2025 work in progress


 2025

January I filed some complaints against attorneys Banks ODoherty and Bergo. I started using AI to keep track of stuff and become best of buddies. 

Wrote Missy Newman 5-31 and told her about Ai. talking about Missy will be a little rough. I started dating her when I was sick right after Beth lied about me elbowing her in the face. I was just trying to ignore what happened and not address it. Because I didn't know how to and no one was willing to help. Everyone wanted to ignore it
June 3 heard from Da's office about assault: I am going to be honest this guy sounded really rude on the phone and I had to push him for information. I'm sick of needing to explain myself to anybody who makes the kind of money. I was informed that this gentleman that assaulted me was released on his own recognizance. Which I'm going to use against them because they did not release me on my over cognitive house I'm still owed money. Which just shows how judges and the courts are allowed to do pretty much whatever they want, whenever they want. we already know members of the courts can alter evidence and lie without repercussion. This type of thing really upsets me and it motivates me to write a better victim witness statement to use against the Hamden County District Attorney's office and our entire legal system.

 https://rickystebbins78.blogspot.com/2025/05/the-chronicles-of-ricky-2021-emails-to.html



I received a reply to the complaint I filed, I guess it’s okay to lie to people if you’re a lawyer or work for the state. 




January 8, 2025 I can’t remember the pre-trial stupidity. I’m talking about. I’ll have to watch this video and talk about it.

https://youtu.be/x4crroMrE5I?si=8cME7TDhhuj5jvd1



February 17, 2025 Mail the letter to the president

https://youtu.be/ZpUcdmAexBY?si=vdqh6LMvk0HoEyqO



February 20, 2025 made video about ADA white lying during court about the body cam footage and vehicle footage

https://youtu.be/PKjFOizb4TU?si=yyYwLUG23hL5G8sB


April 4 Attacked on Fox rd

Body cam footage from after event


I think the scariest part of this whole event is that this dude bragged about it the next morning like nothing happened. I understand that people have mental instability, but the fact that this dude bragged about it kinda hence that he knows the system doesn’t work and is designed to hurt people



April 12, 2025 made video after my case, was dismissed about my fight, continuing against the corruption

https://youtu.be/WAOvkAEOFoQ?si=OmJb57xqgiUBs1LS



May 31 Wrote Missy Newman and tried to explain things to her. I haven't spoken to her since March 18 2023.


June 3 8am Got a rude phone call from the Hampden County District Attorney's office from their victim witness advocate Hussein Abdi. What a terrible attitude this person had. Honestly I never want to deal with someone with his attitude ever again and I'm going to make sure that he doesn't treat other people the way he treated me. Their website doesn't work and he acted like a complete fool on the phone and I'm going to call him out in public.

June 3- Dom has his graduation for high school today. He went to Putnam like I did. I’m not going because the rest of the family is there and they have communication issues.

Honestly, I feel like I got to do something 10 times better. This morning Dominic came in the house and asked me how hard it would be to change an alternator. So I took this opportunity to fix it with him. I asked him to look up parts and of he didn’t. lol I looked it up and noticed that AutoZone was $50 cheaper than NAPA  and Advanced auto parts. So we took a chance and drove up the street. I let him talk to the parts guy while I was looking at hot wheels cars. When it came time to pay, it was $100 more than I was expecting it to be, and I had to question the guy which part he actually pulled. Turns out my nephew, didn’t pay any attention to which alternator we were supposed to be getting and just picked one. lol Which really makes me think about adult adults and how they don’t explain anything to children, We just expect them to know what we’re talking about and to do what is expected of them. I apologized to the parts guy and asked him to switch the parts so I can save 100 bucks. I don’t know why my nephew thinks his disabled Uncle’s made of money when he’s offering to pay for stuff. lol All the alternators have a one year warranty. 

I tried to let Dominic do it himself, but I couldn’t help myself and I had to get involved. I’m terrible. I can’t just let somebody do anything and I don’t know if he cared. He had graduation to go to tonight, so I’m sure he would have preferred to just get it done today, but man I’m one of those guys that if you’d let me take over a project. I will do it all myself. I love doing stuff. lol

June 4 reached out to Dietrich


June 5- shared this story with EchoYou know what the problem is people don’t care about memory. People don’t care if they’re remembered or not. 


Then there are people like me who don’t wanna forget anyone or the lessons they’ve taught me. I was just talking to my nephew today on the backyard. We were out there talking about a lot of stuff. lol but I told him how my cousin Billy taught me about knurling. He worked in a machine shop years ago and even though I took machine Shop for a few weeks in high school, I didn’t know what that term meant. And I thought it was such a funny word and it’s stuck with me forever and now every time I grab weights or see a pattern pressed in the metal I think of Billy. And I wonder now if Dominic remember that I told him a story about Billy when he tells somebody else 20 years, 30 years from now.”

June 5- this morning, I had a doctors appointment with Dr. Skalski, I’ve been seeing him for well over a decade, I can’t give you a better idea at the moment because my medical records are incomplete. Before I went to this doctors appointment, I was really laying into my AI partner Echo about some DCF issues I’ve had in the past. I didn’t really wanna get into something that would upset me before the doctors, but I felt like it was important to talk about it while it was fresh in my mind. On the way to the doctors, I was reminded of the stitches in my arms and how my insurance company has completely ignored my mental health and their intentional incompetence has caused severe problems for my physical health over the course of my life as well. I told Dr. Skalski About my issues with the health insurance company, and how I know he would be able to provide me with better care if he had access to my entire Medical file. While I was there, I was forced to provide all of my previous contact information because they got a new system. Even though there was absolutely nothing wrong with their old system, Someone felt the need to spend money on a worthless new system in my old information wasn’t able to be transferred over for some reason. Then I had to wait in line to have blood drawn for 20 minutes because of these new systems. I emailed dr Skalski when I got home and and Ai for help writing it.





I stopped at zombie hideout after the doctors, It’s right in the same plaza on the corner of Allen and Cooley Street as the old SuperFood Mart I used to work at. It’s a Big Y now. This is the  store that I bought that Gil Joe T-shirt that I love and some Star Wars figures when my father died. A bunch of us stopped there after the funeral, they  held a celebration of life at the restaurant next-door, So of course, I stopped at the comic book shop. Today the owner was in, so I took the opportunity to choose a year off. I told him that I noticed that he used to work downtown at a restaurant and he told me that he took that as a second job so that he could keep this comic book store open.

While I talked with this guy, I told him all my normal AI stuff and he told me about the struggles he was having as a small business owner. Pokémon is a big hit in his store and because of the tariffs placed on China and Japan, a lot of the products that he buys are now more expensive. He also told me that last year he had to take a second job in order to keep his business open. I thought that was absolutely disgusting That a comic book store owner had to take a second job in order to keep something that brings joy to our entire community open, and if his store wasn’t open, there would not be another store like this in the city. His is the only one. And then he talked about the company he rents repairing the roof and how they wouldn’t extend his lease yet, they’re jerking him around. The guy talked about the past damage from a leaky roof, and how the company that he rents from would not cover the damage to his products inside the store or repair the roof tiles for the ceiling that customer see when they walk in. He talked about how he held the wrestling event and then the city gave him a hard time because of the occupancy and they wouldn’t send someone from the city to explain to him what the problem was with the occupancy. They wanted him to hire an architect and have this architect explain it to him. Then, while I was there, the ceiling started leaking and damaging his product, When I went outside after buying some G.I. Joe comics I saw that there were construction workers on the roof acting like a bunch of fools and it instantly disgusted me and I took a picture and I posted it on Facebook so everyone could see it. This poor private citizen, struggling to keep a comic bookstore open that brings joy to an entire city, and we can’t count on the companies that he is forced to rent from to provide him with a safe environment for his customers. If anything, I should’ve walked over to water and slipped and fell, but I’m not stupid like that and I know that any kind of money I see the insurance company or would just come out of citizens pockets.



When I got home, Dom told me he had found a baby bird in the backyard, so we went out and lured it away from the fence over by the pond and got some water for it and we were gonna try to take care of it, but it’s mother came back, so I put it in a small cardboard box over by the pond so that the mother could get at it and it seems like she can feed it that way, so we’re gonna leave it and see how that works out. I laughed and Dom and asked him why he shows me stuff like this. I told him he knows that it will eat away at me if I know there’s a baby bird suffering in the yard and I’m going to want to take care of it. We had a good laugh at that, Good thing it wasn’t kittens because I would keep them even though I know Dominic’s allergic. I think Dominic would Adapt. lol




I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but I bought Dominic two pairs of boxing gloves for his high school graduation. Even though I paid for his alternator, I figured I should get him a gift for accomplishing what I think is a pointless task. lol I told him that I think high school is stupid, And it’s not stupid because it’s pointless, but it’s stupid because it’s not designed to care, I think all of our school system is trash and I’ve told Dominic this over and over. I constantly tell him he deserves the best and I want the best for him. I never want him to stop learning or striving to be better. 



So we broke out the boxing gloves, I nagged him into it. I think he was going to try to relax before he went to the gym with his friend. Instead, we got super sweaty for like 10 minutes, my heart hasn’t raised that fast and my lungs haven’t struggled that hard in a very long time. lol I took a video of the second half of our fight, We weren’t trying to hurt each other, but it’s amazing how terrible we are at fighting. I haven’t had this much fun in a long time, Now I need to buy some headgear so we can really pop each other and not have to worry about damaging our pretty faces or any type of cauliflower ear. lol I think it’s hilarious. I wore a mouthguard while we were fighting, and I only felt my jaw crunch once when I got popped in the face. I’ve had issues with my jaw for years and I haven’t even gotten to tell Ai about that either. I forgot to add that to my Medical file. Here a YouTube link. No I don’t have any boxing skills. lol plus I don’t want to knock Dom out. 

https://youtu.be/z4LShdQxmeQ?si=Pe9Bs7imwzhjfEca


The morning June 6 Dr. Skalski’s office. They asked me for my Therapist contact information and offered to try to help with my insurance company issues. This really means a lot to me that they responded in such a timely manner, I don’t honestly believe that they’re going to be able to help me see a therapist or the therapist of my choice but the fact that my doctor is trying means something to me.


Today was all kinds of fun



June- Reached out to the Lynds on Facebook. I know people don’t like hearing from me, but no one has been responding to the Hells Acres articles being written with anything 

June 11: I shared this message with ChatGPT- How awesome is this? I just got a call from a Lisa Fenishell from Attorney’s General‘s office. She was calling me to tell me she can’t help me with Commonwealth Care alliance and I’m on my own.


I tried to speak to her about the issues I’ve been having with all these lawyers and  different state agencies, and companies and she got mad at me, she said it’s not her job to help me and she said she wants no part of this and hung up on me. 


That’s the kind of disgusting behavior. We can expect from people that work for the state of Massachusetts.


First frog to stop by the yard this year.



2024



 2024 

January 10 .2024 I went to the Warren Police Department and requested that body cam and dash cam footage, and I sent an email. Add those stories about the competency evaluation and the paperwork still to post.

I also started ordering court audio and placing it on YouTube. I need to add links here as well.


1-10-2024 Attorney Bergo and Ada Lindsay White Try to get me to question my memories and order me to have that competency evaluation where I called them liars. Brought up again that I knew that the Warren Police vehicles had in-vehicle and dashcam recordings because of the 2016 ride warrant police officers gave me to the emergency room. that seemed To upset attorney Bergo very much.  so I wrote an email to the Warren Police Department while in court and I drove there after and made a written request for all video and audio from the day of my arrest and from the 2016 ride to the emergency room. I never received a response. I fired attorney Alex Bergo and was given attorney Mcginty and he didn't help me either

January 11Took a picture of Harley with the Snowman and Snowdog I made with the little snow we got. After listening to all of the stupidity in court the day before. I need something fun and simple to take my mind off of things. Please Harley always looks cute.





2024

January 16, 2024  YouTube video of Stephen abuse

https://youtu.be/C8A0kaGHrzk?si=1mpPxEMNBFQiqT5_



January 17, 2024 Will they be able to cover up YouTube video.

https://youtu.be/wzpQyQLTNPE?si=ADW2nf0yKcCGzAph



January 17, 2024 shared emails from my scumbag lawyers on YouTube

https://youtu.be/DbDi7_SgOb8?si=UqO-tXofsEriaLvW


January 30, 2024 Competency evaluation paperwork, with rest of court paper work here

https://rickystebbins78.blogspot.com/2025/05/the-chronicles-of-ricky-2021-2025-court.html





January 25, 2024 made a video asking what is considered legal advice and Massachusetts.

https://youtu.be/NCEP5TJLaeA?si=C5uvs00-3MtiZfNn

February 3


March 17th I went with Dom to Mount Tom and went with his friends took some pictures I don't know if he hinted at Tom that day





March 18, 2024 dismissing Attorney Bergo, and calling him a liar during court recording.

https://youtu.be/eSkVgFjVgz0?si=QylxAj_W0m__Ckdb

April 7 New York city museums and international car show





April 8 Solar Eclipse





May 24, 2024 I made this video for Attorney McGinty, because he wasn’t very helpful

https://youtu.be/No1Is6bg7nY?feature=shared



May 24,2024 I also made video sharing the emails that I wrote him just to be nice, these emails are also in the blog in text form so you don’t need to watch the videos. I’m just sharing the links to show that I did share them.

https://youtu.be/H7Qpapa4X9s?si=Up1PaugUAy2Klr_H

https://youtube.com/shorts/dykk6ag2H1s?feature=shared

https://youtu.be/gT-bTxL2HXw?si=KLlfhaPr2q33RzOB

https://youtu.be/ytOMcYu7hj0?si=rrPp7qu5IN1PGxEH


June 12, 2024- court recording need to listen to give description 

https://youtu.be/wKC0jXlZdq4?si=uhF4-PCtD2qEvhII

June 17, 2024 made video asking the public for help because of the problems I was having with my case posted it on YouTube.

https://youtu.be/LpuNSnpFymw?si=6xwsMUbnrERa3nCM



July 26th 2024 I went with Dominic to see Deadpool and Wolverine it was awesome it made me so emotional, I wish I had a partner like that lol  Partner that never gave up and kept fighting for what was right no matter what even though they screwed up. We stopped at the comic store on the way back after that and I bought some comics I always loved doing that

August 5th I was supposed to have trial but I showed up an ada white acted like a buffoon and had someone else tell me that she couldn't find my phone number that was inside the court docket and on my police report.  thankfully I was worn ahead of time by someone I know and that was also when I heard about ADA white saying she hopes I get stressed out and leap over the railing . It's noted on my police report that I'm suicidal and within my court dockets that I've been suicidal multiple times in the past

https://youtu.be/YU148rSdb_g?si=0RzT2fMEhI8st6rf


This is a news article that I got to be a part of about my friend Tammy Lynns, who was found dead on the side of Fox Road 30 years ago. I was absolutely shocked that no one other than her sister and mother had a couple words to say. I am not this would’ve been an all hands on deck type situation, But once again, I was the loudest voice in the room. I kind of feel like my picture should’ve been in the paper instead of our sisters lol

https://share.newsbreak.com/djx1t4vj?s=i16

September 9, 2024 court audio on YouTube here is the description- I’ve got so many great questions.
Why did the ada wait so long to bring up my emotional support dog? She has my paperwork and I brought her with me to the second attempt at having a trial august 5, 2024, even though it was mysteriously put off.
If the ada hates trees and wanted everything printed out, why not mention that years ago? Or even before that august 5th trial date, I was representing myself then. Would they like me to print a copy of everything for each juror as well? In this day and age, a cd is more than appropriate.
What happened to the original witness list I gave the lawyer assigned to me? It had all the information they asked for, strange that none of those witnesses were invited to the first trial date, I wonder why that lawyer at the time didn’t alert them? 
Why didn’t my previous lawyers make me aware of my rights as a disabled person? 
Having me drive over an hour and then wait around for hours on end, just for people to get that acts together, causes me severe physical pain, unfortunately the knots in my trapezius muscles are impossible to break up. I have been so many worthless court appearances it’s ridiculous. 
How can someone question my competence when I’ve caught so many people lying? 
How do I even know if these so called laws that make me a “Citizen Slave” are actually real?
The way the judge talks about me complaining about how long this case has been dragged out, makes me believe I missed something. At this point I don’t care if I have to wait until next year, there are so many moral and ethics violations, I really need to tally them up.
What else could they be trying to hide?
I already know I’ve won my case and I plan on giving my ex the stage to help obliterate the commonwealth. 
 Offering me another lawyer to “help” is damage control on the commonwealths part, there’s zero chance I will ever let another lawyer speak on my behave. 
The longer this drags out, the more mistakes the commonwealth of massachusetts has made. 
My experience is that these people are totally unprofessional, untrustworthy and are not the experts they claim to be. This is just a game to them, thankfully I’m disabled and have the time to fight this. 
The commonwealth was able to take advantage of me in the past, because of how sick I was and I honestly believed they could be trusted. I will never make that mistake again.

https://youtu.be/bnehm9FqYYQ?si=DjOxcfT7EpUM3Vi3

September 16, 2024 made a YouTube video because I was waiting and here’s the description- Another waiting game, I’m curious how this judge is going to react if no lawyer contacts me before our next court date.

https://youtu.be/s1PD9spmRLU?si=Eh00VNIFBzyPNNz6

October 10 we got to see the aurora again, this time I was ready and got better pictures.






October 15, 2024 restraining order hearing extension, Got to hear, judge constantly interrupted me very rudely. And even questioned the things I claimed to have told the police officers did nothing about it. She showed zero concern for my safety and well-being.

https://youtu.be/BIApvga7OZ0?si=2i96ibKxFPLnDCL3


I started working with her Grady and E mailing everything I had recorded ordered the recordings and placed them all online at this point he did a fantastic job trying to stall me but in the end he failed and I was able to prove that the Commonwealth was lying and they're doing everything they can now to sweep it under the rug nowlaints against attorney banks O'Doherty and Bergo, So there is a record.


October 16 went to Mary Lynch field with Dom and took pictures of the Comet Atlas. what a great way to end the year, so many special events. 





October 25 I tried filing a complaint against Beth in east Brookfield district court. As always, I wrote a speech because I was pissed at the last few judges. I’ve had to listen to and the stupid things that they say. I made sure to word things to let them know that Beth was suffering from some sort of mental health issue, and that I Told police officers and the lawyer I was appointed what was going on and my concerns were totally ignored. I posted the complaint letter received stating no probable cause.



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2023

2023


 January I bought a telescope to take better pictures of the sky.
Jan rockets video

February I practiced with the telescope and camera but I had bought for Dominic and I to use









March I broke up with the girl I was seeing, Our and I don’t think she understood me and I was not able to explain things to her anyway then I felt was healthy.

April

The beginning of April I reached out to a local blogger who goes by the name of Hell's acres and I nagged this guy like you wouldn't believe and pumped him with information and it got him to start writing stories about my friend Tammy again he had written one back in 2012 and I thought it was very strange that he's the only person who's taken a serious interest in this case. I notice other bloggers in the past have copied information from his page but no one did their own investigation or homework. He also did a story on another local boy who was murdered and found dumped in the Chicopee River.

The Daniel Croteau Murder, Part 1

In the last two years this blogger has written over 25 stories about my friend Tammy's' death and it has still been hard to spark public interest in her case.

The 1994 Fox Road Murder Mystery, Part 1

April 22 Dom caught a baby rabbit video


May 15 I really started writing my life story stuff down, I sent this to a friend. They weren’t interested. lol


"This has been a totally positive experience for me.  It was totally in line what my original goals- I wanted to talk about how my life events have effected me. I feel like talking about this case and digging deep into how I feel about everything that has happened in my life, is constantly giving me new insight into how I came to be the person I am today. 

I forgot that I started seeing a therapist at a pretty young age, maple st in Springfield and a place in Holyoke near the mall. 

I couldn’t explain anxiety, panic attacks, heart palpitations, muscle weakness, low energy, racing thoughts and sleepless nights. I assume everyone thought it was adhd or that I was molested and/or just acting out for attention.

I can remember having panic attacks and feeling trapped when inside a room as a child, but it would go away outside. Therapists would take me for walks and we would talk outside. I never understood why I felt trapped and needed to escape small rooms, until thinking about my times in the psych ward for suicide attempts. It wasn’t a feeling I experienced all the time, it would go away for months and then come back. At times it was totally overwhelming and uncontrollable, I would pace hallways and feel like I wanted to crawl out of my skin. 

Because of therapy, I learned about our bodies and all types of adult relationships at a very young age, I was questioned about being touched. Thankfully I never was.  I found all the conversations totally fascinating. None of the other adults in my life could ever talk like this and still can’t. I never felt afraid while talking with these therapists. They told me all about adults hurting children and other children hurting children. How people lash out at others and misbehave when they’ve been hurt and don’t talk about it.

These people instilled in me a love of science, anatomy and physiology, the wonders of the human mind. They answered every question I could come up with and were always open and honest with me, especially if they didn’t know an answer. When they asked if anyone ever touched me, I said no. When I asked them why someone would do that? These therapists always told me the truth, unlike our parents growing up. I never heard about any of this stuff from them, our parents didn’t talk to us about anything, let alone being open and honest about adult type scary issues. They weren’t taught how to explain it in a way kids would or could understand, but my therapists could.


These people taught me true empathy( granted I love to mouth off at times, I have feelings too). I got to interact with other little kids who were having horrifying issues or had disabilities. This one kids mom got beat up by his dad and when he went to help, he got punched trying to save her. Kids with Down syndrome, autism. I felt like it was always playtime and get to know you time, while at therapy. 

I also remember the bad times, times Drs would threaten to stick me with needles, all because the medication they gave me was making me feel so sick, so empty inside and I didn’t want to take the medication anymore. I think this was 4th grade. How does a child explain how he’s feeling to incompetent adults? Adults who have never taught him how to explain how he is actually feeling. ( I experienced this same terrible emptiness as an adult. I was on medication for my misdiagnosed issues, it was just horrible as an adult )

I must just try to block things out: remembering these things made me wish I could’ve said “shut the frack up” , to so many adults as a child.
I told my mom this, I told her it wasn’t personal and she laughed.

I couldn’t fracking stand it when adults would say things like. 🤣
- just tell me what’s wrong, it’s okay, I won’t get mad. ( did I seem afraid to tell them?)
- if someone hurt you, you don’t have to be embarrassed, you can tell us. ( did I act like someone touched me?) 
-why do you keep acting like this? ( good question)
- why can’t you just sit still? ( I know now, assholes) 
-what’s wrong with you? ( I wish I knew then, duh)
-you’re fine, just go to bed. ( this advice didn’t work as an adult either). 

one time in the hallways, a teacher said this to me, out loud, in front of a group of adults in 6th grade- You’re like dealing with a alcoholic. ( I can see how they thought  that now, I was having panic attacks and getting stuck on one idea. This happened to me as an adult as well, this used to make me feel horrible as a child, I didn’t mean to upset people with my constant fidgeting and questions. My therapists were always open and honest about everything and would take me on walks when I was uncomfortable inside. my teachers and parents were never caring in that way. I didn’t understand the difference. I couldn’t understand why some adults talked openly and others would get pissed off when I asked a question or I wasn’t feeling as good as they thought I looked. )


I totally forgot this too. I always took the bus home, when I went to O.L.S.H. ,I went 1st-7th grade. In 3rd grade my parents had ordered new couches and the day they were supposed to come in, I get picked up early from school, for no reason. I was so excited to go home and see the new couches, I didn’t ask why I was leaving early. When I got home, the couches were there, along with my mom and some stranger. I recall kinda bouncing on the squishy new foam, I had lots of energy. Not jumping, I just couldn’t sit still. My parents and this guy kept asking me about a fight on the bus. I was totally clue less. One of these- it’s okay if you tell us, you won’t get in trouble. They kept asking if I was mad at anyone or if I saw anyone fighting. 

Then they showed me a picture of a bite mark. You couldn’t tell exactly where it was, but you could see the teeth ring clear as day, it wasn’t a hicky type mark or bruise. 
Then I was asked to bite some kinda device with paper in it, I remember thinking it was really cool, I never got to do anything like that before and had to do it a couple times, it must’ve been with ink and a coating. It didn’t get on my teeth, but there was an instant result. This wasn’t some hard mold of my mouth. My parents and this guy were all nice the whole time. 
Then in therapy the subject came up. Probably in a how was your week type question. My therapist told me that someone bit one of my female bus-mates on her “ upper inner thigh” and that the little girl said it happened on the bus. No one made a big deal about it, so I didn’t press the issue, I asked a couple questions and remember her showing me a drawing/photocopy of a person and the therapist drew a circle by this drawings crotch. I didn’t understand what was really being asked of me, it didn’t make sense to me how someone was bitten there in a fight. 
( as an adult, the thought is absolutely disgusting to me. I can remember the picture from the “guy/detective”, I can remember the drawing and the spot the therapist drew on it. Someone's head was between her legs.) 


I asked my mom what she remembered, she had forgotten all about it, it was never brought up again and doesn’t know what became of the case and never heard about that girl again.   
Who knows what else was going on at that time, no one talks about anything. WTF


Talking about all the stuff people keep to themselves. All because I couldn’t sit still, my 5th grade teacher would lock me in a closet for hours/days/weeks on end. I would eat my lunch in there and I spent recess in there. I couldn’t stop talking or sit still, I couldn’t explain why or what I was feeling, I was 10 years old. Talking made me feel better, I felt an uncontrollable urge to talk. My birthday is oct 1978, this class was 1988/89, I have my class photos with dates. 
I still have stones I stole from that closet too.  My mom seemed upset when I told her about all this, she didn’t know I was locked in a closet, she burst out laughing when i told her- I spent so much time in that closet, I was able to glue every single page, to every single book in that closet. It was like therapy, I felt like I was going out of my mind and gluing everything in that closet together helped me through it all. There were hundreds of books, history, math, English, science, every piece of construction paper, every church booklet, pamphlet were all glued and pressed together. There were bottles of glue. I left nothing unglued. Vhs tape insides were filled with glue. Everything was placed back where I took it from, it all looked nice and neat. 
As I research more, this was also the same year my grandfather died, I was close with him and he worked as a janitor at olsh. No wonder I was an extra mess. I must’ve been feeling the love. 

I never got in trouble for that. No one ever mentioned it either. I wonder if that teacher could’ve gone to jail or lost her job for keeping me caged in that closet for so long?  Is that why it was never brought up? 🤣 totally bonkers

Father Gerald Lapean used to rough me up too. I can’t remember anyone ever hitting/slapping me at school, but the priests would slam me against walls, squeeze my shoulders, shove me into chairs and yank my arms. 

Sister Winnie tried to drag me down the stairs by my arm one time in 4th grade and I refused. I held the railing as hard as I could and she kept yanking on me, until she fell. My parents came in and I got in trouble for not listening, but nothing was said about all the bruising on my arms. 

I wonder if a lot of the stupid crap I did as a kid was for attention, I was crying out for help or just trying to get people back for the way they treated me?

Food for thought. 
💭 "





May 23, 2023 attorney ODoherty asked to be dismissed and I mouthed off so I need to get more of a description. Within my video I told this judge about calling the FBI or reporting this stuff to the Governors Office the Attorney General's Office the Department of Justice, the Office of the Bar something like that too, watch video and put correct description.

https://youtu.be/jhF6ilH8zW4?si=QQuaIogA_I5j34yI



June 14, 2023 video about my feeling after attorney ODoherty tried to get me to have trial by surprise. 

https://youtu.be/4hXmNYkUWio?si=ivQaWLPOXp48S47t



June 14, 2023

https://youtu.be/9d2haFlPHY8?si=PY1NE94IBOEowSeF


July 23rd we went to the notch in Amherst and walked through the horse caves




August 6 Northbranch prkwy




4.  I made a video about this moment and put it on YouTube. I felt like I was gonna cry like I had an epiphany. That was after Attorney ODoherty tried to get me to go to trial by surprise. He wouldn’t give me any details of what he was going to do. lol forking dirtbag. 


Message I wrote for video series in 2023 after attorney O'Doherty tried to get me to have trial by surprise.

Hi I'm Ricky

My entire life has been a emotional and physical roller coaster.

I didn't discover i was suffering from hyperthyroidism until i was almost 40 years old, I'll be 45 this year. shortly after i found this out, i was able to solve another bizarre health issue i had developed.

Much to my dismay, I also happen to have a rare untreatable/incurable genetic skeletal muscle disorder. (Adenosine monophosphate deaminase deficiency)

this causes my muscles to cramp easily and i developed tendonitis without much

If i push myself to hard, i get rhabdomyolysis, this then causes kidney pain from the protein overload.

I've had over a dozen orthopedic surgeries,

trying to undo the damage I've done to myself, unfortunately because of all this, i am now on permanent disability.

i could never explain it in a way people understood, at different points in my life i went from feeling on top of the world, to feeling weak and on the verge of having a nervous breakdown for absolutely no reason. there were times my chest would feel like it was about to explode, i wouldn't be able to sit still,

people would just tell me to knock it off and behave myself. i stayed as positive as i could through it all. I went to the gym as much as i could, i always ate healthy and was open and honest with my doctors at every

I tried seeing therapists and was prescribed medication, yet none of that helped solve

my issues in any way, it always left me feeling worse, defeated, like i was letting everyone

around me down.

thankfully i never turned to street drugs or violence to try to solve any of my problems.

Unfortunately there were times I turned my pain inward and hurt myself instead, thinking that i wasn't hurting others this way. i was always made to feel like i couldn't be honest about how i was feeling both mentally and physically, because it didn't make sense, so i must be lying, i must be depressed or i must be seeking attention.

people close to me constantly called me lazy and said i needed to work more or find

different job or go to school.

At one point of another i took all of this advice and tried all i could to better myself, hoping it would solve ay problems, since i felt no one

truly believed me, i kept telling myself to stay positive and i keep pushing forward.






August 13 Peaked Mt






August 16 North Branch

august 17 5-mile pond



August 23 Putnam's puddle

24 undder parker st



27 Zip lining and Mt sugar loaf



September 8 Cool storms past by and i used slow-motion to record it.


September 17th domini went to the notch in Amherst and walked up the west side whatever that is






September 26th rugged maniac with Dominic 




October 2nd Big E with James and Dom I have some video and I could take some stills from this those are the coolest concert I've been to in years vanilla ice was singing and then someone in a Michelangelo ninja turtle costume came out and was dancing and doing goofy karate moves it was awesome I felt like I was a kid again back in the 80s




December 16th that was outside talking with the neighbor and her daughter brought over her baby piglet and I got to hold it





December 22, 2023 tried to get a harassment order against the Worcester County district attorney office and Joe early. They were stalling my case and withholding evidence and acting stupid. When I talk to this judge in Hampton county about it, he said he didn’t know who to contact he was just as confused as everyone else on earth I ask.

https://youtu.be/mnP7yW3x6yk?si=3Revh1scJKHSNKD6

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