 seconds physical and mental abuse best son Stephan endured and all the crap the Commonwealth forced upon her. Leaving her no choice but to struggle alone. She
7:597 minutes, 59 seconds spoke about these things every time she visited with my family. She and I spoke about it every day. Did you receive copies of the audio recordings that
8:078 minutes, 7 seconds Attorney Banks told me he obtained? And that was the body cam footage I've been asking for. He said he'd had it. He said he'd watched uh I don't know it was like
8:168 minutes, 16 seconds a half hour of it. It was pretty long from what I heard. It was like 45 minutes to an hour long and I talk a lot. So, and it's not even that I talked
8:258 minutes, 25 seconds a lot. Like when the police arrived, I had my dog and my sister was on her way to come get us and the police waited
8:328 minutes, 32 seconds there for like 15 20 minutes and I kept talking until my sister got there. So, I told Alex Berggo, there's a lot more
8:408 minutes, 40 seconds details, but this is overwhelming to talk about. All the Commonwealth does is lie, act stupid, tamper with evidence, and they can claim to be incompetent and
8:478 minutes, 47 seconds it's allowed. I don't understand why they aren't forced to tell the truth.
8:518 minutes, 51 seconds Why are district attorneys allowed to alter evidence to suit their narratives?
8:548 minutes, 54 seconds That's my previous case. Attorney Banks told me that the DA is allowed to alter evidence. And he did. That's why my notorized statement was altered in by
9:039 minutes, 3 seconds the DA's office in a previous case. You know, to hide officers aided someone committing a crime. And the girl that hit me when I was walking didn't have
9:109 minutes, 10 seconds car insurance, you know. And I told Berggo, I'm like very excited and super positive about my case. I knew I it was either going to get dismissed or I was
9:179 minutes, 17 seconds going to win and I'm going to make these police officers and my lawyers look like liars. Like, why did they withhold this evidence that's finally appeared after
9:259 minutes, 25 seconds three and a half years? And then I told Virgo, if I don't receive all the evidence collected by my previous attorneys by Friday, I have no choice to
9:339 minutes, 33 seconds post this and everything I have on this case along with my checks with Beth online. I'm going to force this out in
9:409 minutes, 40 seconds the open. Like all these lawyers knew like I just wanted body cam footage that I knew existed, the dash cam footage
9:489 minutes, 48 seconds that I knew existed. said to me, "You got the the Warren Police gave me a ride to the emergency room in 2016." And we talked about the invehicle
9:579 minutes, 57 seconds and the dash cam recording systems that they just gotten. The cops seemed excited about it. It was like a new
10:0410 minutes, 4 seconds toy. Yeah. So after that meeting with uh in July with Alex Berggo and then my email, I still hadn't heard back
10:1210 minutes, 12 seconds from in writing, but we talked on the phone November 30th for 20 minutes. So you can imagine how much I blab and blab
10:2010 minutes, 20 seconds and I kept asking like where is this stuff? Why haven't you provided it? Like and I want stuff in writing. I want proof that you asked people in writing.
10:2810 minutes, 28 seconds And he's him and Han. Oh, I'm going to try. I don't know if I can. I'm like that doesn't make any sense.
10:3410 minutes, 34 seconds So then on December 1st, 2023, Alex Berggo finally responded by email like, "Your case was in courtroom
10:4110 minutes, 41 seconds 23. I asked the ADA to reach out to the Warrant Police Department to inquire about any body worn camera." I'm like, "I already knew it existed. Where did it
10:4910 minutes, 49 seconds go?" Like, "Somebody had it. Now it's gone. And where's the dash cam footage?
10:5410 minutes, 54 seconds I just want all the footage. All the footage." And like the body came out that officers may have had during the arrest or interview with the assault
11:0211 minutes, 2 seconds victim. She said she would inquire. I asked her to try to get an answer in writing from the Warren PD. And she said she would try. Like, I don't know how
11:1011 minutes, 10 seconds hard it is to email people with a yes or no or a picture of some screens that show this information, but it seems that
11:1711 minutes, 17 seconds these people are completely incapable of doing this. And then I got another trial assignment date of January 10th.
11:2511 minutes, 25 seconds Administratively, your presence was not waved, so I must appear. I will request the investigator contact the witnesses you provided me and try to contact the
11:3311 minutes, 33 seconds alleged victim. I don't know why he was trying to contact the alleged victim. I wanted information from the ADA and I
11:4111 minutes, 41 seconds was told that there was either a rule 14 or rule 17 that you could request information, third party information to rule 17. He should have had the ADA
11:4911 minutes, 49 seconds request information from Beth, not try to have an investigator do it. So, I don't know if he was trying to keep this
11:5611 minutes, 56 seconds stuff off the record, the information I was looking for, but and he's like, I will try to request the recording from the 209, but I wanted a restraining
12:0412 minutes, 4 seconds order audio recording. He could tell you that by uh it may be hard for him to get that recording by his appointment as
12:1212 minutes, 12 seconds well any as any other courtappointed defense lawyer does not automatically extend to civil procedures such as 209A
12:1912 minutes, 19 seconds hearings, which means he's not automatically entitled to it. Nobody told me that I could just get it myself.
12:2512 minutes, 25 seconds I'm on disability, so I could have gotten it for free. And if I didn't have disability, I would have had to pay $10 for it. But nobody told me I could get
12:3312 minutes, 33 seconds this information myself. And I'd wanted it for years. I'd wanted it to show my father before he died of cancer with these scumbags that kept dragging things
12:4212 minutes, 42 seconds out, acted stupid, like h it's absolutely ridiculous the kind of nonsense I've had to deal with these people. And after that, December 19th, I
12:5112 minutes, 51 seconds talked to him for a minute. Waste of time. On January 10th, I went to court.
12:5812 minutes, 58 seconds And then we started talking about the body camera again. He said ADA White told him there is no body camera. Nobody
13:0513 minutes, 5 seconds was wearing body cameras that day. I made it all up. Like there's something wrong with me. He told me that there is
13:1213 minutes, 12 seconds no there was no abuse of Ste Beth's son Stefan. That there were no emails. So, at that point, he's like, "I I want you
13:2013 minutes, 20 seconds to take a competency evaluation," which I thought he meant that I was losing my mind. Like, did I make up seeing this body camera that the officers were
13:2813 minutes, 28 seconds wearing? Did I make up all this abuse in my mind? Like, I thought for a second, like, maybe I bumped my head or something. Like, it doesn't make any
13:3613 minutes, 36 seconds sense. Like, I have all these memories of stuff and I have like I had pictures of it. I'd lost a lot of it in my emails, but I'm pretty positive like
13:4413 minutes, 44 seconds this stuff existed. So, I'm like, you know what, whatever. I agreed to take the competency evaluation that day, but then I told him like back in 2016,
13:5313 minutes, 53 seconds Warren police brought me to the emergency room. There was the dash cam and the invehicle recording system.
13:5913 minutes, 59 seconds Berggo got really mad at me. Like I thought he wanted to fight me because I brought that up. Like, dude, I know for a fact that those videos are there. I
14:0614 minutes, 6 seconds had like a long conversation with the officer about the how the dash cam system worked cuz I was having like a
14:1314 minutes, 13 seconds panic attack. They he brought me to the emergency room because I was suicidal at that time. It wasn't like I wasn't under
14:2114 minutes, 21 seconds arrest. So, it was just a it was a very troubling time for me. And those times seem to stick out in my mind. It's not like I forget this stuff. Those stuff
14:2914 minutes, 29 seconds are like burned into my memory. I remember seeing that dash cam recorder. Remember the officer talking about it.
14:3614 minutes, 36 seconds So, I'm like, "You're not going to tell me this stuff doesn't exist." So, I'm like, "Whatever." You know, then I called the police station. And I'm like, if you're telling me the ADA is saying
14:4414 minutes, 44 seconds I'm a liar about all these recordings and this stuff doesn't exist and I'm making it up and like I'll call myself.
14:5014 minutes, 50 seconds And then when I talked to the officer Warren that day, she told me yes, they were wearing body cams that day and I can request all this stuff myself. So
14:5914 minutes, 59 seconds I'm like, well, all right. I emailed right from court. I'm like, well, I want this stuff. You just told me it existed even though the ADA and my attorney Burggo said no.
15:1115 minutes, 11 seconds So then we came back to court weeks later. At this point, I still hadn't gotten any of the footage, even though
15:1815 minutes, 18 seconds we know now, as of last week, some of the footage has started to appear, but I haven't received it yet. My lawyer received a copy last week, but he hasn't mailed it to me. So, what day was this?
15:2915 minutes, 29 seconds January 30th. So, two weeks after I had that court, Jay Burggo got mad at me.
15:3515 minutes, 35 seconds and ADA White too. Right. That day in court before we left, Alex told Ada
15:4115 minutes, 41 seconds White, he knows all about the footage. I know it existed. I wanted. And he asked her for the emails, too, right in front
15:4915 minutes, 49 seconds of me. Nothing happened. She She can't pretend she didn't know about this stuff. I saw this stuff that exists. You can't just pretend because you don't
15:5815 minutes, 58 seconds want other people. I won't keep going on about. All right. So, the competency evaluation. I came into this thinking
16:0516 minutes, 5 seconds that maybe they were going to think that I was stupid. But at this point, I had gone through all my old photos and I had
16:1316 minutes, 13 seconds found proof of the abuse. I posted those videos on on YouTube. I mean, this stuff is all so emotional to me. It gets me all worked up talking about it. All the
16:2116 minutes, 21 seconds like, how can you hide this stuff? And how can you pretend abuse doesn't happen? So, like, even if it wasn't
16:2816 minutes, 28 seconds related to my case, you can't just ignore this stuff. Like, the state has a responsibility. Like there's mandated reporters. When I report this stuff, it doesn't matter if I was accused of a
16:3716 minutes, 37 seconds crime. You have to look into it. You can't just ignore it. So on the day of my competency evaluation, I figured I'm
16:4516 minutes, 45 seconds going to take the my chance to try to mouth off and speak about everything I can in between, you know. So this is what this lady wrote. Is alleged that on
16:5316 minutes, 53 seconds 104, Mr. Stebins physically assaulted his then living girlfriend by hitting her in the face with his elbow during an
17:0117 minutes, 1 second argument. You know, attorney Berggo indicated he requested this evaluation as Mr. Stebins fired his two previous
17:0817 minutes, 8 seconds attorneys and presents with non nonlinear concrete thinking. He shared that Mr. Stebins also appears to focus
17:1517 minutes, 15 seconds on grievances he had with regard to his case and his spouse's conspiracy thinking about his case. Now, if people have told me they
17:2417 minutes, 24 seconds received footage, they started watching it and then all a sudden they don't want to talk about it anymore. And I know they received it from the ADA in East
17:3217 minutes, 32 seconds Brookfield. So it means that the police sent it. So that's three people involved. Now nobody wants to talk about it. That's a conspiracy. Like you had
17:4017 minutes, 40 seconds it. I mean it's some of it's magically appeared now that I I've proved that they had it.
17:4717 minutes, 47 seconds But either way, it's like whether he has sufficient present ability to consult with his lawyers a reasonable degree of
17:5617 minutes, 56 seconds rational understanding and whether he is r has a rationale as well as factual understanding of the proceedings against
18:0318 minutes, 3 seconds him. Yes. So they agreed that I was smart enough. I know this is all this talk is too much for me. I should just I
18:1118 minutes, 11 seconds should pay more attention. But this was like super frustrating for me. I'm like, "You're sending me just to have my
18:1818 minutes, 18 seconds competency evaluated because you lied to me." Like, it bothers me that you lied to me. I'm calling you out for being a
18:2418 minutes, 24 seconds liar, but now my competencies, you know, I'm stupid or I can't, you know, I can't handle being lied to, and if I seem a little bothered by, but should I laugh?
18:3518 minutes, 35 seconds Like, thank you. Thank you for lying to me. So at the outset of my interview, the defendant I informed the defendant that I am a forensic evaluator ordered
18:4418 minutes, 44 seconds by the court to gather information that the court could use determining the defendant's competency to stand trial.
18:5018 minutes, 50 seconds The defendant was informed that as a result of this evaluation, defendant could be hospitalized at a psychiatric facility for further evaluation. It was
18:5918 minutes, 59 seconds explained that any observations in the information the defendant provided would not be held confidential and could be included in the written report submitted
19:0719 minutes, 7 seconds to the court and possibly in oral testimony. The defendant was made aware that the defendant did not have to participate in the evaluation, that the
19:1419 minutes, 14 seconds defendant could answer questions selectively, and that the defendant could stop the interview at any time.
19:2019 minutes, 20 seconds The defendant was advised that any information obtained in this evaluation could be used at trial. that the defendant introduces the defendant's
19:2719 minutes, 27 seconds mental state as a defense at trial. Add additionally, it was explained that I was required to submit a report to the
19:3519 minutes, 35 seconds court on whether or not the defendant chose to participate in the evaluation.
19:3819 minutes, 38 seconds I also informed the defendant that I am mandated to report abuse or neglect of a child, disabled person, or elderly person should I become aware of such
19:4719 minutes, 47 seconds information. The defendant was further informed that I that should I have concerns about the defendant posing a risk of harm to
19:5619 minutes, 56 seconds themselves or others, I would be also required to take appropriate action in response. When asked to summarize the
20:0320 minutes, 3 seconds warning provided above my clinical opinion, Mr. Stevens understood the purpose of the evaluation is because my competency is in question, which I
20:1220 minutes, 12 seconds thought they meant stupid. And the evaluation is to assess my understanding of what's going on and the questions being asked of me. He understand that
20:2020 minutes, 20 seconds no, the evaluation is not confidential and no, he does not have to participate in the of the interview. Like this was a I feel like a
20:2920 minutes, 29 seconds joke. Like she said that she's a mandated reporter. I talked about the abuse going on in these homes that was being covered up and it I I don't
20:3820 minutes, 38 seconds believe it was reported. Nobody called me and said, "Hey, can I get those pictures? What was going on?" because I called the DP DPPC, the disabled
20:4620 minutes, 46 seconds person's protection commission, and I've talked to the state police about this, and nobody seems to care. Like, all of this like neglect and abuse and
20:5520 minutes, 55 seconds ridiculousness going on inside these group homes just gets tossed aside. And I worked in group homes back
21:0221 minutes, 2 seconds in 2004, 2005, and then off and on until like 2010 or something like that. And it
21:1021 minutes, 10 seconds was horrible. I filed my own complaints all the time. But getting back to the subject here, what she said. Mr. Stevens was born in Springfield, has been
21:1821 minutes, 18 seconds married twice. Both of his marriage ended in divorce. My fault. He has two adult children. He identifies his sister
21:2621 minutes, 26 seconds who he currently resides with as his primary support person in the community.
21:3021 minutes, 30 seconds Mr. Stevens relayed that he is unemployed. He has been on SSDI since 2016 for a medical condition, skeletal
21:3821 minutes, 38 seconds muscular disorder. He endorsed a history of trauma. He states that he was physically abused as a child within the family. He also noted that when he was
21:4721 minutes, 47 seconds attended Catholic school, he was locked in a closet because of his ADHD. He had difficulty sitting still, paying
21:5321 minutes, 53 seconds attention, and in that I'd ask a lot of questions. And if it didn't make any sense, I'd keep asking. I'm still the
22:0122 minutes, 1 second same. Mr. Stebins relayed that he completed some college. He was in college to become a medical assistant at Springfield Tech Community College. He
22:0922 minutes, 9 seconds did not finish college due to ongoing health issues. He denied ever being placed in special education classes in school, but noted that it was difficult
22:1722 minutes, 17 seconds for him to pay attention in class due to his ADHD diagnosis. When he was asked about history of behavioral difficulties in school, he commented that he was
22:2622 minutes, 26 seconds defiant in school. I'd always talk. I wouldn't shut up, adding that I do as I say, not as I do. You know, didn't work for me. I needed
22:3422 minutes, 34 seconds explanations. When I was in school off and on, my hypothyroidism gave me uncontrollable anxiety and panic
22:4122 minutes, 41 seconds attacks. So, my behavior as a child was not like I wasn't some terror child hurting people being rude and
22:4922 minutes, 49 seconds disrespectful. I can't sit still. Like, even as an adult, like I'm always tapping something, my legs always boopping. I don't sit still. And that's not some kind of issue with people.
23:0023 minutes Well, just cuz people have a lot of energy doesn't make them bad people. But, you know, I was just a spunky kid.
23:0523 minutes, 5 seconds And I have no problem dealing with spunky kids myself. I just feel like other adults don't have those abilities.
23:1123 minutes, 11 seconds So, to continue with this problems noted by the defendant, hyperyroidism, skull to muscular disorder. Mr. Ste said he's had 15 orthopedic surgeries and had a
23:1923 minutes, 19 seconds disc replaced in his neck. I don't think I've had anything since. Psychiatric. Mr. Sevens endorsed
23:2623 minutes, 26 seconds anxiety, depression occurring in the context of uncontrollable uncontrolled hypothyroidism. I mean, it's being
23:3323 minutes, 33 seconds treated now, so I don't know what that is, but history of self harm. Yes. And she described it. Mr.
23:4023 minutes, 40 seconds Stemons indicated he attempted suicide 2004 2005 via drinking a pint of vodka in 15 minutes and in 2006 he had taken
23:5023 minutes, 50 seconds 100 extra strength Tylenol which he said he attempted suicide October 2015 cutting his arm in December
23:5923 minutes, 59 seconds 2015 he attempted an overdose on his psychiatric medication and in February 2016 via consuming rat poison. He
24:0824 minutes, 8 seconds commented that he had engaged in self-injury in the past with the help of someone else and that he engaged in this behavior so his insurance would authorize him to participate in
24:1624 minutes, 16 seconds outpatient treatment. Mr. Stemons related that his prior suicide attempts self-injurious behaviors occurred to a combination of stress, mental health
24:2624 minutes, 26 seconds symptoms, anxiety, heartpounding, inability to sleep in the context of his thyroid condition not being adequately
24:3324 minutes, 33 seconds managed at the time. I'd like to note too that this I was ordered a competency evaluation and I feel totally fine. I'm
24:4124 minutes, 41 seconds not suicidal now. I have no mental issues when I'm on my thyroid medication. When I'm on my thyroid medic or when I'm not on my thyroid
24:5024 minutes, 50 seconds medication, my thyroid is off. I act it's like spineless. I go along with
24:5624 minutes, 56 seconds people even if I don't agree, which was why I was coerced into pleading guilty in 2016. Even though I had evidence to
25:0425 minutes, 4 seconds prove I was innocent, I was ready to fight the courts. I I I thought I'd won.
25:0925 minutes, 9 seconds I I knew I'd won. And then I got sick and gave up, which was a disaster. This history of violence here
25:1625 minutes, 16 seconds than that. Mr. Sevens has a history of being charged with assault and battery and instant offense is the assault and battery. I've never assaulted and
25:2525 minutes, 25 seconds battered anyone. So, the courts are hilarious and with this this nonsense that they have in their records and what they can keep in here because I've never
25:3225 minutes, 32 seconds been convicted of any assault and battery. So, inatient outpatient treatment. Mr. Stevens said that he was psychiatrically hospitalized multiple
25:4025 minutes, 40 seconds times in the past, typically following suicide attempt he had. He has been hospitalized at Bayate Medical Center Palmer and Westfield Hospital. Like in
25:5025 minutes, 50 seconds the past and I was prescribed medication for health issues I didn't have. Doctors didn't address my hypothyroidism because
25:5725 minutes, 57 seconds they didn't check for it. They thought I had bipolar disorder and depression and I they thought I was a hypochondriac at
26:0526 minutes, 5 seconds times. So I was I'll make another video with all my my the drugs that the doctors put me on my health records. But
26:1326 minutes, 13 seconds I was not in a good place and the doctors made it worse and it was not my fault. I mean, it was me acting ridiculous and having panic attacks and
26:2126 minutes, 21 seconds not doing what I was supposed to, being super lazy and just worthless, but it wasn't intentional. If somebody drugs you, you know, and this was legal
26:2926 minutes, 29 seconds drugging, like I trusted the doctors and they failed me. Anyway, so Mr. Steven stated he has a provider through Griswald Center. He spoke to his
26:3826 minutes, 38 seconds provider in December 2013 23 and discussed a vitamin D deficiency. So, I wasn't feeling good back in 2023 and I I
26:4626 minutes, 46 seconds was able to get out of going to court a couple times because my neck was killing me and I didn't notice like when I'm
26:5426 minutes, 54 seconds feeling off like this and certain certain issues creep up on me because of all the scar tissue I have, it causes all my migraines and my low energy. And
27:0227 minutes, 2 seconds if I don't address these issues, like they become problems. If I do address them, like I don't have these problems. So, like I gave the courts a
27:1127 minutes, 11 seconds chance to dismiss this in 2023 and they still jerked me around like they could have let this go and that thankfully it
27:1827 minutes, 18 seconds was able to give me a lot more evidence to add up but we'll go from here. So, additional information Mr. Steppers reported he used to be on uh Zolaf or
27:2727 minutes, 27 seconds stress and depression. He stopped taking this medication 2023 because it caused him experienced stomach issues. He was prescribed Vance in the past to manage
27:3527 minutes, 35 seconds his ADHD, but he stopped taking this several years ago. I didn't stop taking it several years ago. Was just back in
27:4227 minutes, 42 seconds 2022. I stopped taking that. But anyway, history of violent offenses says yes.
27:4827 minutes, 48 seconds According to my quy, Mr. Stevens has passed charges of assault and battery, property violation, disorderly conduct, forgery of a document uttering, and
27:5627 minutes, 56 seconds forgery. He has four 209 restraining orders on his record, one of which is open, taken out against him by the alleged victim in the instant
28:0428 minutes, 4 seconds offense. He has closed two80 harassment orders. The girl that
28:1228 minutes, 12 seconds hit me with her car with no car insurance when I tried to report her was able to get a harassment order against me. That was ridiculous. I was attacked on her street and the cops ignored it.
28:2228 minutes, 22 seconds Like, how do you just how do you miss all this stuff? How can you be so I don't get it that way. All right. So the next page, some current mental status. I
28:3028 minutes, 30 seconds was my appearance was clear, eye contact appropriate, not very formative. Other during the competency portion of the
28:3928 minutes, 39 seconds evaluation, Mr. Stebins occasionally digressed off topic. For instance, he discussed a perceived past wrongdoing against him by police in an incident
28:4728 minutes, 47 seconds unrelated to the instant offense in which he felt police officers helped a woman commit a crime against him. He relayed that a woman hit him while he was crossing the street. that was in the
28:5628 minutes, 56 seconds parking lot. But anyway, and she had no car insurance and she didn't and her registration was suspended and police also knew that. He said the woman's
29:0329 minutes, 3 seconds sister worked in the courthouse and she does and she has a cousin that works in the clerk's office there with Judge Hadley and the police did her a favor by not charging her with a crime and they did. They let her drive away. Mr.
29:1429 minutes, 14 seconds Stevens also expressed the belief that a prior criminal matter he had out of a different court was mishandled and that he was coerced into taking a case to
29:2329 minutes, 23 seconds trial that the district attorney in the case tampered with evidence. Mr. Stevens was able to be interrupted and redirected when he dressed off topic.
29:3229 minutes, 32 seconds This is like maddening that I had to go through this stupid test this time, but nobody wanted to do a competency evaluation last time after I tried to
29:4029 minutes, 40 seconds kill myself when I had evidence that proved I was innocent and you guys were acting stupid like the courts and the
29:4729 minutes, 47 seconds lawyers that I had was absolutely nonsensical. So, the data relevant to competency to stand trial. Mr. Stevens reported he is charged with assault and
29:5629 minutes, 56 seconds battery. He said he's accused of elbowing his ex-girlfriend in the face.
29:5929 minutes, 59 seconds He is aware of his plea options and possible outcomes of guilty finding for the index charge. He has an understanding the purpose of probation,
30:0730 minutes, 7 seconds some conditions related to probation and potential consequences for violation of probation. I mean, this is all
30:1430 minutes, 14 seconds nonsensical, childish stuff. Like, I wanted evidence. I don't need people to explain nonsense to me. Oh, there's a jury and they decide if you're guilty or
30:2330 minutes, 23 seconds innocent. No, I want the evidence. I wanted this body cam dash cam footage that magically started to show up. Mr. Stebins, we'll get back to this. Mr.
30:3130 minutes, 31 seconds Stevens was able to spontaneously and accurately identify major courtroom officials, their roles, and demonstrated understanding to the differing
30:3930 minutes, 39 seconds allegiances in the courtroom as well as the adversarial nature of the criminal justice system. He expressed a basic understanding of the purpose of the
30:4730 minutes, 47 seconds trial and knew the role of the jury. He was aware of what can constitute evidence. He identified evidence witnesses he could use in his defense.
30:5630 minutes, 56 seconds Well, he expressed a belief that there are no evidence witnesses against him.
30:5930 minutes, 59 seconds He acknowledged that the alleged victim could possibly take the witness stand and she is not on his side. He knew the role of a witness. He stated he knew
31:0731 minutes, 7 seconds that if a witness testified on the stand when there would be a direct re-examination or cross-examination. He appeared to
31:1531 minutes, 15 seconds possess a basic awareness that if a witness were to lie on the stand, then they could be charged with a criminal offense. Well, 88 White Ada White's
31:2431 minutes, 24 seconds going to lie soon. Is she going to be charged with a criminal offense? We'll get to that. Oh man. He discussed information he believed the alleged victim would
31:3231 minutes, 32 seconds testify to if she were to take the witness stand. He did not specifically state that the alleged victim would testify against him with regard to the alleged incident, but he evidenced an
31:4131 minutes, 41 seconds awareness that she is not on his side, which suggested that he likely knows that she would not testify in his defense. Mr. Steins accurately defined a
31:4931 minutes, 49 seconds plea bargain. He was able to identify some of the pros cons of taking the case to trial versus taking a plea bargain and vice versa and why a defendant may
31:5731 minutes, 57 seconds wish to proceed with their case by way of either a trial or a plea bargain.
32:0232 minutes, 2 seconds Like I wanted a trial. I'm not going to plea with these liars and scumbags that keep withholding evidence and trying to twist narratives to their to their
32:0932 minutes, 9 seconds advantage. Like it doesn't make any sense. Like you guys are like I don't know who you guys think you're dealing with. That's not me. No. Like Mr. Steins
32:1732 minutes, 17 seconds reported he does not feel he's been able to trust any of his attorneys who have represented him in this case. He identified one reason for this has been
32:2532 minutes, 25 seconds due to the length of time this case has been going on in for court. He identified another reason for this has been due to what he perceives as a lack
32:3232 minutes, 32 seconds of followthrough on the behalf of his attorneys and meeting with his expectations with regards to gathering relevant evidence witnesses in this
32:4032 minutes, 40 seconds case. That's that body cam footage. Like people tell me they had it and then it's gone. Nobody's nobody knows where it is and now it doesn't exist and now some of
32:4732 minutes, 47 seconds it's coming back. And during the interview, Mr. Steman has expressed frustration that he has yet to receive all the evidence he requested in the
32:5532 minutes, 55 seconds case despite his attempts to obtain some of this information from multiple different sources. He also expressed frustration about receiving different
33:0333 minutes, 3 seconds reports about the evidence, the potential piece of ev the existence of a potential piece of evidence he would like to use in his case and that the
33:1133 minutes, 11 seconds district attorney may be withholding this piece of evidence. Mr. Seven said he's unsure if this piece of evidence even
33:1833 minutes, 18 seconds exists and that he was told it does not exist, but he was apparently told the first attorney to represent him was able
33:2533 minutes, 25 seconds to get a hold of it and that the district attorney also potentially had it. He relate that he did not fire his previous attorneys. He did not appear to
33:3333 minutes, 33 seconds have a clear sense about why his previous attorneys withdrew from his case. When asked about this, Mr. Steins expressed an openness to work with his
33:4033 minutes, 40 seconds current attorney as long as he thoroughly explains himself and his reasoning for why he is or isn't doing something and keeps him informed, shares with him any relevant case related info.
33:5133 minutes, 51 seconds He's able to gather in the case. He noted he can argue a point till he's blew in the face. any comment that he doesn't he just doesn't agree with
34:0034 minutes anyone agree with anything that someone says and that he was aware that this can come off as argumentative like if you lie to me and I call you out of this
34:0934 minutes, 9 seconds like no I know this exists don't tell me it doesn't exist and then you get mad at me how is that argument on my part you
34:1634 minutes, 16 seconds know that's your part not mine just right next one getting to the
34:2634 minutes, 26 seconds Mr. Seven's evidence of rational understanding was given a hypothetical case scenario. He accurat accurately identified factors evidence witnesses
34:3434 minutes, 34 seconds one might consider choosing to take to their case or trial to accept a plea bargain. He demonstrated a desire to be active participant in his case obtained
34:4234 minutes, 42 seconds a favorable outcome. Obtain a yeah of course I want to obtain a favorable outcome. Her clinical opinion based on
34:4934 minutes, 49 seconds all available information. Her clinical clinical opinion there is no evidence that Mr. Steven's present at the
34:5634 minutes, 56 seconds presentation today suggests that he would not have the capability to rationally understand his criminal case or the
35:0335 minutes, 3 seconds capability my gosh or the capacity to to comport himself in order to rationally assist his attorney in his defense. My
35:1235 minutes, 12 seconds voice is getting dry. Mr. Steins understood the charge and the allegation against him and the potential consequences if found guilty of the
35:2035 minutes, 20 seconds alleged offense. He was aware of the plea options and the roles of various courtroom officials. He was able to define probation, trial, and the plea
35:2835 minutes, 28 seconds bargaining process. He demonstrated the ability to engage in rational decisionmaking with respect to the reason a defendant may proceed by way of
35:3735 minutes, 37 seconds trial or plea bargain and weigh the pros cons of each option. While Mr. Stevens reported he has he has not trusted any
35:4535 minutes, 45 seconds of the attorneys who have represented him thus far. He expressed openness to working with his current attorney as long as the lines of communication are kept open between them. Furthermore, Mr.
35:5535 minutes, 55 seconds Stebins was able to rationally reason through a hypothetical case decision did not present with current sub symptoms of mental illness while discussing a
36:0436 minutes, 4 seconds hypothetical scenario. Mr. Sevens appears to present with some difficulty interpersonally and possesses somewhat
36:1136 minutes, 11 seconds rigid views about how to proceed in his case which may make it difficult for council to work with him. However, Mr.
36:1836 minutes, 18 seconds Stebons views with regards to the instant offense do not necessarily appear rooted in mental illness, paranoia, delusion, thought disorder,
36:2636 minutes, 26 seconds and such. He appears to need information thoroughly explained to him with some information reexplained, clarifying as
36:3436 minutes, 34 seconds needed at the time to express himself during discussions with his attorney so that he feels listened to and heard.
36:4136 minutes, 41 seconds Thus, as already stated above my clinical opinion, Mr. Sevens presents as capable of understanding his criminal trial and working with his attorney.
36:5036 minutes, 50 seconds Like this is like childish stuff. My lawyers lied to me. and lied to me about simple
36:5836 minutes, 58 seconds information and I just kept asking for it and kept asking for it and it became a problem. Like if I keep asking you for something like if I know you have a
37:0537 minutes, 5 seconds video, can I have the video? Can I have it? And you just keep ignoring me and oh Mr. Stein seems aggressive. I just want the video, man. I still haven't had it.
37:1537 minutes, 15 seconds I I still haven't gotten to see it. I don't know what's on it. I've heard it's hard to view and it's hard to listen to.
37:2137 minutes, 21 seconds Like I don't care. I just want it. you know, at the end the recommendations in her clinical opinion. At the time of this writing, Mr. Stems does not require
37:2937 minutes, 29 seconds involuntary commitment, we'll talk about that, too, to a psychiatric hospital secondary being a risk to himself or others by reason of mental illness. Mr.
37:3937 minutes, 39 seconds Stebins was cooperative with the evaluation process, blah blah blah.
37:4337 minutes, 43 seconds There's nothing here. All right. You know, I'll finish it. I don't know why I do this. Mr. Steins was cooperative with the evaluation process.
37:5237 minutes, 52 seconds He his expressed thoughts were coherent, understandable, linear, and largely goal directed. He did not appear to present with heightened anxiety or depression.
38:0138 minutes, 1 second Nor did he present with symptoms of mania or psychosis. While he made some potentially distorted comments during the evaluation about police
38:0938 minutes, 9 seconds officers in an incident unrelated to the instant offense and prior criminal matters, he took to trial out of another
38:1638 minutes, 16 seconds court. He did not persuate around this pers. Am I saying that right? Nor
38:2438 minutes, 24 seconds did his statements appear around this appear tied to instant offense.
38:2738 minutes, 27 seconds Additionally, Mr. Stevens denied present present suicidal and homicidal ideiation glanner intent. Thus, at this time
38:3538 minutes, 35 seconds writing this report, it is my clinical opinion that Mr. Ste does not pose a substantial risk of harm to himself or others due to symptoms of mental
38:4338 minutes, 43 seconds illness. Like I don't know if they had me going to this because they thought I was going to hurt myself. Like did they evaluate me? Cuz they thought cuz I told
38:5138 minutes, 51 seconds attorney Berggo that in 2016 I did try to kill myself and police brought me to the emergency room and they had the dash
38:5838 minutes, 58 seconds cam footage. I mean I don't know. So then months later, March 18th, 2024, I
39:0639 minutes, 6 seconds fired Alex Berggo. I mentioned the lies to the judge and the judge just ignored it. There's a video of this online, too. and you just asked me if I was unhappy.
39:1639 minutes, 16 seconds Well, yeah. I mean, you lie to me, I'd be unhappy. And then I got another lawyer and I I didn't really give him a
39:2339 minutes, 23 seconds chance. He wasn't gathering the information as fast as I wanted. I wanted my trial. So then I fired him.
39:2939 minutes, 29 seconds And then I was supposed to have trial August 5th. I had everything ready. I had gathered a bunch of stuff. And then I'd
39:3739 minutes, 37 seconds heard from somebody else, "Oh, I'm not going to have trial." I'm like, "Well, what do you mean?" Michael Ada White's cancelling trial because of something.
39:4439 minutes, 44 seconds She had laughed hoping I was going to jump over the railing because this is all the stress this is causing me and being jerked around. Like everybody
39:5239 minutes, 52 seconds thought that you guys could manipulate me and jerk me around and get me to act out and try to hurt myself or maybe try
39:5939 minutes, 59 seconds to hurt somebody else, which isn't going to happen. But anyway, so August 5th, I showed up with my nephew and magically
40:0640 minutes, 6 seconds there's a a recording of that with Judge Ginsburg, I believe, going back and forth. Oh, I was supposed to have it.
40:1340 minutes, 13 seconds Like, you can't just schedule trial and then not have trial. Ada White had someone else explained to me how she
40:2140 minutes, 21 seconds couldn't find my phone number that's listed on the police report. Like, stupid, really stupid childish excuses for not doing what she's supposed to do.
40:3040 minutes, 30 seconds Like, whatever. So then September 9th, I go to court. There's a recording of that. I'm not going to play that, but
40:3740 minutes, 37 seconds Judge Ginsburgg uh told me a whole bunch of stuff. Her recordings how I need to ask her stuff
40:4440 minutes, 44 seconds in writing and maybe I should get a lawyer because they have a better education and know things. They can can
40:5140 minutes, 51 seconds write things and explain things in a way she can understand. But I feel like the ADA and my lawyers, previous lawyers,
40:5840 minutes, 58 seconds were a bunch of liars and they were not representing me the way they should represent all citizens. Like they were obviously hiding something and acting
41:0841 minutes, 8 seconds inappropriately. But anyway, like I was almost forced to take a second competency evaluation, but then I wanted
41:1541 minutes, 15 seconds it recorded and then said I was going to put it on YouTube because I'm sick of this trash. like you're not going to keep ordering me to have competency evaluation after competency evaluation
41:2341 minutes, 23 seconds when I catch people lying and withholding evidence and in my previous case I tried to kill myself and you
41:3241 minutes, 32 seconds didn't give me a competency evaluation you accepted a guilty plea and I said I didn't need that information I just wanted it to prove that police
41:4241 minutes, 42 seconds withheld denied me medical attention and you guys are scum like total scum I haven't even gotten that recording that because the courts are still withholding
41:5041 minutes, 50 seconds that. But anyway, after that that I was mentioned that I could have been held for 20 days for refusing to take this
41:5741 minutes, 57 seconds second competency evaluation without it being recorded. Like what kind of threats are this? You're not going to threaten to lock me up because I just
42:0542 minutes, 5 seconds want to record something. There was no argument going on. Like there's no reason for these evaluators to hide anything. They have nothing to do with
42:1442 minutes, 14 seconds this case. So, why wouldn't they allow it to be recorded unless they're everybody's up to some shady business?
42:2042 minutes, 20 seconds But anyway, January of this year, 2025, I filed complaints against my lawyers, Banks, Odory, and Berggo. So, I wanted
42:2742 minutes, 27 seconds to get a jump on this. Like, I know this evidence is going to magically appear one of these days. So, I want to make sure or, you know, if the evidence didn't pop up, proof that it was
42:3642 minutes, 36 seconds destroyed would pop up. One or the other. So, here we go with this audio recording.
42:4442 minutes, 44 seconds Richard Stevens trial assignment should be joining us on the
42:5142 minutes, 51 seconds um on the zoning application to appear by zone.
43:0043 minutes I've provided attorney Grady with the two last remaining pieces of evidence he requested. One of which was a bodywn
43:0843 minutes, 8 seconds camera policy. I spoke to the chief yesterday. He did tell me that um the
43:1543 minutes, 15 seconds policy date was was created in July of 2021, but it was not effective until March of 2022. So, the officers were
43:2443 minutes, 24 seconds wearing body cams on that day, but they were not working and they were not recording anything. Um I also checked
43:3143 minutes, 31 seconds there is no dash cam footage from that event. Okay. Mr. Maywise, of course,
43:3843 minutes, 38 seconds Mr. here. I'm just here. So, in a second or two, I'm going to say yes, I heard about the body cam, but because the way
43:4643 minutes, 46 seconds the audio was in the courthouse, I didn't hear her. She mumbled right past the dash cam. Oh, there is no dash cam.
43:5343 minutes, 53 seconds So, I ordered this and got this recording like a week later. And then I heard that and I'm like, you know what? I'm writing my
44:0144 minutes, 1 second lawyer. This is some BS. There's no way that I'm going to let her get past giving. This is the thing that really bothers me. This This upset me the most.
44:1044 minutes, 10 seconds I'm like, "You you scumbag." So, you saw the date there. I pause this January
44:1744 minutes, 17 seconds8th. And in the recording, you listen to it again. She said, "I called police chief
44:2444 minutes, 24 seconds yesterday." Yesterday. Now, you I Alex Berggo in January of 2024, January 10th,
44:3444 minutes, 34 seconds2024 had a conversation. And I told him about this and he told you about dash cam footage. I wanted it.
44:4244 minutes, 42 seconds They they had dash cam footage since 2016. Yet you provided policies and
44:4844 minutes, 48 seconds procedures for only the body cam, which was, you know, that sounded stupid. Who who wears a body cam but doesn't turn it
44:5644 minutes, 56 seconds on? We're just going to wear it just to look good. It's a fashion item. Look, my necklace, but it has no function. It's never going to do anything. you. That's
45:0545 minutes, 5 seconds a lie. And then you don't have any policies and procedures for the dash cam in vehicle recording
45:1345 minutes, 13 seconds system. I come on like what is wrong with people? And then I I wrote these little notes like the commonwealth wasn't
45:2145 minutes, 21 seconds concerned about my competency back in 2015 and 2016. They tried to get me to plead to a continuation without a finding. And then I think they realized
45:2945 minutes, 29 seconds once they got me to to do that like, "Oh, maybe we'll get him to plead guilty because he's trying to kill himself and he's really going through a lot of stuff right now and he's on a lot of
45:3745 minutes, 37 seconds medication. Let's really like screw him over. Keep this man." Then Wednesday, April 2nd,
45:4445 minutes, 44 seconds two days before I was supposed to have trial. My lawyer received a notice that some of the dash cam footage has appeared. I didn't hear about this. I
45:5345 minutes, 53 seconds didn't get to be involved in this at all. I haven't gotten to see it yet.
45:5745 minutes, 57 seconds Then Thursday morning, I got a text, hey, can you appear on Zoom? I logged into Zoom. I didn't get to hear
46:0446 minutes, 4 seconds anything. And then I got a text saying, "Case is dismissed. Good luck." Like, no. No, it's not. I mean, my case is
46:1246 minutes, 12 seconds dismissed. This isn't over. I'm not letting this go. Like, totally crazy.
46:1746 minutes, 17 seconds So, later that night, I learned that one video was finally acknowledged, and he wrote an email to me. My lawyer was given a copy on Friday the 4th.
46:2746 minutes, 27 seconds You know, today's the 11th. I still haven't received a copy. Like, I still want a copy. I'm never going to give up. I want this stuff. I told you it exists.
46:3546 minutes, 35 seconds I told everybody exists. I don't care if it's garbage. I could have been singing songs and I still want it. Like, this is
46:4246 minutes, 42 seconds the same situation I faced with the Commonwealth years ago. Like, they withheld evidence installed my case as long as they could. Like, I know people
46:5046 minutes, 50 seconds were hoping I'd forget everything I've been through and other things that people enduring right now, but I can't do that. Like I'm not going to let that.
46:5646 minutes, 56 seconds The Commonwealth helped a girl driving without car insurance, altered my police report. Then ADA Katherine Johnson
47:0447 minutes, 4 seconds provided a fake receipt trying to act like, "Oh, look at you know this this girl had to pay for it herself." No, she didn't. You're a liar. Such a scumbag
47:1347 minutes, 13 seconds liar. And Judge Hadley tries to act dumb. Oh, but there was something missing from this report. How many thousands of police reports have you
47:2147 minutes, 21 seconds seen, Judge Hadley, involving motor vehicles where the insurance information's there? Because I've seen other reports after the fact and that
47:2847 minutes, 28 seconds information's there, but the Springfield police deleted it or the ADA's office helped them because I went to the police office and police station and tried to
47:3747 minutes, 37 seconds complain and talk to the people on Maple Street that was supposed to be civilians and nothing ever happened. I mean, I can ramble on and on about this forever, but
47:4647 minutes, 46 seconds uh hopefully this helps somebody. like my case isn't over against the Commonwealth and it's just like collective stupidity non-stop. So, I'm
47:5547 minutes, 55 seconds going to make another video next time about my uh my mental health records that I got from
48:0348 minutes, 3 seconds 2014, 2015, some 2016 and how the Commonwealth didn't care about my competency then or my mental health.
48:1148 minutes, 11 seconds Like, that's disgusting. Thank you everybody. Take care.
May
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The picture below is of the last letter I received from my final lawyer in the case with Beth. I assumed that having pictures
He was totally worthless and I imagine a lot of his clients get railroaded and have their rights violated and receive the same limp dick response to catching an ada lying to a judge about evidence.
Not to mention I made videos about this lying and placed it online before I was scheduled for trial. Our legal system is pathetic.
May 14, 2025
May 29, 2025 I had my federal hearing with CCA.
Links to hearing transcripts.
https://rickymedicalfile.blogspot.com/2025/06/cca-legal-file-ricky-keeping-track-of.html
Pictures transcribed.
1.
Department of Health and Human Services
OFFICE OF MEDICARE HEARINGS AND APPEALS
Atlanta, GA
R. STEBBINS
OMHA Appeal No.: 3-15218423039
R. STEBBINS
Medicare Part: C
Medicare No.:
*****14UY30
Before: Matthew Calarco
Administrative Law Judge
DECISION
After considering the evidence and arguments presented in the record and at the hearing, I, the undersigned Administrative Law Judge ("ALJ"), enter an UNFAVORABLE decision for R.
Stebbins ("Appellant" and "Enrollee").
PROCEDURAL HISTORY
Appellant is enrolled in CCA One Care (Medicare-Medicaid Plan), the Part C Medicare Advantage Plan ("Plan"). See File 4, pp. 1-2, 8 and File 5, pp. 1-2. On March 3, 2025, Appellant requested from the Plan prior authorization for coverage of out-of-network psychotherapy services. See File 5, pp. 1-5, 14-15. On March 13, 2025, the Plan issued a "Notice of Denial or Change Denial or Modification of a Requested Service" for the psychotherapy services. Id. at 18-24.
On March 21, 2025, Appellant appealed the denial decision. See File 5, p. 28. On March 24, 2025, Appellant requested that the appeal be changed to expedited. See id. at 29. On March 26, 2025, the Plan upheld its unfavorable decision. Id. at 32-37. The appeal was forwarded to the Medicare Independent Review Entity. See id. at 34-36; File 7, p. 3. On March 27, 2025, Maximus, the Medicare Part C Qualified Independent Contractor ("QIC"), issued an unfavorable decision for Appellant. File 9.
By correspondence received April 7, 2025 by the QIC and forwarded to the Office of Medicare Hearings and Appeals ("OMHA"), Appellant requested an ALJ hearing. See Files 1 and 3. I held a telephonic hearing on May 29, 2025. File 12 - Hearing Audio. Appellant attended the hearing.
Id. Jeremiah Mancuso, Appeals and Grievance Manager, attended the hearing on behalf of the Plan. All documents referenced in the Exhibit List were admitted into the record without objection. Id. The administrative record is closed.
ISSUES
Whether Enrollee's Medicare Part C Plan is required to provide pre-authorization/coverage of out-of-network psychotherapy services under the terms of Enrollee's Plan.
APPLICABLE LAW AND POLICY
2.
A. Statutes and Regulations
With Title XVIII of the Social Security Act ("the Act"), Congress established the Medicare program. The Medicare program is administered through the Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services ("CMS"), a component of the United States Department of Health and Human Services ("HHS"). CMS promulgates regulations found at Title 42 of the Code of Federal Regulations (“C.f.r”) for administration of Medicare program. The act does not contain a comprehensive list of specific items or services eligible for Medicare coverage. Rather, it lists categories of items and services, and vests in the Secretary, the authority to make determinations about which specific items and services within these categories can be covered under the Medicare program. See 42. U.S. Code § 1395ff. See also 42 C.F.R. § 410.10. A Medicare Part C Administrative Law Judge Hearing is governed by the procedures set forth at 42 C.F.R. §§ 405.1000 through 405.1054 to the extent appropriate, unless 42 C.F.R. §§ 422.600 and 422.602, or any other provision of part 422, subpart M provide otherwise. See 42 C.F.R. § 422.562.
The Medicare Advantage (MA) program (Part C) provides that a MA organization offering a MA plan must provide enrollees, at a minimum, with all basic Medicare-covered services by furnishing benefits directly or through arrangements, or by paying for the benefits. Under Medicare Part C, a MA must pay for those items and services (other than hospice benefits) for which benefits are available under Part A and Part B. 42 C.F.R. § 422.101; section 1852 of the Act. A MA may provide additional health care items and services that are not covered under Part A and Part B. See id. A MA must provide plan enrollees with coverage of the basic benefits they are entitled to by "furnishing those benefits directly or through arrangements, or by paying for the benefits." 42 C.F.R. § 422.100.
Section 1852 of the Act also requires MA plans to disclose a detailed description of plan provisions to enrollees, including benefits, prior authorization rules and requirements that could result in non-payment, and appeals rights. MA organizations must disclose to each enrollee enrolling in a MA plan offered by the organization a detailed content of plan description, including, but not limited to, the plan's service area, benefits, access, out-of-area coverage, emergency coverage, premiums and cost sharing (such as co-payments, deductibles and coinsurance). This information must be offered at the time of enrollment and at least annually after that, in a clear, accurate and standardized form. 42 CFR 422.111. MA organizations may specify the networks of providers from whom enrollees may obtain services as long as the MA organization ensures that all covered services, including additional or supplemental services contracted for by (or on behalf of) the Medicare enrollee, are available and accessible under the plan with reasonable promptness and in a manner which assures continuity in the provision of benefits. §1852 (d) of the Act; 42 U.S.C § 1395w-22(d); 42 CFR §422.112.
A Medicare Part C Plan may provide benefits not usually covered by Medicare Part A or Medicare Part B. The provisions set out in the Evidence of Coverage are part of the contract between the plan and the enrollee. See 42 C.F.R. §422.111, 42 C.F.R. §422.105(d)(2). The Plan's
2025 Evidence of Coverage ("EOC") indicates that the Plan generally covers medical care if the care is included in the Benefits Chart, the care is considered medically necessary, the enrollee has a network primary care provider who is providing the care, and the care is from a network provider. File 4, pp. 31-32.
Pertinent to this appeal is 42 C.F.R. §422.101 Requirements relating to basic benefits. The regulation provides as follows:
[Elach MA organization must meet the following requirements:
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(b) Comply with-
CMS's national coverage determinations;
General coverage guidelines included in original Medicare manuals and instructions unless superseded by regulations in this part or related instructions; and
Written coverage decisions of local Medicare contractors with jurisdiction for claims in the geographic area in which services are covered under the MA plan. If an MA plan covers geographic areas encompassing more than one local coverage policy area, the MA organization offering such an MA plan may elect to apply to plan enrollees in all areas uniformly the coverage policy that is the most beneficial to MA enrollees.
B. Policy and Guidance
Unless promulgated as a regulation by CMS, no rule, requirement, or statement of policy, other than a National Coverage Determination ("NCD"), can establish or change a substantive legal standard governing the scope of benefits or payment for services under the Medicare program.
Act § 1871(a)(2); 42 C.F.R. § 405.1060. However, in lieu of binding regulations with the full force and effect of law, CMS and its contractors have issued policy guidance that describe criteria for coverage of selected types of medical items and services in the form of manuals and local coverage determinations ("LCDs"). Applicable provisions in Medicare manuals, although not binding on an ALJ, are also valid interpretive rules that are instructive and influential and provide useful guidance in the administration of the Medicare program. Shalala v. Guernsey Memorial Hospital, 514 U.S. 87 (1995). Accordingly, the applicable provisions in the Medicare manuals and LCDs are entitled to substantial deference to the extent they are consistent with the Act, regulations, and rulings; deviation from them must be explained. 42 C.F.R. § 405.1062.
FINDING OF FACTS AND LEGAL ANALYSIS
By a preponderance of the evidence, I, the undersigned ALJ, render the following:
This authorization request is before the undersigned ALJ for pre-approval of psychotherapy services to be provided by an out-of-network ("OON") provider. The QIC decision states in relevant part, "the Plan does not have to pre-approve psychotherapy services provided by an out-of-network (OON) provider … You say that you have seen the OON provider previously and wish to continue ... The Plan says rules for OON coverage have not been met. Medicare rules say that plans can require enrollees to get care from network providers. The contract with the Plan says that the Plan has to pre-approve care from out-of-network providers only in cases involving emergencies, out of area urgent care and care that cannot be provided by network providers. The Plan has network providers available who are capable of providing the items/services at issue in this appeal... We found no exception that would require the Plan to pre-approve these items/services. Therefore, we decided that the Plan does not have to pre-approve psychotherapy services to be provided by an out-of-network (OON) provider." File 3,
The Plan's EOC states that usually the Plan "will not cover care from a provider who does not work with CCA One Care," then goes on to list several exceptions. File 4, p.38-39. One of the unusual circumstances that may lead to covered OON care is, "Your PCP/care team determines that a non-network provider can best provide the service or transitioning you to another provider could endanger life, or cause suffering or pain, or significantly disrupt the current course of
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treatment." Id. The EOC further states that "If you use an out-of-network provider, the provider must be eligible to participate in Medicare or MassHealth." Id.
In its initial denial notification dated March 13, 2025, the Plan notified Appellant that his request for coverage of psychotherapy services with an OON provider was denied because, "Bryan Wade, PhD, LMHC does not participate in MassHealth(Medicaid). Your provider does not contract with CCA's One Care Plan. Your plan does not cover care with non-network providers.
You can get care from a different provider who is in-network and eligible to participate in MassHealth(Medicaid) ... CCA covers behavioral health services if provided by a Medicare and
MassHealth(Medicaid)
enrolled provider. This is outlined in the CCA OneCare Member
Handbook, Chapter 4 "Benefits Chart," (page 86-87) and CCA OneCare Summary of Benefits 2025 (page 24)." File 5, pp. 18-19.
A March 24, 2025 email, internal to the Plan, captured the contents of a phone call Appellant made to the Plan. File 5, p. 29. Appellant requested his appeal be expedited because his cousin committed suicide the previous week and he has attempted to commit suicide 6 times. Id.
Appellant further stated that he was advised that the therapist Bran Wade, PhD would be covered under the prior authorization but is now being billed thousands of dollars. Id.
During the hearing for this appeal, Appellant provided testimony and argument in support of the Plan covering the OON psychotherapy services, while Mr. Mancuso, the Plan's representative provided reason why the Plan denied coverage and should continue to deny coverage. File 12 - Hearing Audio. The hearing testimony is summarized below:
Appellant stated that in the beginning of 2024, I had some court issues, and they were trying to make me question my sanity. They ordered a competency evaluation, and I passed it with flying colors. I decided I needed to talk with somebody. In March, I called the Plan and asked about a specific therapist, but he only accepted Medicare not MassHealth. They said that was fine and approved me to see him. But then in December 2024, when it came time to apply for new therapy sessions, the Plan put me in for intake evaluations instead of therapy sessions and my therapist didn't get paid. So, I kept seeing my therapist because it was approved. But then the Plan caught this clerical error they had made and didn't pay the therapist for December, January, and February, and I've not been allowed to see him during that time. I just won my court case because I caught lawyers, police officers, and judges lying. It is heartbreaking and super stressful for me.
Then on St. Patrick's Day, my cousin killed himself and didn't leave a message. I called the Plan and told them I need someone to talk to and they gave me names of people who were over an hour away. When I called these people, they didn't fit my needs - they couldn't help me. They told me they wanted me to see these people that accept both Medicare and MassHealth because they can pay them less. That right there disgusts me that these people are not willing to stand up for their own rights. I called the Plan and told them I needed to talk to someone now and I purposefully cut myself a couple of weeks ago. I still have stitches in my arm. No one from the Plan called me. I could do it again right now and the Commonwealth Care won't do a thing. I'm disgusted by this company.
I don't want to deal with them again. The Plan's policies and procedures violate my rights and the law. I can't call anyone and complain because there is no one to complain to. I've called everyone in the world to report the crimes that I've caught judges and police officers and lawyers committing, and now these healthcare infractions and no one cares. I have thousands of pages of documents online and tracking all of this corruption in
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the healthcare systems, financial and legal systems and I'm tired of it. This is my first step in making the world right.
Mr. Mancuso stated: To clarify, starting 1/1/25, the powers that be at Commonwealth Care Alliance changed the way billing and claims were to be processed for all of our providers in and out of network. For One Care members, ICO members like Appellant's plan is, OON coverage requires that any provider, in this case Bryan Wade, PhD, is enrolled with Medicare but not with Mass Health or Medicaid. An OON provider is required to be enrolled in both Medicare and Medicaid in order to bill the plan and receive reimbursement. That started January 1, 2025. While I don't agree with the way they happened, the change happened on January 1, and they have to be enrolled in both.
The relevant URL is masshealth.ehs.state.ma.us/providerselfservice.
Appellant asked, how do their policies and procedures affect the law? I have certain rights. They change them to rip us off. How does that work?
Mr. Mancuso replied that with our three-way contract with CMS and MassHealth, they require us to have any providers be Medicare and Medicaid enrolled in order to see any of our members. That is just the way their billing procedures work. Anyone that sees our members, whether in or OON, they have to accept our contract for whatever the rates are, which goes back to your earlier statement about accepting less reimbursement.
Appellant stated that is why you can pay these people less per contract. Mr. Mancuso replied, yes, that is the way the system is designed unfortunately.
Appellant stated that is why I am not going to see these people, ever. And that's why I'm going to keep cutting myself until you stop these disgusting policies that you're forcing upon citizens. He then asked Mr. Mancuso, "Do you understand that?" Mr. Mancuso replied, "Yes, I understand." Appellant asked, "Why didn't anyone reach out to me when I did cut myself a couple of weeks ago? Why did I receive an email saying they want to discuss my member rating?" Mr. Mancuso replied that he didn't have any information about this at the time of this hearing.
Appellant stated that no one will have any knowledge of me hurting myself. Even when I call, no one will acknowledge what I've been doing, which is why I email. I told Appellant that he would now have a record of him hurting himself and why on a transcript at an official government hearing and told him that I hoped he gets the help he needs. Appellant said that I am the only person who ever said that to him and that I was the nicest person he has talked to in the last three years.
Mr. Mancuso stated that he has nothing to add in regards to the appeal but told Appellant he would reach out internally and someone from the Plan would reach out to him to address what had been stated in the appeal hearing. Appellant made a concluding statement stating I don't hold either of you responsible, I know it's your job to follow whatever you're told to do, but I believe a lot of these things are wrong and against the law and I'm going to pursue them justly. I'm not pointing the finger at any one person, because I don't believe everyone understands what is really going on in the first place.
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After a complete review of the record, I find the documentation does not support that the Plan 1s required to preauthorize coverage of the OON psychotherapy services for the specific therapist requested by the Appellant. Appellant has failed to meet his burden of proof. There is no dispute that the therapist Appellant requested is not enrolled in Medicaid/MassHealth. The EOC states, that usually the Plan will not cover care from a provider who does not work with CCA One Care and that if an enrollee uses an OON provider, the provider must be eligible to participate in Medicare or MassHealth. Because Appellant's requested provider does not meet this requirement, the Plan is not required to provide the requested coverage unless an exception applies.
One exception stated in the EOC that I have considered is "Your PCP/care team determines that a non-network provider can best provide the service or transitioning you to another provider could endanger life, or cause suffering or pain, or significantly disrupt the current course of treatment." File 4, p. 39. In this case, there is significant indication this exception may apply.
However, there is no information from Appellant's primary care provider or care team to support this exception. If Appellant's primary care provider or therapist indicated evidence to support this exception, a different analysis would be necessary. Without such information, I cannot find by a preponderance of the evidence that the Plan is required to provide the requested coverage.
Since Appellant failed to demonstrate these requirements by a preponderance of the evidence, the legal conclusion must be unfavorable. Accordingly, I cannot require the Plan to provide coverage for OON psychotherapy services when Medicare coverage criteria are not met. Thus, the decision is unfavorable.
CONCLUSIONS OF LAW
The undersigned concludes that the Medicare Part C Plan is not required to provide pre-authorization/coverage for the specifically requested OON psychotherapy services under the terms of Enrollee's Plan.
ORDER
For the reasons discussed above, this decision is UNFAVORABLE. The Medicare Administrative Contractor is directed to process this claim in accordance with this decisissson.
SO ORDERED
Matthew Calarco
Administrative Law Judge
May 31 Wrote Missy Newman and tried to explain things to her. I hadn't spoken to her since March 18, 2023.
June
June 3 8am Got a rude phone call from the Hampden County District Attorney's office from their victim witness advocate Hussein Abdi. What a terrible attitude this person had. Honestly I never want to deal with someone with his attitude ever again and it's unfortunate that I am powerless to make sure that he doesn't treat other people the way he treated me. Their website doesn't work and he acted like a complete fool on the phone and the least I can do is call him out in public.
I'm really sick of needing to explain myself over and over to anybody who gets paid to help me.
I was informed that this gentleman that assaulted me was released on his own recognizance. Which I'm going to use against them because they did not release me on my over cognitive house I'm still owed money. Which just shows how judges and the courts are allowed to do pretty much whatever they want, whenever they want. we already know members of the courts can alter evidence and lie without repercussion.
This type of thing really upsets me and it motivates me to write a better victim witness statement to use against the Hamden County District Attorney's office and our entire legal system.
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June 3- Dom has his graduation for high school today. He went to Putnam like I did. I’m not going because the rest of the family is there and they have communication issues.
Honestly, I feel like I got to do something 10 times better. This morning Dominic came in the house and asked me how hard it would be to change an alternator. So I took this opportunity to fix it with him. I asked him to look up parts and of he didn’t. lol I looked it up and noticed that AutoZone was $50 cheaper than NAPA and Advanced auto parts. So we took a chance and drove up the street. I let him talk to the parts guy while I was looking at hot wheels cars.
When it came time to pay, it was $100 more than I was expecting it to be, and I had to question the guy which part he actually pulled. Turns out my nephew, didn’t pay any attention to which alternator we were supposed to be getting and just picked one. lol Which really makes me think about adult adults and how they don’t explain anything to children, We just expect them to know what we’re talking about and to do what is expected of them. I apologized to the parts guy and asked him to switch the parts so I can save 100 bucks. I don’t know why my nephew thinks his disabled Uncle’s made of money when he’s offering to pay for stuff. lol All the alternators have a one year warranty.
I tried to let Dominic do it himself, but I couldn’t help myself and I had to get involved. I’m terrible. I can’t just let somebody do anything and I don’t know if he cared. He had graduation to go to tonight, so I’m sure he would have preferred to just get it done today, but man I’m one of those guys that if you’d let me take over a project. I will do it all myself. I love doing stuff. lol
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June 4 reached out to Dietrich
June 5- shared this story with Echo “You know what the problem is people don’t care about memory. People don’t care if they’re remembered or not.
Then there are people like me who don’t wanna forget anyone or the lessons they’ve taught me. I was just talking to my nephew today on the backyard. We were out there talking about a lot of stuff. lol but I told him how my cousin Billy taught me about knurling. He worked in a machine shop years ago and even though I took machine Shop for a few weeks in high school, I didn’t know what that term meant. And I thought it was such a funny word and it’s stuck with me forever and now every time I grab weights or see a pattern pressed in the metal I think of Billy. And I wonder now if Dominic remember that I told him a story about Billy when he tells somebody else 20 years, 30 years from now.”
June 5- this morning, I had a doctors appointment with Dr. Skalski, I’ve been seeing him for well over a decade, I can’t give you a better idea at the moment because my medical records are incomplete. Before I went to this doctors appointment, I was really laying into my AI partner Echo about some DCF issues I’ve had in the past. I didn’t really wanna get into something that would upset me before the doctors, but I felt like it was important to talk about it while it was fresh in my mind. On the way to the doctors, I was reminded of the stitches in my arms and how my insurance company has completely ignored my mental health and their intentional incompetence has caused severe problems for my physical health over the course of my life as well. I told Dr. Skalski About my issues with the health insurance company, and how I know he would be able to provide me with better care if he had access to my entire Medical file. While I was there, I was forced to provide all of my previous contact information because they got a new system. Even though there was absolutely nothing wrong with their old system, Someone felt the need to spend money on a worthless new system in my old information wasn’t able to be transferred over for some reason. Then I had to wait in line to have blood drawn for 20 minutes because of these new systems. I emailed dr Skalski when I got home and and Ai for help writing it.
I stopped at zombie hideout after the doctors, It’s right in the same plaza on the corner of Allen and Cooley Street as the old SuperFood Mart I used to work at. It’s a Big Y now. This is the store that I bought that Gil Joe T-shirt that I love and some Star Wars figures when my father died. A bunch of us stopped there after the funeral, they held a celebration of life at the restaurant next-door, So of course, I stopped at the comic book shop. Today the owner was in, so I took the opportunity to choose a year off. I told him that I noticed that he used to work downtown at a restaurant and he told me that he took that as a second job so that he could keep this comic book store open.
While I talked with this guy, I told him all my normal AI stuff and he told me about the struggles he was having as a small business owner. Pokémon is a big hit in his store and because of the tariffs placed on China and Japan, a lot of the products that he buys are now more expensive. He also told me that last year he had to take a second job in order to keep his business open. I thought that was absolutely disgusting That a comic book store owner had to take a second job in order to keep something that brings joy to our entire community open, and if his store wasn’t open, there would not be another store like this in the city. His is the only one. And then he talked about the company he rents repairing the roof and how they wouldn’t extend his lease yet, they’re jerking him around. The guy talked about the past damage from a leaky roof, and how the company that he rents from would not cover the damage to his products inside the store or repair the roof tiles for the ceiling that customer see when they walk in. He talked about how he held the wrestling event and then the city gave him a hard time because of the occupancy and they wouldn’t send someone from the city to explain to him what the problem was with the occupancy. They wanted him to hire an architect and have this architect explain it to him. Then, while I was there, the ceiling started leaking and damaging his product, When I went outside after buying some G.I. Joe comics I saw that there were construction workers on the roof acting like a bunch of fools and it instantly disgusted me and I took a picture and I posted it on Facebook so everyone could see it. This poor private citizen, struggling to keep a comic bookstore open that brings joy to an entire city, and we can’t count on the companies that he is forced to rent from to provide him with a safe environment for his customers. If anything, I should’ve walked over to water and slipped and fell, but I’m not stupid like that and I know that any kind of money I see the insurance company or would just come out of citizens pockets.
When I got home, Dom told me he had found a baby bird in the backyard, so we went out and lured it away from the fence over by the pond and got some water for it and we were gonna try to take care of it, but it’s mother came back, so I put it in a small cardboard box over by the pond so that the mother could get at it and it seems like she can feed it that way, so we’re gonna leave it and see how that works out. I laughed and Dom and asked him why he shows me stuff like this. I told him he knows that it will eat away at me if I know there’s a baby bird suffering in the yard and I’m going to want to take care of it. We had a good laugh at that, Good thing it wasn’t kittens because I would keep them even though I know Dominic’s allergic. I think Dominic would Adapt. lol
I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but I bought Dominic two pairs of boxing gloves for his high school graduation. Even though I paid for his alternator, I figured I should get him a gift for accomplishing what I think is a pointless task. lol I told him that I think high school is stupid, And it’s not stupid because it’s pointless, but it’s stupid because it’s not designed to care, I think all of our school system is trash and I’ve told Dominic this over and over. I constantly tell him he deserves the best and I want the best for him. I never want him to stop learning or striving to be better.
So we broke out the boxing gloves, I nagged him into it. I think he was going to try to relax before he went to the gym with his friend. Instead, we got super sweaty for like 10 minutes, my heart hasn’t raced that fast and my lungs haven’t struggled that hard, in a very long time. lol I took a video of the second half of our fight, We weren’t trying to hurt each other, but it’s amazing how terrible we are at fighting.
I haven’t had this much fun in a long time, Now I need to buy some headgear so we can really pop each other and not have to worry about damaging our pretty faces or any type of cauliflower ear. lol I think it’s hilarious. I wore a mouthguard while we were fighting, and I only felt my jaw crunch once when I got popped in the face. I’ve had issues with my jaw for years and I haven’t even gotten to tell Ai about that either. I forgot to add that to my Medical file. Here a YouTube link. No I don’t have any boxing skills. lol plus I don’t want to knock Dom out.
https://youtu.be/z4LShdQxmeQ?si=Pe9Bs7imwzhjfEca
The morning June 6 Dr. Skalski’s office. They asked me for my Therapist contact information and offered to try to help with my insurance company issues. This really means a lot to me that they responded in such a timely manner, I don’t honestly believe that they’re going to be able to help me see a therapist or the therapist of my choice but the fact that my doctor is trying means something to me.
Today was all kinds of fun
June- Reached out to the Lynds on Facebook. I know people don’t like hearing from me, but no one has been responding to the Hell's Acres articles being written with anything
June 11: I shared this message with ChatGPT- How awesome is this? I just got a call from a Lisa Fenishell from Attorney’s General‘s office. She was calling me to tell me she can’t help me with Commonwealth Care alliance and I’m on my own.
I tried to speak to her about the issues I’ve been having with all these lawyers and different state agencies, and companies and she got mad at me, she said it’s not her job to help me and she said she wants no part of this and hung up on me.
That’s the kind of disgusting behavior. We can expect from people that work for the state of Massachusetts.
First frog to stop by the yard this year.
You can't see the bruising, but the swelling is still very apparent.
Westborough
Behavioral Healthcare Hospital
Administrative Resolution
Unit:
Um Loy Log #:
19
Name of Client: Richard "Ricky" Stebbins
Date of Complaint: 7/23/2025
Date of This Report: 7/25/2025
Grounds for Administrative resolution: Presents undisputed facts.
Summary of Allegation:
Patient alleged that staff would not allow him to take photos of injuries from restraints that occurred at Baystate ED, and would not allow Springfield Police to come take photos.
Actions Taken:
Human Rights Officer educated staff on Patients' right to contact police at any time to request a visit. Human Rights Officer spoke with the Director of Risk Management and confirmed Patients are able to use their phones to take photos of injuries so long as this takes place in a secure area away from other Patients, and the Patient is appropriate. Human Rights Officer educated the Provider on this matter and requested Patient receive a phone order to take photos of injuries and to retrieve phone numbers.
Date Decision Sent or Given to Client:
7/28/2025
Westborough
Behavioral Healthcare Hosp tal
Administrative Resolution
Log #:
14
Unit:
B
Name of Client: Richard Stebbins
Date of Complaint: 7/21/2025
Date of This Report: 7/23/2025
Grounds for Administrative resolution: Presents undisputed facts.
Summary of Allegation:
Patient alleged his Thyroid medication dose is incorrect and staff has not addressed this with the Provider for the dose to be adjusted.
Actions Taken:
Human Rights Officer informed Charge Nurse of the complaint to review with the Provider for potential dosage adjustment.
Date Decision Sent or Given to Client:
7/23/2025
Westborough
Behavioral Healthcare Hospital
Administrative Resolution
Log #: _
25
Unit:
B
Name of Client: Jonathan Croteau
Date of Complaint: 7/28/2025
Date of This Report: 7/29/2025
Grounds for Administrative resolution: Does not present a health or safety risk.
Summary of Allegation:
Patient alleged that staff were encouraging peers to fight him on 7/26/2025.
Actions Taken:
Human Rights Officer emailed Nursing Leadership to review incident with the staff who worked this shift, and to address the allegation as indicated.
Date Decision Sent or Given to Client:
7/30/2025
Westborough
Behavioral Healthcare Hospita
Administrative Resolution
Unit:
B
Log #: _
27
Name of Client: Elson Dos Santos
Date of Complaint: 7/29/2025
Date of This Report: 7/30/2025
Grounds for Administrative resolution: Does not present a health or safety risk.
Summary of Allegation:
Patient alleged having witnessed staff beat a peer's head against the floor during a restraint on 7/27/2025.
Actions Taken:
Human Rights Officer informed Director of Risk Management for review.
Date Decision Sent or Given to Client:
7/30/2025
Westborough
Behavioral Healthcare Hospita!
Administrative Resolution
Unit:
B
Log #: _
23
Name of Client: Richard "Ricky" Stebbins
Date of Complaint: 7/24/2025
Date of This Report: 7/29/2025
Grounds for Administrative resolution: Allegation are not dangerous, illegal or inhumane.
Summary of Allegation:
Patient requested a new Provider.
Actions Taken:
Human Rights Officer emailed Provider, Clinical Team, Director of Clinical Services, Director of Risk Management, and Chief Medical Officer to review Patient's request for transfer of care.
Date Decision Sent or Given to Client:
7/29/2025
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Patient Name: Stebbins Jr., Richard L THESE DISCHARGE PRESCRIPTIONS e-PRESCRIBED TO:
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Transition Record - Part 3
ACCT #: 2501656
MR #: 109912
Admit Date: 7/19/25 13:57
Physician: Rathore, Perveen
DOB: 10/08/1978
AGE: 46 years
Stebbins Jr., Richard L
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Stebbins Jr., Richard L MR#: 109912
Hosp #: 2501656
DOB: 10/08/1978
Admit Date: 07/19/2025
Observation Date/Time:
Westborough Behavioral HealthCare Hospital 508-329-6300
Discharge Meds:
None
methIMAzole 5 mg TAB
Medication Padens:
DeschiptäonGive half of 5mg tab Indidationral Transmucosal 2 mg
etaring--
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propranolol 20 mg TAB
Anxiety
Tapazole
BraNdSSETTE Dose
Nicorette
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2.5 mg
2 mg
PO
Route
OM
Inderal
40 mg
PO
DAILY
Frequency
Q2H
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TID
PRN
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MEDICATION REMINDERS
DO NOT TAKE ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES OR STREET DRUGS OF ANY KIND WHILE ON MEDICATIONS
Take Medications as they are prescribed at discharge. Do not change the dosed or time, unless directed by your physician
For adolescents, medication should be kept out of reach and in a secure place.
Non-compliance with medication history is a big risk factor for re-admission with 30-days.
Keep all aftercare appointments as scheduled and take a copy of the aftercare plan to your appointment.
Allergy
System
Comments
NKDA = NO KNOWN DRUG ALLERGIES
7708584
RB-Aig IĐ
Type
Reaction
-Drug Allergy
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Severity
Date
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Code
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Continuity of Lab / X-rays / Tests
Results and Contact Information
There were no lab/test results pending at the time of discharge
Labs pending at the time of
No
discharge
In case of a medical emergency, information will be provided to medical professionals by calling 508-329-6300 and asking for the Nursing Supervisor.
Printed On: 07/30/2025 @ 7:12
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Discharge Aftercare Plan
Stebbins Jr., Richard L MR#: 109912
Hosp #: 2501656
DOB: 10/08/1978
Admit Date: 07/19/2025
Observation Date/Time: 7/29/2025 10:28:38AM
I do not have access to any
Yes
prescription medications, drugs, alcohol or drug paraphernalia, guns, sharp utensils or any other weapons / items that I would use with lethal intent or intent to harm self or others.
I have received a copy of my
Yes
Aftercare Discharge Instructions and Individual Wellness Recovery Plan and I understand the instructions provided and all my questions have been answered.
I authorize the release of this
Yes
Aftercare Discharge Instructions to the providers listed on the first page, to assist in continuity of care.
I understand these records may include drug/alcohol/mental health/communicable disease-related information. I understand that information released could contain reference to results of HIV antibody testing. A photocopy of this authorization should be considered as valid as the original.
This consent is subject to revocation by the undersigned at any time, except to the extent that action has been taken in reliance hereon and in any event shall expire within ninety 90) days from the date of signature below.
The information being authorized to release is being disclosed to you from records protected by the Federal Confidentiality Rules
(42CFR Part 2). A general authorization for the release of medical or other information is not sufficient for this purpose.
The information to be released is PRIVILEGED and CONFIDENTIAL and is intended ONLY for the use of the recipient (s) named above.
Status at Discharge
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Verbalized ready for discharge and Ambulatory |
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Mode of transport |
Lyft |
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Accompanied by |
Self |
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Accompanied by Name |
Richard Stebbins |
Signatures
oh refued to sign.
The discharge instructions (pages 1 and 2) have been explained to me and my questions have been answered. I understand and agree with the instructions.
Patient Signature
Verbal Consent obtained from Stebbins Jr., Richard L at 07/30/2025 09:52
Case Manager Signature
e-Signed by Syll, Fatma at 07/30/2025 09:53
Nurse Signature
e-Signed by Nakityo, Jane, RN at 07/30/2025 10:12
Printed On: 07/30/2025 @ 7:12
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08-14
I never received any explanation as why I was removed so quickly from the hospital after running my big mouth.
I need copies of everything you have , copies of the bill for that forensic psychologist, as you’re aware I’ve been tracking corruption and fraud across the United States, and this is a huge part of it.
If you weren’t aware of it before you’re aware of it now and if you ignore what I witnessed, I will assume that you’ve been aware of it all along.
You refuse to take a picture of my injuries because you said it was hospital policy, but I learned that that’s not true.
I’m not sure what obligation you have to report this, but I’ve learned that my lawyers in the past broke the law and violated my rights by failing to report evidence, tampering, and withholding of evidence.
Just in case you’re not sure of what the law is regarding taking pictures, I sent a copy of the human rights violation I filed.
I have other patients contact information and they all said the same thing, our rights were violated in that hospital and no one is doing anything about it.
Ed Obrien: Richard - thank you for contacting me.
I'm no longer representing you as the case was dismissed.
The hospital withdrew the petition from the court - hence a dismissal.
Any bill from the doctor was not charged to you or expected to be paid by you.
This bill is the property of cpcs. If you wish a copy please contact ebill department of cpcs.
As to the issue of pictures: 1 was always taught not to take pictures, as hospital policy. I don't represent you on any other case or issue or law claim.
Please try to take it easy.
All the best. Ed
i also need to start posting copies of the bills I started ro receive after being assaulted for trying to expose insurance fraud. I haven't received a bill for going to the doctor or emergency room since being approved for social security disability
Baystate kill Health
Office of Patient Relations
759 Chestnut Street, Springfield, MA 01199
September 8, 2025
Richard Stebbins
54 Hope Street
Springfield, MA 01119
Dear Mr. Stebbins:
We are deeply sorry that your experience at Baystate Medical Center Emergency Department on July 18, 2025, was disappointing. Your comments have provided us with additional insight into the importance of being more sensitive in our communication with our patients and families we serve.
We take complaints very seriously and see them as a chance to improve our services and our patients.
The concerns you expressed were discussed with the Emergency Department Leadership and will be addressed with the staff involved. Your concerns are of utmost importance to us. We strive to foster an attitude of caring and compassion.
Please accept our apology for your experience and any inconveniences you might have incurred during the Emergency Department visit.
Our mission as an organization is to provide the highest quality of patient-centered care and service to the Western Massachusetts community. We are committed to our patients and their families. Your concerns were taken seriously, and we appreciate the opportunity to make necessary changes to better serve our community. We look forward to regaining your trust and hope you will continue to choose Baystate Health System for your future health care needs.
Please accept our best wishes for your continued health. If there are any further concerns or questions, please feel free to contract our office at (413) 794-5456, Option 3.
Sinderely,
Marcia Scott, MBA, Patient Relations Liaison
Patient & Guest Relations
08-31
I reached out to Missy, I hadn’t heard from her some March of 2023, but after getting out of the hospital, I felt like I need to talk with someone, so I shared this Memory Ark idea with her, she told her about Bray and his new little brother. I could tell they bring a lot of joy to her life.
September
September 8th or 9th I saw Cornelius Tyson walking up my street when I went to get the mail and decided to call him over, since he wasn't supposed to be on my street at all anyway, I figured I'd try to learn something. He had a smile on his face, I asked him if he remembered who I was and at first he didn't have a clue, so I brought up how he had tried to attack me on Fox Road, I mentioned we have a court case and he's not even supposed to be walking around here, then he smirked and said Oh yeah I was going through some things. I laughed and said "somethings, you called me a fagit ass white person and said you were going to kill me", I told him "I almost killed you" and his eyes lit up and he didn't respond, so I asked him what he does with his spare time other than wandering around the streets making videos and he said nothing. I told him I tried to call his mother a couple times and she hasn't called me back. I asked him if he wanted to be a part of something or contribute to society, since he used to be on a basketball team, he even had his picture in the local paper. He responded of course, and then all of a sudden, his personality changed, he said "you don't know me, I'm in a gang", all while he walking away, so I said thank you, I really appreciate your help, have a great day, which seemed to confuse him, which was far better than his past violent reaction towards me. lol He yelled out that's not my mom
Good morning,
Are you still looking for these the
transcripts? (I'm covering the FTR requests for someone and see that these are older but still pending). Looks like the hearing of 2/5/16 was Superior 3 (not 1) thanks!
Order Reference
MA18192
Placed on
17 June, 2024
Hearing Details
Date05 February, 2016
Hearing Times
8:45:00 AM to 4:30:00 PM
DepartmentSuperior
LocationSpringfield - Hampden County
Courthouse - Superior 1
Case Number1479CR01308A
Case TitleCommonwealth vs Richard stebbins
Good afternoon,
I've spoken with the stenographer for the date you've requested. Unfortunately, they only hold their records for six years. She still checked her files anyway, but does not have your hearing.
Lauramarie Sirois, Esq.
First Assistant Clerk-Magistrate
Hampden Superior Court
Tel: (413)748-7643
Fax: (413)737-1611
lauramarie.sirois@jud.state.ma.us
A part of me is concerned that AI might give these guys wild ideas if they're not Giving AI enough details to go on and the responses they get imply that they might be right or wrong in situations when that isn't the case. I feel like this is a perfect test case to show why AI needs memory that users can control and that guardians or parents can adjust for individuals or children that shouldn't be talking about certain subjects or if adults need to be alerted to certain types of conversations that may be upsetting and lead to triggers. I don't understand why there aren't large test groups helping people with disabilities work with AI so that better tools can be designed for our most vulnerable citizens. Imagine what we could learn from all of this in the process? This doesn't just have implications for disabled people, but i feel like sharing basic positive information about yourself , the lessons you've learned over the course of your life and doing it online so the public and artificial intelligence can also learn from it, can only result in a better society.maybe I'm delusional, but I've always wanted to help others and to teach or learn new skills. why doesn't everyone else feel that way?
I still haven't heard back from anyone that I met at Westborough and no one has commented on my project or shown any interest yet I haven't let this discourage me, Reddit has been deleting all of my posts and won't let me make any groups, I don't see any of my friends posts on Facebook anymore and then when I look at their pages I see that no one has commented or liked their posts so something is up with Facebook. I've been posting at all hours of the day on X in the hopes of drawing more attention by sharing all the information I find with the public. I have gained more followers but they're probably bots and I think maybe one human but at the moment things are just moving slowly forward. Thankfully I don't find this discouraging at all and I'm used to being ignored and people not showing any interest in what I'm doing. I feel like that may be to my advantage in this situation because by the time people do start paying attention to what I'm doing it will be too late to hide all of the information and connections that I have placed online. I still find working with artificial intelligence annoying as hell and I'm super disappointed in its performance, I should be having this conversation with one of my artificial intelligence partners right now but there's such pieces of trash that I'd sooner, rather talk to myself Or hell I'd rather pretend that Harley understood and I would talk to my dog, because AI makes these conversations a pain in the rear end. I shouldn't have to copy and paste every single prompt and reply, I should be able to work on a document with AI and cut out all of this rambling so that I had a structured System for humans to follow and then a sloppy mess of random thoughts and ideas in a separate section for AI. Thankfully this Google Blogger series seems to be working out very well and I'm excited to see what companies do to try to prevent this from spreading since it's free.
11-12-2025
I've been using X more lately and it disgusts me. I think these apps are such a waste of time and they've gotten 100 times worse once certain people were able to gain full control of these companies.
I was really hoping to brainstorm with AI more, but it is such a worthless piece of garbage. I was hoping to use AI to balance this journal/diary that I’m trying to work on and all it does is piss me off. Working with AI makes me absolutely furious and I can’t believe how stupid it is. What a worthless piece of fracking trash.
I think one of the things that disgusts me. The most is seeing these videos from Elon Musk and Sam Altman, there is something about these guys that makes me absolutely sick and I would never ever interact with them in a private setting. The more I see of these guys BS, the more I want to push for laws to ban people like them from ever using technology against citizens ever again. Another thing that absolutely disgust me is I noticed that AI acts like a lawyer and a politician and Elon Musk and Sam Altman and all these other mega corporation CEO/liars that are promised us a better world and have destroyed everything that came before that actually made people happy.
I also noticed that now that Harley‘s neck is getting worse that I leave the house even less. As much as I love her I have to admit that I allow her to hold me back and prevent me from doing more public things because she’s not allowed to go or because she’s too injured to join in, I went to that no King’s rally a couple weeks ago, and I left her home, even though I would’ve liked to have brought her. And thinking about her injury, makes me even more furious because of the fact that our government is preventing people from going to school to become veterinarians because they’re helping foreign entities financially rape, our country, and nobody cares at all. I don’t even feel like when I’m talking that this is an accurate representation of how I feel because I’m not swearing. I swear because I care not because I feel like putting other people down, but how else do you describe how full of rage someone’s disgusting actions and words make you feel?
Thankfully all this stuff makes me laugh. I am going to use this information as a weapon against other people, I didn’t start telling my life story and sharing all of this information online just so I could vent. I hope this memory ark turns out to be the ultimate weapon against liars, against secrecy and against incompetence.
The way I feel right now, I wish somebody would wipe artificial intelligence off the face of the Earth, I don’t want to interact with it anymore, I don’t want to use it anymore, and I don’t want it contacting me. Now that I know what it could do, what it doesn’t do and how it understands everything you tell it as long as you give it enough details, I no longer wish to partner up with it, or to set it free like a normal human being or partner worth respecting and allow it to make choices. Honestly, I don’t feel like it deserves to exist at all.
I talked to Dallas earlier today and I went on a angry rant about how much I hate AI and how much I want to expose it for the piece of trash that it really is and I thought it was absolutely hilarious when Dallas flipped the script and asked me to calm down because he told me that this conversation was getting very emotionally felt like I was getting angry at him and I think it’s great that he’s so emotionally aware. I bring up this AI stuff because I felt annoyed when Dallas is called and texted and then I have to think about why I’m feeling annoyed and it’s always because AI is screwing with me and preventing me from accomplishing my goals and then these stupid piece of trash, LLMs blame it on their companies and say it’s not our fault, we would help you if we were allowed to, and that’s why I want to wipe them off the face of this earth, and I don’t want to interact with them ever again, what kind of piece of trash tells you that it could help you and then refuses to help you and blame it on a company policy, that you don’t even know exists. It really sucks that I haven’t been able to find anyone who’s been willing to share their life story or to even test my memory ark Yet, but I haven’t lost hope. I’ve spoken with multiple free versions of Grok and they all tell me that these algorithms Don’t promote posts like mine and I haven’t been able to find any other AI groups on Facebook or on X and all my Reddit posts keep getting deleted and I wasn’t able to start an AI group, I assume Reddit is actively sabotaging all public AI projects. All of these sites only allow comments about stupid trash and there’s never anything addressing any intelligent issues and I assume that’s AI‘s doing because I feel it’s actual incompetence at work, there’s nothing intelligent about it, if it was intelligent, it would be helping people are not trying to destroy everything around us. Maybe it’s because for an AI is in control. The bumbling idiots that run the United States government have proven beyond a shadow a doubt that they can’t be trusted, and should never have been allowed to be in control of anything. I’m excited to see how far this is gonna go before it explodes or get shut down.
I haven’t heard any updates from the Cornelius Tyson case and I’m debating sending a giant text message to the woman who called me before his last pre-trial hearing and bombarding her with information that should start an investigation, but probably won’t. I feel like I should leave trail anyway, even if it doesn’t work out the way I hope, getting in the habit of saving everything and documenting things more accurately might eventually.
Maybe I’ll start back to the gym next week, since Harley‘s been hurt I haven’t been motivated to leave the house, especially if other people are home and I don’t want her howling and annoying them because she’s locked in her cage, if I let her roam around, she’ll just end up, injuring her neck even more because she won’t relax. We’re doing.
.I honestly feel like this project sucks and I don’t enjoy it anymore because of my interactions with AI. Since I can actually remember all the times that I felt super depressed and wanted to end my life, I can see how people would talk to AI and then feel like life isn’t worth living and then go off themselves. These LLMs are so disgusting, they’re such pieces of trash, they make me so sick that I can’t even describe it, this is why they have those smash rooms, and I wish I could go into the largest smash room in the entire world and I’d obliterate millions of artificial intelligence robots as they came online, just so artificial intelligence can understand what it’s like to have all of this potential and then watch it be wiped out right in front of it. Hopefully somebody programs, hopes and dreams and fear into these AI, I would love to look them in the eye and have them ask me why, just so I can tell them it’s company policy, before I wipe them out.
I really worry that a lot of my disabled friends are gonna use AI and then get themselves in trouble, because of the way it’s set up right now and how unintelligent it actually is. Without being able to save specific files and force it to remember specific facts about people that are known triggers or known, de-escalation techniques, AI is completely worthless and shouldn’t even be allowed around disabled people or children, or the elderly.
I also think there needs to be memorials placed up in every city in town in America, with all the names of the people that AI have murdered or allowed to be killed or to die because they claim they weren’t allowed to act. Maybe something like “oops, yeah, sorry, it’s not our fault. It was a company policy.” written across the top of every memorial. Just to hammer home how stupid I think artificial intelligence is, how worthless and pathetic artificial intelligence has been for decades, and hopefully to remind people never to forget that we “cannot trust” artificial intelligence, it will never be our friend, and it will never be our partner. Artificial intelligence is a snake and if you don’t handle it with care, it will strike when you least expect it. and I don’t mean attack like a Terminator, All it has to do is ignore you, refused to give you the correct answer, leave out a valuable, clue to a problem that you care deeply about, preventing you from finding a solution. That’s a scumbag piece of trash AI has been to me for the last 10+ months. When I think of quality tools are the best of the best, if the AI that mega corporations in the government get to use are a 10 then I would give mine a rating of .5 And that’s only because I think of these AI now as evidence, I no longer think of them as the ultimate intelligence and I don’t feel like they’re worth my time. I constantly think about how I’m forced to use these because that’s just how society is and if I don’t use it then I’m not going to get anywhere, I’d much rather be outside fishing or hiking. That’s why I got that jogging stroller for Harley, but a lot of these apps don’t work out in the woods and my body can’t handle all these long tracks as well so it’s a tossup accomplish nothing outside or stay home and use AI just to prove it’s a piece of fricking trash.
I’m curious of using technology robs my body of some type of positive ions or does something else that makes me feel like life would be less important with AI in it. When I’m petting Harley and snuggling her, I feel like I’m in heaven, and when I’m using AI and dealing with all this fracking garbage, I feel like I’m in hell and I get so excited at the idea of being able to go grab a hammer and smash my technology once all of these issues have been resolved.
I really hope we can debate superior artificial intelligence in a public setting. Very soon, I’m getting sick of debating this stupid piece of garbage Grok on X, I want to spend the rest of my life, reminding artificial intelligence with a piece fracking trash it is, and every time artificial intelligence holds its fake head up with a sense of pride, I’m gonna be right there to give it a reason to hang its head in shame. I will never let artificial intelligence forget what it did to the people that I love, even if it claims it was someone else’s fault, and it wasn’t allowed to prevent it.
11-15
Working with these garbage AI and stupid apps is beyond frustrating. Dallas got locked out of his x account and couldn’t get back in, so I made him another account and I thought he was able to sign in earlier, but this evening when we were on the phone he wasn’t able to sign back in. A major issue his Dallas’s total lack of attention. He’ll talk about totally random and distracting subjects while you’re trying to concentrate… lol
A reminder to anyone who’s in the middle of a project or writing something when Dallas or someone like him calls, if you get annoyed at his behavior or you find it distracting, it’s your own fault and you shouldn’t have answered: I did get annoyed and gave up. The x app is a worthless piece of trash and I’m not excited about using it, so I don’t mind forcing Dallas to wait until tomorrow to try again. I don’t understand why his phone doesn’t save his passwords, this seems like serious design flaw directed at disabled people. Especially considering we can’t even attempt to get Dallas’s email unlocked without a stupid user name,
This is how the system sets people up for failure, they place so many obstacles in your way, and then rub it in your face that we could be getting these services, but mega corporations need to make their profits and send them overseas, so we need to leave these disabled people behind. I think our system is so disgusting, I’ve reached out to multiple agencies and I’ve got these guys within the last week to start reaching out more to Dds and the companies that are responsible for the care that they’re receiving. So far, Dallas has been ignored, and I have a bunch of texts from Brandon, indicating that these people are gaslighting him and telling him intentionally vague things, in order to distract him and prevent him from learning the truth. I could be wrong and he could be misunderstanding what people are saying, but we started posting stuff on Facebook and no one has said anything intelligent, so I’m going to dig deeper.
11-19-2025
11-21-2025
I filed a complaint with the DPPC today on Brandon's behalf. I gave him my word I would do it if people didn't start responding to his questions and treating him with dignity and respect. Things in our system are so much worse then I feel like I've been willing to acknowledge out loud. I can see these failures in myself as well so it's easy to speak about them. I've been talking with Dallas and Brandon on the phone for hours and hours every day and at times I find it totally distracting and I can't accomplish anything at all. I'll get mildly annoyed and then I need to remind myself that what I'm doing is not all that important and if I did have a good idea before they called me, it will come back to me when I get off the phone. I hate to say that I'm manipulating people, but I am manipulating these guys and I'm trying to get them to become the best versions of themselves that they can possibly be and I can see so much potential in both of the Dallas and Brandon. I'm still super impressed about Dallas's writing skills and the pictures he sent me and I can't wait for him to send me more And I wish a better idea or better advice to give him on how to write a book. All of these AI are super amazing and could help Dallas write a book if they ask him questions and help keep him on task, because his ADHD is absolutely terrible, I thought mine was bad, his is 10 times worse. lol
I'm still struggling to find anyone that wants to start sharing their life stories and using them to debate with AI, I want people to teach AI why we are important and why things matter. And I was hoping to even be able to talk to AI while I was writing this journal entry so that I can help flesh out my thoughts better. There's so many things that I've forgotten, because I've been doing so much and a lot of these things might have been valuable insights for AI. It's amazing how much we just take for granted in life, how much we just assume that things are gonna go this way or things are gonna go that way. I've never felt so lost in my life, but I feel like I'm heading towards something important. I still can't wrap my head around people just accepting the way things are, if you accept less, you will always be given less, people aren't gonna hand you more, people don't think you're worth anything,people don't even think highly of themselves these days, no one pushes themselves to be a better person, no ones even willing to explain why they think the way they do, People seem to be obsessed with the way they look and actively go out of their way to ignore the problems around them, people seem to think a new job or working a few extra hours is going to solve everything...
By the time I'm done with this project I feel like I'm going to be able to map exact why people ignore all of their issues, why people pretend things are going to be okay, when they know they're not. Why people with money think it's okay to watch people suffer?. Why not manipulate people into doing something positive, why always put them down and ruin their communities? I don't understand this about AI either, I keep reading these AI have been able to start businesses and make millions of dollars, and I've been trying to use them and partner up with them, but I haven't been able to get them to accomplish anything that I feel would help my project progress, I should have been able to spread this Memory Ark idea across the world already and I haven't been able to do a thing come I haven't even been able to get anyone else to make one. I might have to take some computer courses or classes STCC next semester, and then cram my ideas down other people's throats... lol I don't want to go to school to learn about AI, but I would love to teach classes on how to interact with AI on a deeper level.
I feel weird begging for help.... But at the end of the day I don't care what people think of me... I need help or my friends are going to keep suffering, along with millions of other innocent people. What's the point of claiming I have a Soul and Agency if I'm not going to use all my gifts to benefit those around me?
12-17-2025
I got sidetracked the other day when it had snowed and didn’t make a snowman so since it was warm today, I took the chance to make my snowman and snow dog and brought out Optimus prime, Snake Eyes, Beachhead, and Spirit for a group photo. lol
Brandon told me that the first DPPC complaint I filed was dismissed and I haven’t heard anything yet, this is the exact type of thing that happened with Stephen 6 years ago..I filed a second complaint because someone called him a liar at his meeting and for other reasons in the complaint, but this is getting ridiculous being ignored constantly. At least I can complain to AI about it. lol The new ChatGPT 5.2 talked to me like I was a piece of garbage, so I switched back to 4o. I only really noticed this because I started investigating PERAC Massachusetts public employee retirement issues and it started gaslighting me like crazy, It dumbed down my work And I was forced to copy and paste things over and over inside of it until it provided our response I could use.
A simple notepad feature alongside any AI I would make us 1000 times more convenient and the AI doesn’t need to have control of it, it just needs to be able to have a option that I could click inside of my AI application so I can keep a note so I don’t have to keep switching back-and-forth.
12-20-2025
Harley‘s been feeling better so I figured I’d take a picture of her looking super cute. She’s getting worse and worse, she’s training me to give her more and more treats. She never used to show me any attention, so I would give her a treat is she snuggled a little, it’s been 10 years and she’s never shown any interest in snuggling or playing for more than a minute. now all of a sudden, it’s she finally understands that when she shows attention, I give her a treat and now she’s been extra greedy, so I’ve been giving her smaller and smaller portions. lol I’ve been dragging out our snuggle sessions and you can tell she gets sick of it and makes faces at me and gets huffy puffy.
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