1988
We were kind of young at the time but our cousin Ellie used to let us watch all kinds of R rated movies like alien and predator and aliens, it was great for kids I don't think that that was violent movies affected me in a negative way.
Around this time the family was watching Mike Tyson fights on pay-per-view and wrestling events.
At the end of this year Nintendo Power came out and I got a subscription to that from my parents and then I got the Dragon Warrior game I used to love reading those magazines and I didn't care about figuring out these issues on my own I just like to read the magazines and have them tell me. Aunt my Cousins and I used to love these magazines and talk about them all the time and we talk about comics
The family changed after my grandfather died too i'll try to talk about that
I need to look for more family picnic or New York videos or pictures
July Bronx Zoo
September
I also remember sitting in the back like coat closet area and we were taking tests on remembering all the presidents and their terms of office and I remember cheating because I didn't remember any of them. While I was locked in the closet I remember gluing all of these books pages together, they had these large gallon jugs of Elmer's glue and I was bored so I don't know if there were a couple hundred books and they were all glued together by the time I was done being locked in that closet. I remember sneaking out of the closet during recess time to watch the kids playing outside from the window in the basement.
October
Holyoke therapist 1988?
The things I remember most about this place, were going to the cafeteria to get ice cream, my favorite the little strawberry flavored things on a stick, I'll have to look up what the hell they're called, man, I still eat those too. lol I also got to have those little single serving ice cream cups, looking back, these people really loved to sugar me up.
i also loved playing outside on their Swing/play set they had in the middle of this filed, I didn't care that it was just the two of us and they never ran around.
I don't remember any interest in about what they wanted to talk about I just had tons of energy. My mom just stood around watching, she never got involved, she never offered her 2 cents, she never tried to help, I always felt like she was there to judge and I still feel like that's all she does. lol
November
I don't remember when they started using the closet as punishment, but I felt like once my grandfather had passed away, I didn't have much protection at that school, none of the adults cared what happened to any of the kids, and as long as you accused someone of doing something, Everyone assumed they were guilty. lol
There were exceptions, I remember an older colored woman. lol I feel weird saying that, she was black and Mrs Cope was absolutely an Angel in disguise, (I run into her again 2003 while living with Jamie and I introduce her to my son.)
Anyway, She was always very kind and very patient, She was nothing like the other teachers or nuns.
Looking back I feel like Mrs Cope was one of those people that didn't tell you how to behave, She led by example, she showed you how to be a better person, She didn't say "do as I say, not as I do", like the other crabby ass adults. lol
December
This is the year that I learned that Santa wasn't real, and I believed it, at some point we started sneaking into our parents closet opening gifts, taking a little peek ahead of time, then closong them back up. lol I'm sure I led the way, but my brother was a follower.
I also remember that they a talent show, one kid Matt played a guitar (but for some reason I remember it didn't make noise, it was an electric guitar, but with no strings or wasn't hooked up to anything.
I don't remember why, but I didn't participate.
I would've had too much anxiety to do anything like that at the time anyway, but I remember being impressed and thinking it looked super cool. lol
The Closet
Locked in that closet, wished I could leave this world.
I used to sneak all kinds of stuff in there with me I was never bored, i felt like my imagination was on fire.
I brought GJ Joe figures in there and used the sring they had as methods for them to travel and explore different shevles, I didn't have jet packs for them all, so I needed to get creative. lol
I love read comics and a new series teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Adventures comics, I loved those, I carried them everywhere. I thought the artowkr was beautiful and loves the figures as well.
I also used to bring my walkman and listen to music all the time, I made mix tapes with all of my favorite songs at the time.
GI Joe movie theme song,
The Transformers theme song and songs from Movie Soundtrack
The Neverending Story sound track
Rick Astley- Together Forever, She wants to Dance with Me.
Michael Jackson- Man in the Mirror, The Way You Make Me Feel
Glory of Love- Peter Cetera
Whitney Houston- I wanna Dance with Somebody (Who Loves Me)
Belinda Carlislie- Heaven is a place on Earth
Beach Boys- Kokomo
DeF Leopard- Pour Some Sugar on Me
Fat Boys & Chubby Checker- The Twist
Erasure- Chains of Love
Jefferson Starship- We built this City
Genesis- Land of Confusion
Steve WOnwood- High Love
Cyndi Lauper- True Colors
Prince- Raspberry Beret
I was bored out of my mind while in that closet, I picked through everything and one time I got the bright idea to glue all the pages of their books together. lol
They stored all the extra books and supplies in that closet, along gallons of Elmer's glue, and just happened to be bored and had a lot of free time, so I decided to turn them all into bricks. lol No one ever punished me for it, I'm not sure anyone understood what had happened. lol
I remember feeling like a piece of shit, the teacher's husband was some sort of law enforcement officer, and he would act like an authority figure, he'd come into, then give me shit about not being able to sit still or about asking too many questions.
The book in the picture below is from Labyrinth, I loved that movie and I loved this book and I used to bring it into the closet all the time and I even did book report on it
On so many different occassion, I wished that a portal would open up in the wall and allow me to enter another world, so I wouldn't be trapped in that stupid fucking closet anymore. lol
🔒 Fifth Grade – Locked in the Closet
🧠 5th Grade Closet Memory – Catholic School | Grandpa Stebbins Connection
Your grandfather (David Stebbins) worked as a janitor at the Catholic school you attended.
You used to get in trouble on purpose so you’d be sent to him.
He let you help set up for Bingo and being around him made you feel safer.
You said:
“Whenever he was around, I would get treated better.”
“When I got to 5th grade, the teacher was very nasty towards me.”
“She started putting me in the closet and I was forced to sit there alone all day and all week.”All part 3
🚪Life in the Closet – Your Tools of Survival
🧃🍬 Fueling the Fire (Unintentionally)
They gave you Pop Tarts and Carnation Instant Breakfast during the day
You also used change to buy candy from stores on your way to school
All of it spiked your sugar and made it harder to sit still—feeding into their punishment cycle
You now see it clearly:
“It was a recipe for disaster for a kid like me.”Blog 10
🧍♂️ What You Learned—and Refused to Forget
2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009,
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