2005
February 25
I was such a disaster at the time I allowed my ex-wife to convince me to sign my rights away to my son and allow our friend her future ex husband to adopt my son. She told me how strong he was and how much he loves my son and wishes he was his own and that their best friends and that my son already calls him dad and doesn't remember me. I remember thinking my son deserves the best and I will complete mess and she's right. Looking back I feel like a complete idiot, but what do you do when you're a complete disaster and you're sick. I really wish I had somebody there to prevent me from making all these terrible mistakes on my own, someone to talk to try to sort things out, someone to do some blood work lol 2005 was the last time I hung-out with my son. I let all my friends down my family down, that was the last time I saw Chuck for over a decade, and it's a shame how friendships fall apart when someone gets sick and people don't understand what's going on.
May 9th the 12th I was in Baystate ICU and from May 13th to 27th I was in Baystate Psych Ward
June: Once I got off all the psych meds that the doctors had put me on I felt so much healthier even though I didn't feel great it was still a real struggle. Plus I felt stupid because no one wanted to talk about what had happened every one just wanted to ignore it. And said I looked great and I was doing fine and that was enough.
July 13th our divorce was finalized
August 20th this picture was taken at the salty dog that used to have a webcam in there so you could see your buddies and then you could check yourself days later
Went to visit uncle Chet in Texas for the first time in October? met that crazy lady who fell out of the window said she broke her hip
2005 Aditus-Ashley farm This is where I met Suzanne, I got the job from a neighbor butcher across the street and then he got fired.
2005 Pearl E Barnard died 11-6 Born Pearl Gero 10-24-1919 never met husband Emerson, two sons joe Barnard and his daughter Billy-Joe Barnard and Emerson.
Went to that dive bar and I'll save both forks with uncle Chet and Kathy and she got drunk and lost her cell phone and we had to go back and get it the next morning and those are the pictures that I have from the camp
November 29 Max
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💊 Medications Taken: [Name, dosage if remembered]
🧠 Reported Symptoms: [e.g., anxiety, dissociation, suicidal thoughts, insomnia]
🎭 Emotional Effects: [e.g., numb, agitated, foggy, helpless, felt worse after]
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⚠️ System Involvement: [Court-ordered? Insurance-driven? ER follow-up?]
🔖 Tags: #overmedicated #ignored #wrongdiagnosis #chemicalfog
Medications for the year.
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