2002
june 16 uncle norman died
I was working at the Howard Johnson Hotel at this time
I recall I started feeling sick again in April , my wife at the time had moved out April or mayand I was fighting the courts to also try to see my daughter who was born in 1997, her mother and I were never married, then she offered me a chance to stop fighting because she saw how the physical effects of dealing with the courts were taking their toll on me and she actually showed mercy. Regardless of any issues we ever had, she showed me more compassion than the courts ever did.
I threatened to kill myself in front of Judge Lions at one point she was fired for her disgusting behavior towards citizens i'm not even sure how she lasted as long as she did. well I guess I am sure because I know how the system works
I feel like a scumbag father for agreeing to give up fighting for visitation in exchange to stop paying a few dollars in child support a week. When I'm sick like that I don't think straight, and in May 2002 MM told me that "you know the state will never stop, they'll never help you, they're just going to keep jerking you around forever." Then she told me "You deserve a break" and in my weakened mental state I agreed with her. Anyone that knows me knows I'm a real pain in the rear end when I'm feeling healthy.
So looking back I just feel like a complete loser for doing that, for giving up when I felt like I was winning. Like I was getting close to not just getting visitation, I was confident I could get joint custody of one of my kids and custody of the other.
I broke up from with my first wife for a short time around this time period. when she came back, she got pregnant right away.
Before Christmas I was laid off from the Howard Johnson Hotel. The manager was having trouble with someone that lived there and thought that I had helped that person hide AVHS Cassette of her son who happened to be the janitor and that person having a fight in the office. No idea where that tape went or what their fight was about.
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