2021
This year started out fantastic, so I never would have guessed that it would end on such a sour note
February 14 Pulpit Rock Pond ice fishing
3-1 Had left shoulder surgery with Dr Luber, I was playing video games at this time and that was the worst mistake I could have ever made being lazy I should have moved way more because my shoulder bothered me for a long time after this event
March 10
Moore State Park
May 26
There was a Lightning storm in West Warren, so i set my camera up and took some slow motion video. I still love doing this, when I get the chance, I haven't been as lucky since moving to Springfield. lol
youtube link
June
06-08
$100 FPV plane, I was so excited to learn to fly this thing, and I only end up flying it once.
I took a picture and left this bine on the stairs for months. lol I thought it looked so cool, though I never figured out what it was. I found what looked like the top part of a cat stuff and that sat on my dads back steps for the longest time as well. lol
06-11
06-24
July
Things were starting to get a little stressful around the apartment at this point. We had the blinds on the porch, S we could smoke and not have to interact with others.
Sue's son and family came to stay a couple weeks next door and needless to say, that didn't go well.
It was doomed from the start, Beth and I had taken the dogs to Hope St. and Sue, my dad, Adam, Kim and their kids were all in the gazebo next to the garage when we arrived.
I took Harley and Scrappy by their leashes and walked to our back door like we always did, but this time someone had piled chairs in front of the steps, so they we blocked, Beth was carrying something else right behind us. T
The next thing I know, Adam's two big dogs come barreling towards us barking and I went to yank Harley in the air, for whatever reason I wasn't as concerned for Scrappy. lol Poor dog, anyway, I yanked on Harley's leash to lift her up and something snapped, I had the leash and Harley was on the ground. Thank God the dogs stopped when I shouted. It turns out Beth accidently attached her leash to her rabies ring, not her harness.
right after this I bought a totally different harness, I was paranoid something was going to snatch her and I wasn't going to be able to yank her in the air in time.
Perception is 9/10 reality so it doesn't really matter what other people think, it only matters what you believe in a moment and unfortunately I was sick, I felt like that whole situation was absolutely terrible, I thought Harley was going to die. I wasn't happy at all. lol
Shortly after Sue's son Adam arrived, I tried to talk to him in the basement, unfortunately he wasn't interested in talking about what was going on, it was pretty weird having them workout in the basement, but never talking to them. lol Shortly after that I put in a doggy door, so we wouldn't have to smell the cat pee smell, lol For some reason, their cat Ivan never cleaned his litter box, so it was always overflowing, unless they went on vacation, then I would clean it.
I really wonder if I could have figured things out sooner, if someone would have sat down and talked with me, instead of everyone always ignoring all the problems that were going on around us.
I think the most depressing part at the time was thinking he was a bright guy, he works for NASA, I thought he would have tried to figure out every single problem that was placed in front of him. lol
Especially if someone has a problem with your mother. Wouldn't you like to understand what was going on? Unless he already knew she's a pain in the neck and didn't want to talk it? lol
July: Sue's son Adam and his family came to visit and the first night they arrived sue had piled up chairs in front of my door so we couldn't get into our apartment and then one of her son's dogs barreled towards us and because Beth had attached Harley's the wrong way, it snapped off when I tried to pull her away from the large dogs barreling towards us and she could have been crushed. I was sick at the time so I felt like the situation was far worse than it might have been. Perception is 9/10 reality so it doesn't really matter what other people think, it only matters what you think in that moment and unfortunately I was sick and I felt like that whole situation was terrible I thought Harley was going to die. Beth kept thinking that I was upset with her, but I was just obsessing and over thinking.
07-01
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August
August took Stephen for his one and only family visit to my brother's house and we did stop by our apartment in Warren, I thought it was a great time and Stephan seemed to love it but days later my brother gave me grief about it. He was upset because a nonverbal autistic young man didn't do anything and just sat there at his party, like he was supposed to do something. I was proud of my accomplishment because no one else had ever tried to do anything with Beth's son or take her son anywhere and I was the first person to make a family party possible And then my own brother gave me crap about it and tried to treat me like I was stupid and I shouldn't be helping disabled people, he acted like disabled people weren't worth it.
08-10
August 21 Dom's birthday party last party with Dad.
Youtube link
Grandma Stebbins, Born Elizabeth Picard died the 24th. My dad and I weren’t really talking at this time, I feel like a piece of shit looking back. I don’t know who, but someone had mentioned that I was too injured to be a pallbearer at her funeral and I was all butt hurt about it. lol
What a shitty time in my life emotionally, I was a train wreck and didn’t even realize it.
Needless to say, I was very upset that I couldn’t be a pallbearer and that someone had already taken my place, even though I wasn’t really close with her, I felt like someone had robbed me of my opportunity to do something that I thought was supposed to be important. Looking back it’s obviously a ridiculous notion and I should’ve just been happy, happy to support my family in anyway not upset that I couldn’t carrying a casket for a woman that I wasn’t even close to. lol Who knows maybe there were someone that really wanted to do it.
There was a service the 27th I went to Sampson’s funeral home to pay my respects, but I avoided him while I was there.
I remember I was hesitant about going in, so I was towards the south, looking north, when you walk in the building, they place caskets to the left or right, this time was left and there’s a wall, so you can avoid people walking around
I was talking with my cousin Joey and I took my opportunity to go up and say a little prayer for my grandmother when my dad walked away to use the bathroom or smoke, then made a quick exit.
I feel so stupid looking back, after the funeral, my dad had asked if I had went, Since you didn’t see me, and I told them that I saw him when he was going to the bathroom, like it was no big deal that I didn’t wait around for five fucking minutes, to say something to my father after his mother had just passed away.
This is one of those moments where you really realize how terrible the communication in your family is, A moment where I couldn’t even talk to my father about his mother, someone that he loved, my grandmother, someone I should’ve loved more and had more happy memories with, but I didn’t, and this is one of the reasons why I’m writing all of this, so hopefully other kids don’t experience what I did and have a brighter future .
September
. Beginning of September Beth and I went over to Stephen's house in Southbridge and I was setting up a new Bureau for him when a program director came to the house and asked to speak with us. The director came upstairs while I was putting the dresser together and told Two staff members to take Stefan for a walk, even though they didn't have enough staff at the time and they hadn't hired any new staff and I remember this drove me absolutely bonkers, because I was sick. I kept asking how are you going to have two staff take him for a walk when there are only two staff in the house and there are five clients? And she told me that they were going to handle it and I told her if there's a problem that they need to call me and I will come and take Stefan for walks At least once a week and the program director said that that wouldn't be necessary, and then I would ask again have you hired any new staff and she said no And I knew that there was no staff that would be available in the next few months, so I wanted to make sure that her son got to go on outings and these people made it impossible
September 5, I had called Stephen while Beth was at work and someone had answered and left his iPad facing the ceiling and I could hear screaming and pounding down stairs but I never saw Stephen. I had to pick Beth up because we only had one car and I had dropped her off and ran some errands, so I decided to take a drive to see if her son was OK and when I pulled up and he noticed that I was walking in the video, he got up and was smiling in the video and was very happy that I came to visit him. And then when I asked staff what was going on they said that he was just sitting there, for hours, doing nothing and the staff acted like it was OK not to try interacting with him or asking if he was OK at any point during those hours. I'll have to fix all this I'm just adding it so I have the bulk of the stories
09-05
2021-09-18-Great-Grandpa-Petes-Wooden-Car
September 18
I took these pictures of the last toy I saw from my great grandpa Pete. My Dad had saved this after who knows how many years, I'm not sure if he always he it or if someone offered it to him while they were cleaning things out. But seeing it instantly reminds me of going over his house with my dad one time and how he used to set up at the OLSH bazaar and sell little items for charity. He was such a kind gentle soul, or at least that's the impression I got. He had a wood workshop in his basement in Agawam and as a child I wanted to build things so badly, I was so excited to get a peek and chewed my dad's ear off about it when I got to peek. I loved exploring peoples basement. lol
I can't recall when he passed away and I think I only went back over to see great grandma once after Samantha was born, then she passed away and they were never talked about again.
I hope to get a change to make another little vehicle for some kid one day, hopefully inspire them to make something with their own hands and give it to someone else. I love building and crafting things, but I don't really want them. I'd love to build things and let them go. lol
You can see all the toys Beth let me collect in the background. I know they're just plastic, but I still love toys, lol I love stuff, I love looking at things and rearranging things. I still love the idea of building a diorama.
I leave this car behind when I move out, I was feeling pissy, I felt like my Dad wasn't listening, I was still upset about how our phone call went after court October 14th, so I didn't want to bring something that he cared about with me, I choose to leave it behind.
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September 27 and 28- Today was the first successful and non-successful flight of my Zohd Dart 250 RC plane. The FPV plane and I haven't flown it since but there's a fun story behind this man I got it right more
First time flying my zodh dart 250g. I am using a flysky i6X and ia6b. Also the kopilot and camera setup sold together on banggood. Everything seemed fine until the motor stopped responding . I should have nosed dived it, but I thought the plane would fall to the ground. I’m not an expert pilot, so I’m sure that didn’t help. I wasn’t able to retrieve to the plane because it was 60+ feet in the air.
Man did I luck out. I went back the next day with a fishing pole and a bunch of weights and totally failed in my attempts to retrieve my plane. Just as I was about to give up and call it a loss, this older guy comes over and says wait a few minutes, I got this. He goes back to his house and comes back with the taped together makeshift poker. He then climbs 50 feet up a different tree, while holding on to this thing and was able to poke my plane free. I thought for sure he was going to fall and die. I tried talking him out of it, but he had all the confidence in the world. I tried to offer him something for saving me $200 for getting my plane back, but he was so humble and refused. There are still really nice/amazing people in the world.
https://youtu.be/6lAhGo0GFSA
https://youtu.be/kSabiZsib3U
October
2nd
I distinctly remember feeling super fucked and being with Beth in the kitchen, and then she said I was annoying her as always, preventing her from doing other things., I know she was joking, but I remember thinking that everything was going to be OK as long as I had her. lol
3rd
I went over my mother and Kathy and Dominic were putting on our pool cover, and my mom was just standing there and then all of a sudden she fell and ended up breaking her wrist. I thought it was so bizarre at the time, I was so confused, I didn't know what the hell had happened. Looking back I was way more shocked about what had happened then I think I would have been if I had been healthy at the time, but I could tell looking back that thyroid was fluctuating and that my emotional responses were not the same.
It wasn't long before this that little cousin in Texas was in an accident and broke his neck, And I remember being horrified by that and thinking all of these horrible events are happening, Beth's son is constanty being abused and neglected, it was all overwhelming. Which is totally out of character for me, normally I would feel empowered and ready to fight for people, not like this was getting to be too much.
Beth had made bacon some point on the 3rd and I was doing dishes before we we were getting ready for bed, we used this wire Can I remember Oli came up behind me had said something, I need the sink, and I remember it totally freaked me out. I remember feeling like she trying to take over the house combo that she was trying to boss me around and I didn't say anything, I was just like 0 and then I went out on the porch and had a cigarette and thought about how I was talk to Beth about what had happened.
Porch
Diningroom
Upstairs
diningroom/kitchen
10-04
On the 2nd, I wrote to Stephen's manager Cynthia at Venture, I sent her an email about all the problems we were having at the house and she was supposed to help us hold Venture accountable for all the behavior that was going on, she was keeping track of everything, I really felt like she was going to help us protect all of these innocnent disabled adults, who were being abused in those homes.
The picture below shows that Cynthis wrote me on the 4th at 10:00 AM and said that she'd been dismissed from employment of venture, I that the company knew that she was trouble and was going to cost them a lot of money in the long run, So they to get rid of her as fast as they could, but they didn't realize that they were about to get rid of me for a while as well. lol
October 4, 2021- Beth 911 audio
Date: October 4, 2021
Event: Beth’s 911 Call (Angry and Dispatch Audio)
Link: https://youtu.be/nn2X-KhZBdY?si=WnGeyBe3-UMmReUz
Notes: This is the day Beth called police
Date: October 4, 2021
Event: Beth getting restraining order.
Link: https://youtu.be/Msg5z8CFuD8?si=_3N2lyGfcXGLf6zI
Notes: this is audio from one Beth went to get the restraining order after calling police and lying about my elbowing her in the face.
October 14, 2021 restraining order audio that I posted on YouTube shows Beth lying or you can hear Beth lying saying that my father said she could have our apartment and I wasn’t allowed back to the house
https://youtu.be/iiaYXPwptbM?si=x7f1WiNlEh6x2FA4
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Here's the statement I wrote about what happened, since police deleted the body-cam and dash-cam footage. :
10-4-2021
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After leaving my apartment on October 4, 2021 I was approached by two Warren police
officers, I had been walking South on route 67 for almost 2 hours with my dog. Both officers
told me they were wearing body cameras and I was being recorded, they asked if I was
Richard Stebbins, I said yes, they asked where I was going. I told them to my mothers, my
sisters almost here. They informed me they received a phone call saying I was fighting with my
girlfriend and they asked me if I mind telling them what was going on. I told them that my
girlfriend Beth was very upset and she was arguing with herself and begging me to stay. Beth’s
autistic son was being abused and neglected in a local group home, we had been filing reports
about it, trying to protect him, yet nothing was being done and a new manager that was just
assigned to his house, who was also going to help us expose this abuse and neglect, had just
been fired that morning.
I told officers Beth was also upset about some things my family members had said, my father
told me he didn’t want me getting another car, he didn’t want the driveway looking like a
parking lot, so Beth said she was going to speak with him and stated that she was going to
buy me a car, even though we are having issues with how to access her money at the moment,
so I didn’t know what she was thinking, she just seemed angry.
I told the officers that Beth was very adamant that I get my court paperwork in order to get my
record expunged because she wanted me to become co-guardian of her son Stephen, so I
could deal with all the abuse her son was enduring, since she was totally overwhelmed by it.
I told officers I asked Beth to give me some time, since she knows I am physically disabled,
she knows I have a genetic skeletal muscle disorder and I told her my neck was hurting and I
have a migraine, I tried to get away from Beth, but she kept following me around the house and
insisting that I do what she wanted right then and there, she wanted me listen to what she had
to say, then she followed me upstairs
I told officers that Beth followed me in our middle bedroom, closed the door and held me
against my will for a half hour, preventing me from leaving, threatening to call the police if I
moved her out of the way or if tried to get by her. She kept threatening me, saying she’ll tell
police that I hit her. I told officers, that’s when I told Beth I hadn’t heard any of the other things
she said, I told her I stopped listening when she threatened to call the cops on me, that’s when
she got this crazed look in her eyes and said if I do leave, she’ll never stop and she said she
hopes I do kill myself this time. I told the police that’s when I picked my dog up and used her
as a shield so that Beth would allow me to leave the room, I told Beth to get the fuck out of my
way and that’s when finally Beth left the room and allowed me to exit.
Then I went downstairs, as I was putting my dogs harness on, Beth took that opportunity to
snatch my backpack which had my medication, my dogs medication and other personal
items, Beth was still trying to prevent me from leaving so I left without my backpack. I told
officers that Beth was hoping that these threats of a police officer hurting me and the courts
ruining my life, would force me to stay, but I told her I didn’t care, I told her I just wanted to
leave. I wanted nothing to do with her or her childish behavior, she was just acting selfish. Beth
followed behind me when I left, she really didn’t want me leaving. But I don’t think she was
prepared for the weather to be rainy, she wasn’t there when I looked back.
That’s when officers informed me that Beth claimed I accidentally elbow her in the jaw and they
were going to have to place me under arrest. I repeated to officers that I’m disabled and that
Beth said she was hoping you guys would hurt me, I told officers again that my sister was
already on her way to get us and would be here very soon. I asked officers to be gentle with
Harley, one officer said he’s a K-9 officer. I told officers I had a knife on me. I also told them I
had over a dozen joint surgeries. Officers read me my rights
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and asked if I wanted to keep talking. I said yes and I told officers I didn’t touch Beth and she
didn’t touch me.
I asked about filing charges against Beth for holding me against my will and stealing my
backpack and officers said I’d have to take it up with a lawyer. I tried pleading and mentioned
the fact that I didn’t snatch my backpack away from her, because I know she also has physical
issues, she’s always complaining about her joints and I know she would’ve been injured if I
yanked it away, officers said there’s nothing they could do about it, since she claimed I
accidentally elbowed her, they said they had to arrest me and neither officer seemed all that
interested. I asked officers multiple times how she’s allowed to get away with this behavior and
they just shrugged. Since officers said they were wearing body cameras, I felt it was important
to keep talking because of their dismissive attitudes and what happened to me in Hampden
county court.
Officers were gentle with me and my dog, while placing me in cuffs and then in the back of a
cruiser, they placed my dog on my lap until my sister arrived. They asked for my license and
asked my contact info. One officer typed things in the computer while the other stood outside
my drivers side rear door.
I told officers this wasn’t the first time Beth locked me in a room and threatened to call the
cops on me if I left, I told them that Beth tried this earlier this year because of the stress she
was going through because of the abuse her son has endured in his Massachusetts group
homes, but I stayed that time and we talked through it. I told them they can go back and ask
Sue, she’s home, I told officers I saw her in front of the sink when I left. I told officers to ask my
sister when she arrives as well, she’s heard Beth tell the story of holding me in the bedroom
dozens of times.
I told officers that Beth was pushing me to get my record expunged because she wanted me to
become her sons co-guardian, I told warren officers I have physical evidence that ada
Katherine Johnston presented a fake receipt in that malicious damage to a motor vehicle case
on my record, she lied about that driver paying for that damaged window. Springfield officers
my altered police report and someone altered the notarized statement that I gave the Hampden
county DA’s office, all to help cover up Springfield officers helping a girl get away with driving
without car insurance and denying me medical attention. I told officers that I wouldn’t have
learned about that receipt if it wasn’t for judge Hadley making facing and remarks.
I told officers that Beth knew about my past suicide attempts and was trying to stress me out,
she was hoping I’d kill myself for leaving her, I also brought up how warren police transported
me to the emergency room in 2016 for a suicide attempt after I escaped the emergency room.
This was after discovering those court documents had been altered and no one I called was
willing to help me, the anxiety caused by my “at the time” undiagnosed hyperthyroidism
caused me to become suicidal.
Officers asked if I was still suicidal, I told them no, it only happens when my thyroid is off. I was
also misdiagnosed with other issues at the time and prescribed meds that made my issues feel
worse. I asked if their vehicles still recorded and they said yes.
I told officers after my last suicide attempt, I had a gun placed to my forehead and the files I
had with me, taken from me at my lawyers office and I was coerced into pleading guilty by my
lawyer Elaine Pourinski, the Supreme Court ada and judge. I didn’t forge that paper and didn’t
need it. I told officers this is the 2016 charge you see on my record. I was a complete disaster
at that time and everyone around me knew it, you officers can see the timeline, I was brought
to the hospital for my third suicide attempt in 4 months, it was the second you officers came to
my home and then I was l coerced into pleading guilty less than two weeks later. thankfully
being positive through that horrible ordeal got me Harley (my dog). that's how I also ended up
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meeting Beth, all this court stuff destroyed my marriage. Beth’s son was also abused in a
different group home than he’s being neglected in now and it was also covered up, that event
destroyed Beth’s marriage.
I told officers that ever since I met Beth her son had been abused and neglected in every
placement chosen by the commonwealth, she's been harassed by group home managers and
lied to by both group home companies and the state workers who are supposed to oversee her
sons care. Beth tried to buy a house, with the hopes of getting him closer, but the state said
they'd take his funding away if he moves into a home Beth or her son owns. The state pays
hundreds of thousands of dollars a year to abuse these kids in group homes and they only
offered Beth a worker to help her 20 hours a week if she took him home. This stuff would drive
Beth into panics, she couldn't understand how the state could display such disgusting
behavior. This caused her to have nightmares every night and it's not like she was making
things up or exaggerating, the things that I witnessed myself were horrible and Beth dealt with
it as best she could, she handled it better than I would have if that was my son. I told Beth she
could have our apartment, I didn't want to deal with these issues anymore, it was to much.
I told officers Beth needed a mental health evaluation, she was talking to herself in our dining
room, pacing back and forth and then telling me I should hit her if I’m so unhappy before
following me upstairs. She really wants me to kill myself, she’s never going to stop. You didn’t
see the look in her eyes. I’ve never seen her that angry. She’s been really upset about the
constant abuse of her son in these group homes, it’s absolutely disgusting and he’s still being
neglected at highland street in Southbridge. Like I said his house manager was fired this
morning and Beth doesn’t have anyone to help her with her son, I was the only one who ever
stood up for her and her son.
When my sister arrived, one officer brought Harley over to her, they didn’t ask Kathy about
Beth holding me against my will previously or let her come near me to say anything.
After Kathy left, before one of the officers transported me back to the warren police station, he
radioed in his mileage .
We had to drive past my street “South st” on the way to the station and I asked if the officer
could retrieve my backpack, since it had both my medication and my dog’s heart worm
medication in it, along with other personal items. He claimed there was nothing he could do
and I’d have to speak to a lawyer.
When we reached the station, that officer called in his mileage and informed me he needed to
do paperwork and that I would be recorded again inside the station. I felt very lucky to be
recorded and tried starting my story from the beginning. I told him I wished they had that
recording devices years ago, it would’ve prevented so many problems for me. Again I told him
how I was walking though a parking lot, got hit by a car while I was walking. The cops arrived
and arrested me.
At the time I thought it was all a big misunderstanding. That driver didn’t have car insurance
and had a rejection sticker for safety. This officer asked me the last time I was arrested. Then
walked away and started working on his computer. He nodded indicating he typing, so I
stopped talking.
This officer came back and read me my rights again, I agree yes. He never asks any more
questions, so I assume he remembered everything I said and was documenting it in his
computer. This officer asked for my info again.
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We lingered around at the station for way longer than I expected, the officer was having trouble
taking my finger prints on their electronic scanner and became very frustrated. first he said said
the courts would take me and I’d be released, then he said it was to late the courts wouldn’t be
able to take me, so I’d have to be dropped at the state police station before I could be bailed
out after the court close. I was allowed to use the bathroom uncuffed and alone. When done
the officer places me back in cuffs. He took me out to the vehicle, then went back inside.
This same warren officer transported me to the state police barracks in Brookfield. Before he
left he called in his mileage again.
Along the way I told that officer that Beth knows I’m going to fight this bogus accidental elbow
charge, she’s trying to force me to fight her fights for her. She wants me to expose all the
abuse we’ve witnessed in her sons group home placements. I told this officer how a manager
Rich shook my hand and lied to our faces about making home visits a thing for her son, her
son was constantly restrained and neglected. Then he moves to Uxbridge, the commonwealth
did everything it could to keep him 2 hours away. This new home was just as bad as the last,
her son got a mysterious hand infection that wasn’t documented and then an old manager
Craig comes into the picture and her son starts getting hand prints on his arm, he starts having
weird behaviors in front of this guy. It got so bad I had to pull this guy aside and ask if he
needed help communicating with Beth’s son. This event led to her son moving to the home
he’s being neglected in now. I told the officer about how I drove to this house while recording
the screen. Staff didn’t interact with her son for hours. He was just sitting in a corner doing
nothing. Whenever I see him we go for walks and he’s super curious about what’s going on.
Beth was distraught over that manager being fired this morning. Cynthia seemed like she was
going to be able to help Beth expose all this abuse and neglect going on in these
Massachusetts group homes.
I told this officer about my issues trying to fight that malicious damage charge. I tried to report
springfield police officers aiding that girl driving without car insurance and deleting it off of my
police report. I told him how I contacted the registry and they confirmed that girl didn’t have
insurance, had a rejection sticker for safety and suspended registration, she also drove around
with a suspended license at times. I told him how I contacted cjis and they confirmed that
officer accessed her license plate info and knew she was driving illegally, I told this officer that
because of judge Hadley I learned the Ada passed in a fake receipt as proof this girl paid for
her window, but I learned from the window place that the girl never paid and skipped out on
the bill. They gave me a copy of the receipt they faxed to her old insurance company. Then I
tried reporting these officers, but their fellow investigators helped cover up how they denied me
medical attention. I also learned the notarized statement I wrote was altered to hide things
officers told me. Once I learned about the receipt being fake, the commonwealth charged me
with forgery and I was ready to fight this in court, but then i got really sick and ended up trying
to commit suicide from all the stress I was going through, then some guy puts a gun to my
head in the hallway outside my lawyer Elaine Pourinskis office in Northampton. She knew I was
a mess and used that to coerce me into pleading guilty, even though she knew I didn’t forge
anything. The prosecutor and judge were also in on this. We talked in the hallway before
pleading and i was told what the judge wanted to hear. I told the officer how pissed the judge
looked when I said something different. I said I didn’t remember forging it, but I must have
cause I wanted it. Everyone knew I didn’t need it to prove anything, I already had a
preponderance of evidence, but I was sick and I fell apart, then the courts took advantage of
me. After court I was told that I was lucky the judge didn’t throw me in jail for my stunt. I still
haven’t been able to get a recording of that hearing.
I told the officer that Beth and I talked about fighting the commonwealth every single day of our
relationship, she knows all about my issues with the courts and I know all about the horrible
things that happened to her. I told Beth I can’t take this anymore and she won’t let me walk
away. That is why she said I hit her by accident, she really thinks that forcing me into court with
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actually help. I told the officer I couldn’t take it anymore, I’ve tried for years to expose what
happened and no one cares, no one ever has any answers. That’s exactly what drove Beth
crazy, she had nightmares every night and constantly worried about her sons safety. Even
though he’s finally closer, these companies still have the same problems and keep lying to our
faces.
Beth isn’t going to stop, she knows how impossible it is to expose all this, she really hopes I
get stressed and kill myself fighting this charge.
Officer called in mileage when we got to state police barracks.
I like to point out that even though warren officers were gentle with me and my dog, given the
nature of my genetic muscle issues and past surgical history, I could've been severely injured
by my arrest, I was no threat to anyone, I consider what they did to be kidnapping, following
Beth's commands. Especially because they failed to charge her for what she did to me. I didn't
touch her and she didn't touch me, she was trying to force me to stay and I wanted to leave.
She had no right to try holding me against my will or using police to do the same. She
shouldn’t have been able to keep my backpack and rummage though my stuff.
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2021 I encouraged Beth to get back in touch with her daughter and reconnect. Part of that was taking her son and daughter to purgatory camWhich was a big rock place is a big rock place near where his Group home was Beth’s mother and stepfather met her and her daughter their and surprised them, they knew their was lack of communication in the fsmily, but didn’t use positive encouragement to solve issues. They were much older, Beth is also 6 years older than I am, so they’re elderly, they all had a great time. Beth’s autistic son also encouraged his younger sister to climb a steep rock that day and it was documented on video, showing that autistic people have feeling and can encourage others too. He told his sister come on you can do it and he’s not a verbal kid. He doesn’t talk a lot. And not in coherent sentences like that, it was awesome.
Beth and I were talking about how she wanted me to deal with those bogus felonies on my record. the case I told you about, where the commonwealth created and altered evidence in my case, all to cover up a driver without insurance, then they all acted stupid when I provided evidence of their crimes, then they took advantage of my fragile mental state, when I was in the psych ward, after trying to kill myself multiple times, due to medication intern and my hyperthyroidism and then they coerced me into pleading guilty.
Beth wanted me to be co-guardian of her son Stephen. I helped her in ways no one ever had before.
Dealing with the commonwealth was overwhelming for Beth. You should know, everyone that works for the commonwealth seems to be stupid or totally corrupt.
She had nightmares, every night from the day I met her, because of the all abuse the commonwealth allowed to happen to her son before our meeting and the nonsense they continued forcing her to endure after I began seeing her. The commonwealth representatives lied on so many occasions, people who took reports from both Beth and I, altered our reports and left out vital information regarding the safety and well-being of her son Stephen. All to cover up this abuse and there’s pictures to prove it all.
Beth and I were both seeing therapists when we met and for some time after.
I spoke with my therapists about all the abuse Beth and her son endured. I know there’s a record about how Beth was struggling to deal with it all.
I spoke to my therapist about how all the abuse and tampering with evidence and failure of state employees to simply do their jobs, was causing me to lose sleep and worry about her son as well.
There’s also the emails, I don’t know how mine got deleted, there are all the emails that I wrote and sent out on Beth and Stephens behalf.
Stephen received a settlement from one the incidents he was abused, even though it wasn’t thoroughly investigated. Beth kept track of all the hours and time I spent helping her son, in order to pay me for my time. Beth was also supposed to reimburse me for using and not taking care of my car. This was part of the conversation the day I left, the settlement Stephen received had stipulations and made it hard to spend on anything that could help him or truly benefit him in any realistic/meaningful way.
Along with any mental health information, Beth had a list of physical issues she was dealing with at this time of this alleged incident.
She had a leg issue, that gave her back and neck pain. Rashes all over her body, I have pictures of some of these rashes and reactions. These are all things she spoke to my family about constantly.
I explained to you how sick I was and why I ran off that morning.
Beth was in total shock, she had no idea why I completely changed and told her I wasn’t happy and couldn’t take it all anymore.
Yes—you’ve already shared a comprehensive timeline of Beth’s son and your involvement in multiple group homes and psych ward visits, including:
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- KDC and Amigo homes:
You shared firsthand experiences of neglect—face injuries with no explanation, unsanitary conditions, missing documentation, FaceTime being misused, and abusive staff behavior like watching violent videos and misusing his Netflix account . - Relocations to Fall River and Southbridge were implied but not clearly time-stamped. You did describe Beth tracking miles on your car and covering expenses for your many visits to her son’s homes, which included multiple long drives both before and after the alleged assault .
- Driving there weeks before the assault:
Confirmed—you wrote that Beth was pushing you to continue surprise visits to keep an eye on her son. You mentioned being overwhelmed but still showing up to help during unsafe or under-documented situations .
What’s Still Missing?
If there are specific details about:
- exact dates of those trips (especially the one weeks before the incident)
- any visit logs or messages confirming your trip to Southbridge or Fall River
- the staff or agencies tied to those locations
…then those haven’t been laid out in full. But the core pattern, roles, travel, and emotional burden? It’s already documented in detail.
Want me to help turn all of this into a single clean timeline post for your blog or evidence archive? I can pull the key points into a scrollable summary or structured affidavit. Just say the word.
October 29
I wasn't in my right mind when I first started writing this stuff I was still traumatized from being arrested and falsely accused of assaulting someone
I don’t understand why I was smart enough to write myself a couple emails to remember things, but I wasn’t smart enough enough to force my lawyer’s in the beginning to write emails.
Copy from b3 file
2021: when I moved back to my mother’s house, I brought my entire toy And I started going to the gym again with my nephew, even though I wasn’t feeling great. I was trying to stay as positive as possible..
looking back, I now remember that she used to start these fights with us every time around my birthday. lol Only problem is this time I wasn’t in my right mind and I didn’t talk her out of it. I went along with it.
As upset as I was about her lying about me assaulting her, I was very grateful for all the time I got to spend with my nephew, and I’m still grateful for it. This pic was taken 10-10-2021, I’m smiling under the mask and my scrawny little bicep that I’m trying to flex is blocking my nephew’s face. lol
10-25
I went to Riverbend because I wasn't feeling right after all of this and I thought that I might have been suffering from the symptoms of my thyroid disease again, plus my neck was killing me, and it was giving me migraines.
I didn't think anything of this low TSH reading at the time, I didn't know that my thyroid could fluctuate so drastically and in such a short period of time.
When the results came back normal, I still felt like something was wrong, but I couldn't put my finger on it and I didn't feel like anyone else was interested in helping me figure it our either.
I emailed myself this bunch of nonsense after Beth lied about me elbowing her.
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From: Ricky Stebbins (thestebbman@yahoo.com)
To: thestebbman@yahoo.com
Date: Monday, October 25, 2021 at 12:32 PM EDT
I told her all the complaints my friends and family have about her.
Everyone thinks she’s the laziest girlfriend I’ve ever had.
She doesn’t have any friends.
When she visits with me and someone asks her how’s she’s doing.
She overwhelms them with all of her issues.
She had a short leg and it’s hard to work.
Her son was abused.
Her mom used to choke and hit her as a kid.
Her apartment was cleaner when she didn’t have a job.
She tells everyone she has depression, anxiety, ptsd, Arthritis, allergies to everything,
She’s told everyone that birth control makes her angry and she didn’t feel like herself.
She’s never apologized to me for anything. It’s always my fault
Then it’s embarrassing for when when people ask me what’s she’s doing to get help and I have to tell them she stopped
seeking help. And that she doesn’t document all of her issues. Yet she’s always on her phone.
I told her that I’m not happy. My neck always hurts, she never helps me at all. She always claims her hands hurt and
she’s tired. Which I understand, but that still doesn’t help me at all. I’m just stuck with no one by my side. It’s always
about her and what she wants.
Yet when I’m around she tells everyone about how I always help her with her son and I clean up around the house and
fold laundry she never puts away. I take care of brushing the dogs teeth.
I told her that I think she’s happy she had a disabled son, cause she never wants to work. She sent her son to a
group home cause she wanted to play video games and didn’t remove him when there was signs of abuse.
I had to talk her into taking her son out, she always said she didn’t want him to act out and was afraid of him
If I’m such a monster and there was a history of abuse. Why hasn’t she ever looked for an apartment or a full time job?
Why does she think she’s going to live next to my father at a discounted rent?
This isn’t even the first time Beth has brought up calling the police. Many times Beth has followed me around the house
and said- go ahead hit me, then I’ll call the police. And she would keep going until she got it out of her system.
She’s admitted in front of my family that when I try to walk away from her, when I feel that she’s getting over aggressive,
she refuses to give me space. She would follow me around the house and into our bedroom. I talked to my therapists
about her behavior and this was years ago. I’ve continuously told her that she has no right to prevent me from walking
away from her hostile behavior.
That morning she came out onto the porch and we talked for a couple minutes. I be told her multiple times that my
body didn’t feel good and my neck hurt. Beth began getting upset when I informed her that my father told me he doesn’t
want anymore cars in the driveway. Beth said she was going to speak with him and I told her it didn’t make any sense to
start trouble over something that isn’t going to happen anytime soon. I didn’t have money for a car and her daughter
didn’t even have her permit. Beth then brought up Olivia’s boyfriend sleeping over. I told her we will have to see. That
this is my fathers house and we already agreed to live by his rules. He already spoke to me about raising the rent
because of water and taxes. Beth started getting upset saying- we pay rent and can do whatever we want.
> I told her my neck is still really bothering me and I need a break. Then she started saying that I always do this on her
days off. I told her that I’m not mad at all, I’m just not happy. She kept saying that I’m mad. I tried explaining that I just
spent the last week getting this apartment rearranged and cleaned, so that her daughter could move in. I never
complained or tried to talk her out of it. She said her daughter needed a place to stay and I made it happen. Beth barely
helped at all. And she wouldn’t even give me a half hour to wake up. I told her I think she’s selfish and unappreciative.
Beth told me no one else thinks that. I told her she’s lying to herself. Beth then said- then tell me what people think.
Beth followed me around the house and kept saying that if I’m so unhappy I should hit her. She blocked the middle
bedroom door and told me to touch her and she’ll call the police. When she finally moved out of the way, we went
downstairs and she grabbed my backpack and refused to let me take it with me. I never tried to yank it from her. Though
she kept trying to get me to, egging me on. I kept telling her she can’t trap me here. She grabbed the headphones I had
hanging prevented me from taking those as well
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“ it’s 2025 and I thought I’d share my thoughts on this email I sent myself. I feel like such a pathetic loser and I feel like I was lying to myself in this email.
When I told her all the complaints of my friends and tell me about, it was a joke because they’re idiots, people would complain about serious problems when Beth would talk about it because they didn’t understand what she was talking about.
I feel like this is a totally different person writing this email. I literally wrote about how I ignored her having a mental breakdown and walked out on her. I’ve given this woman my word that I would never walk out on her when she wanted to talk about something she was having a panic attack. And I literally wrote myself a note about it.
And I love brushing the dogs teeth, I snuggle with Harley for like 10 minutes before I brush your teeth every night, it became the favorite part of my day and here I am whining about it like a little baby.“
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I wrote this to myself in a Facebook post on November 7, 2021 after hearing my brother tell me what a loser I was and a disappointment I've been all my life. My brother gave me crap because I started going to the gym and I posted pictures because I went on a hike with my nephew. he thinks disabled people need to be fat and look like turds.
“With things being so hectic, I just want to say again how very much I appreciate everyone who’s helped me with these unexpected moves and those who stood by my side this past month. I am beyond grateful and know I couldn’t have done all of this on my own.
This whole experience has turned out to be so positive and I honestly didn’t think that was even possible, I would’ve bet it was going to be a nightmare. Even a few of the conversations I’ve had with certain people started off sounding like it was going to end on a sour note, but I am so happy to admit that I was wrong. Brutally honest, just say it how it appears comments were exactly what we needed to bring us closer together. I really listened to all of the things everyone had to say and I admit that some of it was spot on, while others were not. I don’t hold these misconceptions against anyone. There are times I still can’t accept that there are things in my life that I can’t change or that I can’t fix everything and need to let things go or step back and admit that I don’t have what it takes anymore.
I’d be lost without those close to me and as much as I hate to admit it, I can’t make it on my own with my physical issues. I can’t change my situation, but everyone helped change my attitude about it and for that, I will forever be grateful.
I have the greatest friends and family a guy could ask for. I love you all very much and because of all of you, I feel better both physically and mentally than I have in a long time.”
What I learned from this is that people love to tell you all the mistakes that they see you make, but never have anything positive to say or offer any ideas on how to realistically improve anything. And people are too ignorant to even investigate why problems are occurring. They just like to mock people who are having problems. ~Ricky 5-2025~
In November I started playing with sparklers and the shutter speed on my camera in the backyard I did this around the 26th
December
Note I wrote myself 12-15-2021
" I told Beth I was feeling overwhelmed and couldn’t understand why. Which was totally out of character for me. I told her I had a migraine from my neck.
Beth kept pressing me to talk about what was bothering me, she said that even Olivia mentioned to her that I haven’t seemed happy recently.
I told her that I was feeling the way I was when Craig Robinson was in the room and Stephen started jumping up and down in a way we’d never seen before. I felt that dealing with this nonsense was impossible and unending. I told Beth this is also how I felt when she was alone on that zoom meeting about Stephen and then not allowing him to be transported anywhere, she had thought I was upset with something she said during that meeting, but it had nothing to do with her. I told her again that this is how I just recently felt when that lady lied to my face about having two staff walk stephen and they didn’t even have enough staff to work the house, I asked her to call if they weren’t going to be able to take him for a walk and she lied and said that wouldn’t be necessary, even though she acknowledged they didn’t have enough staff and haven’t hired new employees to train yet. I didn’t realize it at the time, but all these people twisting their words and allowing this abuse to go on and people were allowed to act stupid like nothing was happening, was causing me to get terrible migraines. The commonwealth workers and group home managers lies were starting to effect me physically.
Beth changed the subject to my court issues, which gave me a bigger headache. Beth really wanted me to get my record expunged, so she started asking questions about that and I told her about all the nonsense I had sorted through up until that point. i told her when you read all this crap, you can tell judge Hadley knew and did nothing, that ada Johnston was the one the investigator identified as the woman who went to the window place to get a copy of the bill and then altered it and put a fake paid stamp on it, before presenting it as fact. Beth really wanted me to be co guardian of her son Stephen, I had taken the all the paperwork out, but reading it was giving me the worst migraines. The commonwealth took advantage of my situation and broke the law, then tried driving me crazy, I sought out therapists and tried medication until I tried killing myself three times.
I told Beth how my Mom had fallen broken wrist for no reason at all, just standing there, then she was on the ground.
I told her how my Dad said didn’t want me getting car, said he didn’t want the driveway looking like a parking lot. This got Beth all fired up, she wanted to go next door and talk to sue since my dad was at work, this started to give me a panic attack. I told her not to, Beth said she was going to talk to my dad when he got home. I told her it’s not a big deal, she said she was going to buy me a car, then I pointed out how she hasn’t figured out how to repay me for using my car and for all the time I invested in her son and she used my car to travel to work, she acted like this was going to happen even though the lawyer never got back to her on how to she could make that happen.
Olivia flower water in sink conversation never should have happened, I was totally out of it, I told Beth I needed her to speak to Olivia about using the sink in the basement. When I should’ve been able to myself, I told her I never say anything right and people just get upset when I do point things out.
Tattoo at home
Talking about Olivia’s Boyfriend sleeping over
Beth was upset about the rash her glasses had caused. Her back and neck were bothering her.
She talked about the tv tray she bought for Stephen being used by staff and him having nothing to eat on.
Beth was very upset with how disgusting the bathroom was, you could’ve scrapped the scum off the walls.
We talked about how I made a special drive to visit Stephen because his phone was pointed at the ceiling and no staff interacted with him for a very long time. I could hear screaming and banging in the background, but never any staff voices. When I arrived, Stephen popped up and looked very happy to see me. At no time did staff speak to him. I only told her after I picked her up from work, no need to worry people about neglect.
Told her how my brother gave me shit for inviting her disabled son Stephen to a family party. Because he’s nonverbal, poor kid had not had a home visit at all up to that point on our relationship, it should’ve been seen as a milestone, not a reason to put disabled people down.
I told her how my mom’s boyfriend said Beth was the laziest girlfriend I’ve ever had.
There was something about that damage to her car and that manager being fired so she wasn’t going to be able to help us anymore.
I was very bothered about the DPPC and mass state police allowing my statements about the abuse Stephen suffered to be altered.
I told Beth that surprise call with Rich Mancini where he pulled the nastiest move on Beth on our drive home and he threatened to send Stephen to the emergency room if Beth didn’t sign papers allowing him to be locked in the closet. I was locked in a closet when I was 9 years old in Catholic school, those were long hard days for a 9 year old, the teachers police officer husband and my mom knew about this.
Things were getting worse, I told Beth I’d ask my uncle for money to movers to help me leave. I was having worse and worse anxiety, my heart was pounding
This was totally unlike me.
Beth Followed me up stairs with the dogs into the middle bedroom, then blocked the door so I couldn’t leave. I got dressed but didn’t hear what she was saying to me until I was finished. I was in full panic mode, once finished I told her I hadn’t heard a thing and it was over, I wasn’t happy and I was leaving. She was blocking the door the entire time. After I said that, she looked totally betrayed, like she didn’t understand why I was acting the way I was. Then she said go ahead hit me, push me out of the way, I’ll call the cops, i said I didn’t care, I didn’t want to be with her anymore, I wasn’t happy and hadn’t been for a while. Even though it wasn’t true. The last straw was her saying go ahead push me out of the way, I’ll call the cops, I’ll never stop, I hope you do kill yourself this time. That’s when I picked Harley up and told Beth to get fuck out of my way now.
Beth opened the door and exited before me, she stood in front of the stairs for a moment, then moved aside. She followed me downstairs and she took my backpack as I was putting my dogs harness on. She refused to give my backpack back to me, which only made things worse.
I then told her this is why no one cares if you’re a victim and no one cares that your son keeps getting abused.
If you really have problems, you need to document them yourself, stop expecting other people to do everything for you.
I had Harley and left without my stuff even though it was raining"
Christmas
This picture below is the last time I went to a family party, I believe this is Christmas Eve, I felt like shit I was still trying my hardest to have a good time, I felt so depressed and beaten down, but I got my nephew Dom to sing some karaoke "Ricky Astley's- Never going to give you up". lol
24th? lol
Aimee asked me to install lights in her little princess castle and wanted to take a picture of me wearing one of her favorite shirts so I agreed
Snowman Mortimer 12-25
What a Christmas. lol Before mother, bob, my brother and his family came over this morning, I slipped and fell down the stairs and bruised my rearend, this was right before I made this snowman in the picture below.
I had my heart set on making him, it hurt like hell, but I made him anyway. lol I didn't want the way I felt to get in the way of making happy memories, plus I thought maybe one of the kids would tackle it or just enjoy seeing it.
Took this picture December 26th I didn't think this guy was going to make it, it warmed up pretty fast
Took this picture of Mortimer New Year's Eve December 31st he made it even though where the weather was warm
🗓 March 1 – Shoulder surgery
🗓 August – Sue’s son visit, Harley incident
🗓 October 4 – Beth’s 911 call + restraining order
🗓 Oct 10 – Gym pic with nephew
🗓 Nov 7 – Facebook reflection
🗓 Late Nov – Sparklers photography
🗓 Dec 25 – Mortimer the Snowman
🗓 Dec 31 – Mortimer survives!
Medications for the year.
